Discussion What is stopping you from ctb right this second?

[lukespain22]

What is stopping you from ctb right this second?

 

[Darrenloses]

lack of SN, too cowardly to try full hanging

 

[I want to end it]

don't get enough time alone

 

[gus.nixon]

Got the SN and the meto, just have roommates at home right now

 

[Mara09]

Don't have access to my preferred method

 

[BigNarkoleptic]

What is stopping you from ctb right this second?

How good my co method is

 

[lukespain22]

lack of SN, too cowardly to try full hanging

Same, I'm waiting for mine to be delivered.

 

[spiritedaway]

i just ate and need to fast to take SN. it's just not the day yet.

 

[BandAddict]

Don't have SN yet, need to organize some shit both in my head and in the physical world.

 

[Lilium]

Still Working on getting SN or finding another comparable method, in the meantime I still have some things to finish.

 

[calino2212]

I need to get the other anti vomiting pills, I have the sn (25g of it) and when i get the anti vomitting pill + the rest, it's all a matter of time and planning.

But the problem is I have no idea how to get those pills.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

One strong motivation of life for me has been to see how unresolved issues resolve. As time marches on, liars and big lies get exposed. People die, murdered , executed etc as revenge for their actions.

think about someone who CTB April 29 1945. They would have never heard the amazing news that the universe kicked hitlers ass and he shot himself.

by staying alive you get to hear and see some amazing things

In my lifetime I have seen:

the US ponziconomy explosion of 2008

The brutal and unintentionally recorded and released execution of saddam

the death of Osama bin laden (if you believe the official narrative)

And many other great and well deserved events.

if I stay alive for 20 or 30 years more odds are I will witness:

The death of George W bush
The death of trump
The death of scores of Chinese politicians
The death of the pedophile Benedict XVI
Planet earth kicking peoples ass because they couldn't do simple things like not buy SUVs or fly , or avoid disposable packagings

just last year I got to witness the death of the baby murdering US Supreme Court justice !

All of these are strong motivations to look forward to in future years

 

[hailtothevic]

What is stopping you from ctb right this second?

Cowardice and too many people nearby who'd "save" me (as if I want to be alive)

 

[yeahwellso]

What is stopping you from ctb right this second?

I would like to be alive under other circumstances. I would like to be alive and feel differently. I have quite a lot of people I would like to spend more time with. I need to find a place I can live and a job I can do that provides enough for a life I can bear.

 

[Xdyzine]

Access to a peaceful viable method

 

[Minibosterita]

I want to finish my contract at work. As much as I hate it and most of the people there I don't want to feel like more of a burden. That way no one will be depending on me and I can just slip quietly into nothingness

 

[Trisolaris]

I don't have access to a reliable method.

 

[Canttakeitanymore]

I could try partial suspension rn i guess but im a pussy

 

[Marktheghost]

I honestly don't know. I'm still trying to work out what's holding me back. I was expecting to kill myself about 3 months ago.

 

[LittleBabyNothing]

I honestly don't know. I'm still trying to work out what's holding me back. I was expecting to kill myself about 3 months ago.

Trying to figure that out myself

 

[zapffes_son]

Waiting for the place I'm going to kill myself to be ready.

The only thing that'd make me delay it is waiting for the stimulus check. Might blow it on drugs, an escort, and a nice meal. I figure I'm killing myself, I'm going to be in non-conscious non-existence for [non-existent state of mind], so you know... haven't had sex in over 12 years, might as well before I off myself.

Otherwise, I have everything set up and ready to go. The conditions why I'm killing myself aren't ever going to change, so I've accepted my death and know there's no "going back" from here.

 

[lukespain22]

Waiting for the place I'm going to kill myself to be ready.

The only thing that'd make me delay it is waiting for the stimulus check. Might blow it on drugs, an escort, and a nice meal. I figure I'm killing myself, I'm going to be in non-conscious non-existence for [non-existent state of mind], so you know... haven't had sex in over 12 years, might as well before I off myself.

Otherwise, I have everything set up and ready to go. The conditions why I'm killing myself aren't ever going to change, so I've accepted my death and know there's no "going back" from here.

I'm sorry to hear that and I hope you find the peace you deserve.

 

[Endeavour]

Waiting to see what happens with covid and if mother nature is sorting out humans.

BiL going for his jab today - he's in his low 50s is obese, has thyroid problems, heart problems and etc. Want to see how he gets on over the next few days.

 

[bob12]

The hope that I can go without pain.

When I try partial hanging, I don't feel pain in the same way as if somebody plunged a fork into my hand. I have to say, it's more like a short uncomfortable moment before blacking out.

But I still cling to the hope that it can be absolutely painless, and I think that prevents me from putting up with moderate amounts of discomfort.

That's why I'm looking into methods where I can't abort (SN or full hanging)

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I need to know who those last two characters are. After I've had my fun I should be ready to go. I already got my SN lying in wait.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

No shotgun, cucked full susp.

 

[emptyinside]

Procrastination. I can't bring myself to do anything with my life. Even I chose my preferred method, my brain stops me from buying SN.

 

[Mentalmick]

Coronation Street is on tonight.

 

[bad luck]

Feeling of guilt towards my family members.

 

[autisticalex]

Anxiety disorder :(