Discussion What is stopping you from ctb right this second?

[lukespain22]

What is stopping you from ctb right this second?

 

[WhatDoesTheFoxSay?]

One word: Mum.

 

[lostangel]

covid 19 restrictions

 

[Fthis]

My SN order got cancelled and the building I was gonna jump off of closed. I'm to cowardly to do hanging because I can't find the sweet spot and I'm tempted to use a shitty method like salt water.

 

[HopelessFight]

Hope that the disease I live with will get better. But I am prepared in case it doesn't.

 

[cappuccinogirl]

fearing ill fail and have to live with whatever damage it causes. i've been practicing the night night method and hopefully i will be able to go this week. i have nothing and nobody to live for.

Hi How ru finding that. Seems like it can be v tricky xx

 

[Lucien]

Just improving my plan. I can't afford to fail or back out once I begin.

 

[WornOutLife]

The anime episodes I'm gonna watch while having some snacks.

 

[reginas.specter]

the people i care about. i know how i'd do it, and i know where i'd do it.. i have all the things i need. but i am heavily influenced by the people i care about. if any of them knew about my suicidal thoughts, and begged me to stay, i would never ben able to do it. i can barely stand the thought of hurting the people i care about. but many of the reasons i have for ending my life are to help those i care about. lots of burdens that would be lifted from them if i were gone. but they would never think about it that way, of course. they wouldn't want me to feel guilty. and that makes it even harder to be contemplating ctb haha

 

[worthlessdisaster]

Hi How ru finding that. Seems like it can be v tricky xx

i've was practicing with my hands finding my sweet spot what a crazy feeling. but tonight i'll practice placing everything where it should go and pick my date. i have so many anxiety attacks the sweet spot was pretty easy to find. but if it wasn't for that i'd never know

 

[alown]

What is stopping you from ctb right this second?

my current 3 year old son.

but indirectly and unconsciously I also say to myself that if I commit suicide one day, that could perhaps give him a better future, because what child would want a depressed and suicidal father? but above all what can I bring him that is good?

 

[Buffy5120]

My god damn Gerd/Lpr stomach issues

 

[Adamsnolife]

Lockdown

 

[insanedoomer]

Lack of peacefull methods

 

[notsure04]

Ive been selling my things, donating... before ctb I wanna make sure everything is taken care of. Just taking my time and doing what's right so I dont annoy nobody.

 

[Error1987]

I'm actually on the verge right now. Maybe I'll do it next week. Sounds like fun.

 

[girlofduty]

Not sure, everyday I find a different reason. Mainly though, I'm scared of what's after death. I just don't know.

But I know that billions are there or experienced it, so it should be fine?

 

[sad]

Lack of SN and Meto :(

 

[Last chance]

A couple of reasons,not fully committing to and deciding on a method and my friend being away so I dont have anyone to look after my dog.

 

[DarkWolf]

Fear of failing again
Can't get any SN
Anxiety
Dissociated

 

[_battered_butterfly_]

Lack of supplies. Waiting on SN to ship. Talk to doc Mon about a Meto script. Have my Prop and Milk and Mag. Also... Family being home... Indecisive if I wanna walk to a hotel or not. There is one close by. Cheap. Takes cash. Could probably be undisturbed for a good 14 hours if I reset and shut off my phone.

Sooop yeah. Family here and lack of my SN!!!

Oh... And now some guilt with tomorrow being Easter.

Fear of failing again
Can't get any SN
Anxiety
Dissociated

Bad dissociation here too

 

[angelfeather]

Guilt
My children
The fear of failing again

 

[Luu]

My attempts and methods usually always fail and i don't have a lot of ways to kms, i tried partial hanging a lot of times because its the easiest quickest method for me, and i would do it everyday but always survive, now im scared of having brain damage because of it so i stopped trying

 

[WornOutLife]

The vodka I just drank and the champagne bottle I'm drinking drinking right now.

 

[mediocreshining]

im not alone right now, and im talking to my friend (ironically, about suicide)

 

[fred farkle]

my current 3 year old son.

but indirectly and unconsciously I also say to myself that if I commit suicide one day, that could perhaps give him a better future, because what child would want a depressed and suicidal father? but above all what can I bring him that is good?

caution: i do not want to seem like an uncaring guy,so please dont be put off by this,but,dude,if you have a little child how can u ctb? it cant help him when one day he is told that daddy is gone.
maybe make yourself better and try to makeit,for his sake. just my 2 cents. i wish you relief and peace whatever you do!!!

 

[charlotte greentea]

My husband would probably kill himself if I killed myself and I feel like I can't be responsible for that

 

[Charaltontin]

My loved ones, I'm being forced to be here because people don't want me to go, but I don't want to be here, ik they care but I'm selfish I'm doing it for me

 

[GarageKarate07]

I'm waiting for paper work to come in the mail. Then I can put some money in an envelope for my child. Then there is nothing else I need. I have 3 methods that I have worked on for about 4 months. Would have been sooner but the paper work came out of nowhere. Another state regulation that I forgot and was reminded of when I went out of country. I will clean my house one last time. I have letters that I may or may not write. I am trying to think of a last meal. I have been treating every meal like a last meal but I have been eating at home. I want a last meal out on the town. I might also have a last outing up in the mountains or the river or something or an event in the city.

 

[Bagger]

My mom. She is old lady but with good health, physically and mentally. She knows that I had planned taking my own life, she know all about my SN and meto. I promised her that I will not commit suicide before her own death. That's about it.

 

[alown]

caution: i do not want to seem like an uncaring guy,so please dont be put off by this,but,dude,if you have a little child how can u ctb? it cant help him when one day he is told that daddy is gone.
maybe make yourself better and try to makeit,for his sake. just my 2 cents. i wish you relief and peace whatever you do!!!

I understand you are saying this I had just opened a thread about this, I think in a way that is not selfish on my part, a child needs a balance with healthy examples, I am not healthy, neither physically nor psychologically and I will not be able to bring him anything good in this direction.