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Parnate

Wizard
Dec 16, 2021
601
Mine is lack of money. I work at an extremely toxic job for 11/12 hrs a day, sometimes even more. On paper my company pays me only for eight hours a day. I eat lunch like a dog so that I can finish the work fast. I can't do business cause I am naive, innocuous and gullible, people very often take advantage of that. If I had enough money I could just quit that and do something like farming , or horticulture etc.where I could work and also do things I like , like meditation and praying , reading. I could get a simple , less paying job but that would only suffice my needs . My parents are dependent on me, also they are getting old so I need money if they get sick or hospitalised.
 
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white_car

Member
Dec 22, 2024
79
Hey... I have many problems in life, but the biggest one is the fact that the kind of situation you're describing about your self is even possible.

That there are no cosmic laws that would prevent this from happening. This makes me hate existence with all my heart.

We all found our way out of nothingness for this crap??? Yeah no, screw this!
 
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starboy2k

starboy2k

“I’ve been digging my own grave for years”
May 21, 2025
608
My heart keeps beating…thats a problem I definitely need to get rid of lol.
 
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UglyLife82

UglyLife82

Member
Feb 25, 2025
47
Lack of money is mine too. I think my life wouldn't be so ugly if I had money, and it wouldn't be so completely devoid of fun or beauty.
 
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lpdsvm

lpdsvm

Experienced
Jan 11, 2026
298
I will have issues staying legally in a foreign country soon due to a potential consular service refusal. So it is about money. Another thing is that even if I were to fix it, there could be another problem that would be worse or similar. It all comes down to money and sources of income. But I managed to fight that anxiety, to panic less, and learn to accept that I have to CTB no matter what happens to me and whose fault that is and whether it is almost possible to solve if I lock in and sacrifice myself. I just need to wait and CTB by 2029 or earlier. I have important time periods to reassess whether to get a real CTB visa sooner or not.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
2,485
Not being able to connect with anyone because I'm dead inside.
 
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bl33ding_heart

bl33ding_heart

Borderline
Jun 24, 2025
676
My borderline personality disorder. :/
 
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historiaegiptu

historiaegiptu

Member
May 2, 2026
23
Really shitty social skills
 
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morina

morina

Member
Apr 11, 2026
80
Anhedonia
 
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SDB

Specialist
Jul 21, 2025
316
Still can't find a job
 
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strangulation

strangulation

Member
Apr 9, 2026
22
agoraphobia
 
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avstin

avstin

ᡕᠵデᡁ᠊╾━
Aug 18, 2023
34
my head in general. been struggling with depression for seven years now, currently being diagnosed with bpd and god knows what else will the guy find. it all feels like i'm doomed from the start
 
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CatLvr

Enlightened
Aug 1, 2024
1,761
agoraphobia
I really have to battle with myself to get "out and about". It is physically painful. Ugh -- even just talking about it gets my heartrate (and probably blood pressure on the rise). So, I understand -- and I am sorry you are suffering with this -- it is horrible.

I also have significant chronic pain issues from some congenital deformities that were just compounded by injuries in a couple, three accidents over the years. A life well lived some would say -- more like a propensity to be in the wrong place at the wrong time but whatever ... 🤷🏻
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,482
Mental illness
 
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Le temps perdu

Le temps perdu

my pragmatics errors can kill me
Dec 10, 2025
384
stuck in a country that doesn't suit me and that I don't like for years, and I'm still broke.
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,482
And alzheimher of mum
 
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lpdsvm

lpdsvm

Experienced
Jan 11, 2026
298
stuck in a country that doesn't suit me and that I don't like for years, and I'm still broke.
I totally get you. I fled myself but that country will still try to make it all bad for me. I cannot change it. Now it's even harder, I would have to just run with no money. Just a ticket or hitchhiking.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,912
For me no matter what existence itself will always be the true problem, I'll always see existence as the most terrible, cruel and harmful mistake that just causes all this torture and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, there's just so much evil in existing.

