what would you guys do is ss didn't exist.

[trulyautistic]

would you just rope or go to a different forum?

 

[madeincruddy]

I'd most likely just fail any eventual attempts to CTB. This is the only forum of this nature that I'm aware of so looking for methods would be way more annoying

 

[imontheloose]

There used to be more forums like this in the past, all taken down of course. The same will happen to this site eventually. We will continue to migrate around or finalise the knowledge we gathered from here.

 

[waqs]

Probably be worse off, its comforting that I'm not alone in these feelings. Plus it is the only place I can talk about suicide without whiteknights trying to "save" me kek

 

[Leonard_Bangley39]

id probably bottle a lot more stuff up. i love being able to vent all my shit here and not having to worry about hurting or driving people away.

 

[Karrikin]

Be miserable in trying to find another place like this. Nowhere else can I really be as honest or get to meet others going through the same thing, etc.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

I'd be more miserable and more lost. At this point I'd probably try to find another forum while existing.

 

[Webcore]

Probably would have gone through a horrific suicide method that wouldn't have even killed me.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I found out about inert gas and SN via news/ police reports. I suspect I'd be scouring the internet for information elsewhere. I also knew about the PPH (Peaceful Pill Handbook.) I suspect I'd be trying to look for that.

 

[metfan647]

I'd have probably roped or gone on to think jumping was my only way to go. Wouldn't have likely looked into other methods like SN.

If I get my SN, I'd be delighted to have a method that allows more ease and impulse.

 

[SASU-KE]

I'd cry myself to sleep every night.


No, but honestly there's another site similar to this. I'm not sure if I'm allowed to link that site here. I'd probably spend more time there.

 

[hurb]

Clutch my cheeks and go full mambo jambo straight to the beach. Keep swimming fully clothed. Force myself to drown.
Im still thinking bout this method and might end up doing it.

 

[cbtvvxxvvv]

probably mutilated myself greatly or be perma institutionalized

 

[thelostautistic]

I think I'd really struggle if this site went down. There's so many lovely people here and it's the only space I have to talk about how I feel. I would probably look for another forum

 

[nitrogenous]

Probably kept on overdosing on meds and hoping they would work when they wouldn't, or worse attempt to ctb using pure nitrogen without proper knowledge and not only wasting money, but also not getting the help I need.

 

[Tzrmd]

As someone who just found this site, i can say i would continue doing what i have been doing.

Lying to friends and family, pretending i am ok and going through life on autopilot.

That said, it has been nice reading about other peoples thoughts and experiences

 

[burninghill]

probably be torturing myself with trying to access likeminded people on tumblr or reddit again

 

[StryngerX]

If SS didnt exist, my way to ctb would gonna be jumping from somewhere, since i found out about SN in here, i was able to plan everything till the day i'll go away, which the final part is that anyone would ever know im dead.

 

[UserFromNowhere]

I don't know. I came to SaSu because I was feeling genuinely suicidal and recalled seeing a forum similar to that nature which I could go to as a resource, but I imagine that if SaSu never did exist, I would've still used the internet as a way of researching suicide methods. I would've found a couple that worked, a couple that didn't, and compared between them to see what I could do and what would be difficult for me.

It's possible I wouldn't have found out about SN or find a source for it (or I may have similarly found out about it and would've had an easier time finding a source due to the lack of knowledge about its use) and wouldn't have the mental battle about using it that I face. It's possible I would've tried using another method I didn't have similar reservations about and I would be dead. Or, as with hanging, I would've found a method that failed to kill me.

I have some inkling of a belief that I would be dead already if it wasn't for SaSu, that I would've died by some other means or not held myself back from committing suicide as I have, but it's impossible to say. That is a different life I have no knowledge of, like a life where I didn't fall into a depressive state, or a life where I made other decisions that brought me joy. I'm here in this life and don't have the experience of any others, so I sit with the knowledge I have, and a constant decision on my hands.

 

[windowinstaller]

Die

 

[trulyautistic]

Probably be worse off, its comforting that I'm not alone in these feelings. Plus it is the only place I can talk about suicide without whiteknights trying to "save" me kek

true it is important the people have a space where they can talk to other people who are going through the same problems.

There used to be more forums like this in the past, all taken down of course. The same will happen to this site eventually. We will continue to migrate around or finalise the knowledge we gathered from here.

you really think this forum will one day get taken down?

probably mutilated myself greatly or be perma institutionalized

i wonder what being institutionalized is like.

 

[Melancholys]

I feel like I'd probably be still trying, but using a lot worse methods. Probably just rope, or something a hell of a lot worse/riskier/more painful.

 

[darksouls]

for a long time,
I searched the entire internet for a forum in my native language,
I went through all the forums similar to sasu,
the people there are awful,
there is no place like this on the entire internet

 

[May16th]

I would've probably made some really dumb and ineffective attempts and would have ended up physically disabling myself.

 

[kitkatt]

Probably keep cycling through till either I kill myself or someone else or something kills me. A glitch that doesn't wanna have so stop glitching to be real or validated. I wish she would've aborted me to I wouldn't be ridden with all this existential baggage man

 

[May16th]

i wonder what being institutionalized is like.

It depends on your country and your city. I say from experience(personal and family members) that in a third-world country like Brazil, being institutionalized is hell on earth, but in some more developed countries, there are still some institutions that are "outdated" and still have some barbaric practices. It feels like a place where people are sedated and abandoned to die by society.There are, of course, some institutions where you receive good care, attention, leisure, and therapy, especially in more developed places with a more progressive view on the matter, but even so, they still don't seem like good places to spend more than a month; you will end up missing your freedom and privacy.

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

Make an ass of myself on YouTube and with my psychiatrist. Helpful? Nope, but I need an outlet.

 

[curiousgeorgette]

It's been a really helpful resource in finding a way to CTB that is less scary, although still very scary to me. I was able to find all the materials I need, which required me mastering the dark web lol. (I haven't bought the SN yet because I had a panicked reaction to actually finding it. I already bought everything else.) Reading threads on here can make my heart pound and hands shake but it's also good to have a non-judgmental community––actually heart-warmingly kind and empathetic.

If SaSu didn't exist I would be in even more pain because I wouldn't know about the SN method, which is the only one I may be able to work up the courage to do. It's weird how how simultaneously comforting and frightening it is to have the info I need from SaSu. I hope I can make friends through this community and find someone to be with me on the phone or Facetime when I (hopefully) work up the nerve to CTB with SN.