BPDbitch

BPDbitch

Experienced
Nov 10, 2019
248
You can't be that bitchy. You've been here for a little over two months and have over 126 posts with your account still intact :heart:
I must be doing a good job restraining myself on here :wink: It helps that most people on this site are good folk unlike the idiots I deal with daily lol
 
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Nutshell

Nutshell

I’d feel better dead.
Feb 23, 2020
272
Stolen Leonard Cohen lyrics.
They fit.
 
itsmeagain

itsmeagain

Specialist
Jan 28, 2020
334
I must be doing a good job restraining myself on here :wink: It helps that most people on this site are good folk unlike the idiots I deal with daily lol
it happens like that bahah. Trust me, i know some real bitches. But, if it makes you feel better, maybe you can be a female dog like the name implies. Which doggy are you? :0
 
Dead Horse

Dead Horse

Hopeless, but literally
Nov 14, 2018
150
Mine is just a name. But not my real name. I am too paranoid to even use my first name on sites like this. I just happen to like/admire 4 different people with this name, each one for very different reasons (a singer, a writer, a teacher of mine and an old friend) and that's why I picked it.
 
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Epsilon0

Enlightened
Dec 28, 2019
1,874
Epsilon Zero or Epsilon Naught is a parameter in physics that stands for vacuum permittivity. It represents the capability of a vacuum to permit electric fields.

I thought it was a fitting metaphor for the absurdity of life: the vacuum symbolizes the nothingness into which we are born, and the electric fields symbolize the human race, inhabiting that nothingness.
 
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lostangel

lostangel

Enlightened
Mar 22, 2019
1,051
I read a quote where ''suicidal people are just angels who want to go home''. I liked the sound of it. It made me feel not guilty about wanting to ctb.
 
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SuiSqueeze92

SuiSqueeze92

Self Saboteur
Jan 15, 2020
479
My inner demons really come out to get me during the night hours.

The thing that has kept me alive this long is a sense of hope and patience. An opposing force to those demons, like an Angel.

Same here, part vulnerability.. part being in my head too much.
 
Empty Smile

Empty Smile

The final Bell has rung. Goodbye to all.
Jul 13, 2018
1,785
Teach me your CTB ways master. You were compiling a list of "unfortunate" accidents after all :pfff:

My username is obvious to any Pink Floyd listener. I chose it while I was incarcerated and in solitary confinement. It was part of a message of hope that I wrote on the brick wall among all the negative graffiti.
Yep, huge Floyd fan here. My name comes from the song "Wearing The Inside Out".
 
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Tragoedia Vitae

Tragoedia Vitae

Experienced
Oct 14, 2018
230
My username is just Latin for "the tragedy of life"--which is exactly why I'm here. Nuff said.
 
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Root

Student
Sep 15, 2019
117
My roots.. Where did I come from? What happened to my ancestors? Who were they?
 
CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

Messenger of Silence
Jan 9, 2020
940
I am cynically hopeless and hopelessly cynical
 
Backwoodsqueer

Backwoodsqueer

Member
May 27, 2019
57
I like the woods and I'm gay. Pretty simple.
 
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imademypicture

imademypicture

Member
Mar 13, 2019
29
Mine has a double meaning I guess. On one hand it means that I've made up my mind to die. In a way, I have already painted my life on a canvas which represents the "picture". And the other meaning is quite literal. I've made this picture is of a girl with a bag around her head choking herself using some 3D softwares.
 
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enjoy

enjoy

Creature
Dec 20, 2019
337
i have this username on a few other unrelated websites. it's also the name of a musical artist i like and a nod towards a skateboard company i dig (enjoi).
 
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SuiSqueeze92

SuiSqueeze92

Self Saboteur
Jan 15, 2020
479
i have this username on a few other unrelated websites. it's also the name of a musical artist i like and a nod towards a skateboard company i dig (enjoi).

Yeah I remember the panda
 
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Rome Horseman

Rome Horseman

Member
Feb 17, 2020
55
My nick name is Rome and Horseman comes from the show Bojack.. I had a life like him where i had it all and my BPD (myself) fucked it up.

So I feel like I'll be a horse if i was in Bojack Horseman.. better yet, i feel like one of his many kids we didn't know he had :I:I:I
 
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SuiSqueeze92

SuiSqueeze92

Self Saboteur
Jan 15, 2020
479
My nick name is Rome and Horseman comes from the show Bojack.. I had a life like him where i had it all and my BPD (myself) fucked it up.

So I feel like I'll be a horse if i was in Bojack Horseman.. better yet, i feel like one of his many kids we didn't know he had :I:I:I

Interesting but I like the show and your symbolic approach. I definitely understand what it's like living with BPD.. I've been there.
 
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decafe

Member
Feb 4, 2020
11
I spelled Decaf wrong when I was a kid.
 
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TheSuicidalEccentric

The universe is wonderful.
Feb 23, 2020
438
I'm suicidal, and if you talk to anyone that knows me, I am extremely unique and very eccentric
 
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Life sucks

Visionary
Apr 18, 2018
2,136
Life sucks
 
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TimeLawyer

TimeLawyer

Now scheduled for deletion. Goodbye all
Oct 10, 2019
70
My username is a play on Timelord, because I am a big fan of Doctor Who. I am not an actual lawyer, but I have had a multitude of legal battles just to survive and it feels like I am bargaining for time on this earth..
 
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Sweet_Lullaby

Member
Feb 25, 2020
21
When CBT time comes, I want to go listening to some soft music, like a lullaby. One last song to comfort me on my final moments. Something among the lines of that American Horror Story episode, when Jessica Lange CTBs. Such a beautiful scene.
Edit: video for reference

 
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Marchioness

Marchioness

Eternal sleep
Feb 17, 2020
296
greek goddess of the soul who didn't start out as a god.
 
GoodPersonEffed

GoodPersonEffed

Brevity is my middle name, but my name was TL
Jan 11, 2020
6,727
I have done my best to become the best person I could. I am not perfect, but I am conscientious and ethical, I own my shit when I become aware it is shit, I try to do no harm, I am sincere. I respect who I've worked so hard to become, a good person.

In spite of all my effort to heal and become the best person I can, I am screwed by external circumstances over which I have no control.

In retrospect, I recognize calling myself a good person sets me up for judgment and disdain when I am being more human than good, or when my actions don't fit in someone's paradigm of good. Fortunately, I didn't say I'm a perfect person, or the villagers would have shown up with their torches and pitchforks. :)

I want to go out thinking of myself this way, as a good person, affirming myself and a lifetime of effort, and that I am not to blame for my circumstances.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
Squidward was taken so Squiddy it was because I like him and can relate to him
 
BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

Visionary
Dec 1, 2019
2,361
Eh, I'm a girl, who likes barbie, who has BPD and Bipolar :happy:
Squidward was taken so Squiddy it was because I like him and can relate to him
Come forward Squidward we must see you!
 
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