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Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
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Mr./Ms. Cowardly Thread Deleter (@...juul whatever their username is) has blocked me. :haha: Who will save me now?! @zeroornothing
 
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todestrieb

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Dec 2, 2021
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My husband ctb in October. I can play the recordings I kept for legal reasons where I begged him to stay. I cried and screamed, begging him to stop and put his weapon down. I still flip my shit when I think about it. I still scream and cry when I remember he's not coming home. I know why he did it though, even if it never makes it easier. I want to join him soon and feel … complete again. I would never want to lose somebody I love, so it's only natural to fight for them.
 
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cambrai33

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Nov 3, 2021
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My husband ctb in October. I can play the recordings I kept for legal reasons where I begged him to stay. I cried and screamed, begging him to stop and put his weapon down. I still flip my shit when I think about it. I still scream and cry when I remember he's not coming home. I know why he did it though, even if it never makes it easier. I want to join him soon and feel … complete again. I would never want to lose somebody I love, so it's only natural to fight for them.
So so sorry you had to witness this and carry the pain of it deep inside. I can't begin to imagine how you must feel and have no words except to say thank you for sharing something so raw and personal
 
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Oct 18, 2021
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We all claim to be pro-choice here, but to be entirely honest, if someone I knew and loved deeply was going to ctb, I think I'd try to stop them. I want to say I'd respect their choice but.. I dunno. I think the fact that I know them so well and I can really work with them to live a better life would maybe drive me to prevent it. Is that selfish? What would you do?
I don`t think I have anyone in my life I love. Tbh I just don`t really have anyone at all since I`m so retarded, pathetic and difficult to deal with in the first place.
But if I did... Yeah, I`d probably devote myself a ton to helping them. The thing is that everyone here knows that CTB is a last resort, and just wished life was different somehow, and I believe the thought of someone we care about having that same amount of pain we know of is heartbreaking, so we`re inclined to at least help. Or try to. It`s not always possible, but yeah.
 
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Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
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I would never want to lose somebody I love, so it's only natural to fight for them.

Of course it's only natural. I'm sorry for your loss.
 
VKVK

VKVK

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Oct 18, 2021
112
My husband ctb in October. I can play the recordings I kept for legal reasons where I begged him to stay. I cried and screamed, begging him to stop and put his weapon down. I still flip my shit when I think about it. I still scream and cry when I remember he's not coming home. I know why he did it though, even if it never makes it easier. I want to join him soon and feel … complete again. I would never want to lose somebody I love, so it's only natural to fight for them.
I`m sorry for your loss and your pain, I can`t imagine how you`re feeling.
 
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needingpeace24

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Oct 19, 2021
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I'd give/do anything I possibly could to help her. Even without anything in return. Even if it didn't change her feelings towards me. I'd give up everything if it saved her.
 
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