Discussion What phase of CTB are you currently in?

[Squalo]

3 - I have planned the method, I have a nautical rope in the drawer and I know the place to do it well, all I need is a date.

 

[CyberCat95]

5 probably. I just don't want to mess it up again and make the brain injury worse lol
Also I have one friend who is actually really great and I would feel so bad for him if I CTB

 

[completely-done]

1 - I decided to invest in N. I can easily save up in a month. Worth the wait. I can fake it for a couple of more months I hope. Or else I'll probably impulse ctb before then, maybe hyper-stab my neck when I'm manic

 

[Treeline589]

1

 

[boldarnold]

Final stage, doing as much preparations as i could , i dont want it to be impulsive

 

[bloodfallsfirst]

5. My friend sees me pretty often and for some reason I can't lie to him how I'm doing. For that reason, it's hard to buy weapons, since my damn mouth will go off and confess.

 

[fatefulstillness]

I want to say I'm at a 4... but my actions indicate it's a 5. It's been strange lately.

 

[elfin]

3

 

[Seiba]

I had an aborted attempt a bit ago, out of cowardice for the method and worry of brain damage. I'm currently having my packages watched so being actively suicidal and getting a better method is out of the window currently. I'd say passively suicidal, in other words four on the scale. My preferred method would take place in a hotel, and I have no license that alongside the package watch will postpone things for a while. That, and naturally cowardice. It is very emotionally difficult to kill yourself -- I'm apathetic in my day to day but both times times this year when I came close to doing it resulted in crying despite wanting to for years. Human bodies aren't exactly partial to giving themselves away to a chosen death.

Going to be forced into therapy in a bit with no choice of my own, might email one on my own and see how that goes.

 

[LateToParty]

Should have gone already since long ago - stage. But circumstances are delaying the inevitable for now.

 

[Ashu]

4. Passively suicidal. Will CTB probably sometime later in life.

Four, probably like most or all of us older members, who gave up trying to kill ourselves in youth, and resigned ourselves to waiting, possibly until our natural end.

 

[ixkitty]

I belive i am a 1 as well as a 3 :)

 

[SleepingGirl]

I'd say a 2 but feel trapped by people I care about. Want out so bad but can't stand the thought of leaving someone all alone in this hells cape. Thinking of really trying to obtain some N though just so it's there when I can't take it no more.

 

[YMN]

I would say 1. All that remains in my plans is to book a hotel room in the coming weeks and hope I ctb.

 

[Lifeless mindset]

2

 

[lobster salad]

I am at 1... I've planned this for long, almost a year and I'm still readying myself. Can't wait till I reach 2 and I'm fully ready, I won't hesitate at all by then. I need to die soon

 

[rationaltake]

I'm at 3. Need to go. But barely function.