What is the strongest emotion you have been feeling today?

[hungry_ghost]

Disgust.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Sadness ..... It just won't go away.

 

[Bibotik470]

Absolutely livid.

Suffering from cPTSD means reliving your memories non-stop without rest, as they keep resurfacing. There's not a moment in my life where I ever feel safe.

 

[Alwaysdreaming]

Regret that I didn't go through with suicide while I had the perfect opportunity to. Now I will have to find the strength to pull through or go off and die at some shitty hotel.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Extremely overwhelmed. I just want to be gone. If it wasn't for family and S.S. I would be long gone.
Sick of being a wage slave. I could cry but I don't think I can. Even if I could, it wouldn't change anything.
Supposed to be a man. I don't think that will ever happen.
I just want to hold someone. I don't even care if it's a woman or man. It's not about sex. I want to feel safe.
I don't know if I ever have my entire life. Not completely anyway.
I don't know how people do it.
I need to get some sleep and I'm not sure that will work. I just want to walk out in the middle of a thunderstorm, fall to my knees and scream. Maybe I would be lucky enough to get hit by lightning.
This misery is neverending. I Hate life!!!

 

[Marine]

Defect and rejection

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Like shit. I don't know why I get slammed for things that others do every day.

 

[wait.what]

Horror, I think. Yeah, probably horror.

 

[ImsooDone1N]

Pathetic in every possible regard.

 

[ImsooDone1N]

So insignificant

 

[Shivali]

Despair

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Weak

 

[Klophy]

Regret

 

[ImsooDone1N]

Hopeless

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Content, though perhaps not in a good way. Idk it's hard to explain.

 

[Lebensunwertes]

Misery.

 

[Eternal🌈Rainbow]

Shame

 

[ImsooDone1N]

Abandoned

 

[Josh007]

Anxiety

 

[Faustus]

I can't express the precise emotion with a word. It's like thousand of insects flying and buzzing around my mental environment, touching me, entering inside my mouth, nose, tickling my eyes and my tongue...

 

[Hope:-)]

Anger.

 

[Unicornsrnot4dislife]

Worthlessness

 

[toasterbath]

existential dread

 

[Rd2nowhere]

Delight

 

[gottablast888]

feeling really calm which i deserve to feel

 

[ButterflyWings]

Bitterness.

 

[MountainMonkey]

I feel like dog shit stuck to bottom of a shoe

 

[ImsooDone1N]

Disappointment

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I am not ok...









Tonight the monsters in my head
Are screaming so damn loud
But I built walls so high
So they never even make a sound

It's a mask, it's a lie
It's the only home I've ever known
'Cause being who I really am
Has only left me more alone

I am not okay
And I need you to see it
I have so much to say
And no one to hear it
The reason I keep quiet
With so much at stake
I always feel like a burden, let it silence me
You'll never understand
Why it's so hard to say
I'm not okay

I wish I had a scar
Had a bruise on the surface, any kind of proof
That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse

My life's invisible abuse
I'm either judged or have to hide
The only symptom you can see
Is I don't wanna be alive

I am not okay
And I need you to see it
I have so much to say
And no one to hear it
The reason I keep quiet
With so much at stake
I always feel like a burden, let it silence me
You'll never understand
Why it's so hard to say

I'll never have the words, I can't explain this hell
But what if it kills me
If I keep it to myself?
To myself

I am not okay
And I need you to see it
I have so much to say
And no one to hear it
I am not okay
I am not okay
I'm never safe
It's not a phase
If I finally break
Would you still stay?

Tonight the monsters in my head
Are screaming so damn loud

 

[ImsooDone1N]

Panic