Venting What keeps me going instead of ctb?

[wanttodie12345]

Just the fact that I want to ctb and ride to the end of the line. I don't want anyone to interrupt and be further stuck in this hell. I'm attending MH group now and had to step out because I can't positive think all my real problems away! Positive thinking doesn't solve health problems I was born with! Positive thinking doesn't make my health improve to get a job! Positive thinking doesn't make it safe for me to drive!

 

[Terios]

I really hate it when people suggest gaslighting yourself into thinking that it's all good when it sure as hell isn't, like if I'm in a shithole I can try to come up with a plan to get out if it and I'll do my best, but what some people don't realize is that not every problem is solvable or can be coped with.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find the whole telling people to be positive way of thinking to be very invalidating to all the suffering there is in this reality, it truly is such a very cruel existence, I also just wish to be free from it.