I'll just always see it as an abomination to be conscious burdened with this torturous existence, all I want is to cease existing, for me non-existence is the positive solution to find peace from this existence so torturous, it's so terrible how this existence was imposed at all causing all this torture when never existing was perfection. I always suffer from being trapped in this painful, torturous existence so cruelly denied the option to find true permanent peace from this existence that only ever tortures existing beings all for the sake of it.
 
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strangulation

Member
Apr 9, 2026
22
I really have to battle with myself to get "out and about". It is physically painful. Ugh -- even just talking about it gets my heartrate (and probably blood pressure on the rise). So, I understand -- and I am sorry you are suffering with this -- it is horrible.

I also have significant chronic pain issues from some congenital deformities that were just compounded by injuries in a couple, three accidents over the years. A life well lived some would say -- more like a propensity to be in the wrong place at the wrong time but whatever ... 🤷🏻
it's debilitating, on top of all the other mental shit i have to deal with. my health has also been acting up recently, and the thought of going to a hospital is literally making my chest hurt. i'm hoping i can just deal with it through a video call.

i'm sorry to hear about the accidents and your chronic pain, i have a parent who also experiences it due to previously being in the military. i wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. i wish you well and i hope you can find some comfort and relief for your pain.
 
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Le temps perdu

Le temps perdu

my pragmatics errors can kill me
Dec 10, 2025
384
I totally get you. I fled myself but that country will still try to make it all bad for me. I cannot change it. Now it's even harder, I would have have to just run with no money. Just a ticket or hitchhiking.
I'm so sorry to hear that, I hope you'll soon find yourself in a place of freedom and be free from these constraints.❤️
 
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lpdsvm

lpdsvm

Experienced
Jan 11, 2026
298
I'm so sorry to hear that, I hope you'll soon find yourself in a place of freedom and be free from these constraints.❤️
Thank you. I hope you will figure it out as well.
I'm trying my best. I really tried and even left but I am tired. I am just focusing on what I have and my method; if it really starts to affect me I will do it.
 
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Shiru

Shiru

Endless sky
Dec 20, 2024
72
I don't know that I want in life also I struggle with going out of home it makes me anxious and I don't like responsabilities
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,482
My Illness and alzheimher of my mother
 
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PanaxMan

Water fasting until death (Currently homeless)
Apr 11, 2023
679
Mine is lack of money. I work at an extremely toxic job for 11/12 hrs a day, sometimes even more. On paper my company pays me only for eight hours a day. I eat lunch like a dog so that I can finish the work fast. I can't do business cause I am naive, innocuous and gullible, people very often take advantage of that. If I had enough money I could just quit that and do something like farming , or horticulture etc.where I could work and also do things I like , like meditation and praying , reading. I could get a simple , less paying job but that would only suffice my needs . My parents are dependent on me, also they are getting old so I need money if they get sick or hospitalised.
Documents then money but can't even get those anyway
 
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xax

Member
Mar 14, 2026
13
no true friends
 
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Shadowsight

Shadowsight

dumb cat
May 12, 2026
15
Having painfully bad social skills and being terrified of upsetting people. All of my other big problems(being unemployed, still living with and being dependent on my parents, etc.)tie back to that.
 
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Kanau_Nano

Kanau_Nano

Experienced
Apr 12, 2026
241
Almost everything about myself. I don't want to be me anymore
 
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Mattew

Member
May 3, 2026
14
Depression since i was a 16 and passed my life in struggle with almost no friends and no family members to rely on since i was a mistake for them ( a broken condom actually). Live a meaningless life on a routine for years with a job that i don't like, but i have to go because i need that money since i have responsibilities and otherwise I can't afford my medicine. Hopefully suicide is an escape for me, i feel like if i found a way out of this shit that's called life
 
Aflame5926

Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
585
me myself and i (as in am my worst enemy). and not able to have good moments anymore. food used to make it a bit better
another thing is since my burn out i can't deal with groups anymore. not even in the slightest. noise and light makes my head spin and actually can make me feel sick.
long life the FUCKING bright car lights which are just blinding these days like HOLY F
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
7,030
thave-good-problem-solving-skills-but-my-problem-creating-skills-are-where-really-shine
 
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