• Hey Guest,

    We wanted to share a quick update with the community.

    Our public expense ledger is now live, allowing anyone to see how donations are used to support the ongoing operation of the site.

    👉 View the ledger here

    Over the past year, increased regulatory pressure in multiple regions like UK OFCOM and Australia's eSafety has led to higher operational costs, including infrastructure, security, and the need to work with more specialized service providers to keep the site online and stable.

    If you value the community and would like to help support its continued operation, donations are greatly appreciated. If you wish to donate via Bank Transfer or other options, please open a ticket.

    Donate via cryptocurrency:

    Bitcoin (BTC):
    Ethereum (ETH):
    Monero (XMR):
A

anch

Member
Jul 25, 2025
11
Title basically. For me I think it's just the exhausting nature of everything, grinding you down over the years.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
  • Love
Reactions: Chemical Animal, Le temps perdu, crayonscrayons and 15 others
SadLoser

SadLoser

Student
Jul 31, 2021
102
The fact that I have almost 0 romantic success. I wish a girl would see me that way. I just want to have a connection with someone.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: Ioneliness, Isolatedloner, thebelljarrr and 5 others
F

Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
4,294
The blatant lies. From the "It's ok" and "it gets better" from friends/family to the politicians and corporations claiming they give a damn about anything other than money, power, and control. Take my rights and sell me out, but do not fucking pretend to my face with a smile only to stab me in the back. We all know it is all a game, let us stop playing it like children and face each other as adults.
 
Last edited:
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: Ioneliness, Fish_astronaut, Daphne and 13 others
W

whywere

Angelic
Jun 26, 2020
4,046
For me, having been in the business world for over 5 decades, it is human nature. Human nature in the form of greedy, self-centered behavior, egotistical behavior and in general not giving a rats behind any thought of the next person.

If, humans are ever going to survive long term, we ALL will have to learn to look out and work with each other, or we will be just like the dinosaurs, gone.

Like through the years, having heard so many times: "I am an executive". Like what does that really mean anyway? I do not get it, probably to dumb, I guess.

Walter
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: LetMeOut67, jakethesnake, Misery99 and 11 others
Carrot

Carrot

C:
Feb 25, 2025
515
Pain. Injustice.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: thebelljarrr, darksouls, Spite and 10 others
F

F@#$

Freedom seeker
Nov 8, 2023
1,084
Waking up
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
  • Love
Reactions: thebelljarrr, darksouls, glowing.purple.aura and 7 others
L

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
1,870
Human cruelty towards animals. I'm specifically referring to their exploitation and torture in the form of factory farms. It's horrific and I can't stand the fact that it happens.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
  • Aww..
Reactions: LetMeOut67, jakethesnake, Misery99 and 9 others
s00ngone

s00ngone

All you can feel is the weather
Mar 21, 2025
118
Having to live it. Over the years I had many desperate fantasies of having someone to look over my shoulder 24/7 and coordinate my life, or even live it for me. When I was failing in high school and had too much executive dysfunction to even cook myself meals, I wished I could give myself up to somebody who would have more investment in my life than I do. I can't trade it or give it away or negotiate an amendment to the established rules of the universe. I can't guarantee myself success, nor would I be satisfied if I could. There's no part of living that I enjoy at this point, though I wish it mattered to me for the sake of my family who loves me. To be the person I feel they deserve.

I had some pretty traumatic "spiritual awakening" type stuff happen recently that has made me look back over my life in shock and horror. For all the "awareness" I ever had, I never developed a will to live.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: ApparentlyNot, darksouls and Carrot
unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
1,262
Severe anxiety since I was born. It literally ruined my "life". And of course the cruelty of human being
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: jakethesnake, Misery99, darksouls and 3 others
Merocero

Merocero

Tired.
Jul 29, 2025
58
The constant need for money to do anything... capitalism sucks
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: Ioneliness, Misery99, ApparentlyNot and 5 others
kunikuzushi

kunikuzushi

sause
Jan 24, 2023
641
Needing social interaction but everyone will betray you one way or another
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: jakethesnake, Daphne, Misery99 and 3 others
Hystearical

Hystearical

I just want to die
Jul 23, 2022
4,993
The fact that life has to destroy other life to exist

How random chance can ruin everything

The sheer discrepancies between what people have to deal with

Oh, and having to brush my teeth
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: Ioneliness, Fish_astronaut, jakethesnake and 4 others
TooManyChances

TooManyChances

Member
Jun 30, 2025
63
Oh boy... where do I begin.

Let's say life in general is too complicated. Too much paperwork, too many processes, events, and I don't have the energy or motivation for all that. I don't know where my energy went cause as a kid I would be happy to explore the world. (I'm talking like, 5 years old).

I get offended by many things, this is tied to how I feel, when I felt super motivated and optimistic, things almost never offended me).

I have cringe memories, I feel like I've made a fool out of myself through the years. It's time to just put an end to all this. What's the purpose anyways? To please people?

I'm useless, I wasted many years that I didn't take seriously, and now I'm facing the consequences. I tried, but the energy is not there.

Life is complicated, no need to play such stupid game. Also, too much fucking crime and fake people.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
  • Love
Reactions: Misery99, darksouls, Lost in a Dream and 4 others
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,638
The fact that it was imposed at all causing all this harm, suffering and cruelty as a result with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and no matter what I'll just always find it so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake.

For me existence itself will always be the true problem and simply just existing will always be enough to make me wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep, I'll always see existence as an abomination that just causes problems there were never a need for and so much unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed. I find it the most torturous, dreadful and futile burden to exist and I always suffer so much from how despite the fact this existence was imposed we exist in this horrific reality where the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what even know it all just leads to decay and death anyway
 
  • Love
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: Fish_astronaut, darksouls, Lost in a Dream and 2 others
Britney Spears

Britney Spears

toxic
Jan 4, 2025
542
I stay alive because they're keeping me alive at all costs and won't let me go. Not being able to do CTB and letting them watch me rot, deteriorate, and suffer while they enjoy my existence. I'm like a circus animal. My existence, suffering, illness, and deterioration feed psychologists, psychiatrists, my family, and others. Hate
 
  • Love
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: Ioneliness, darksouls and Carrot
hopelessgirl

hopelessgirl

Mage
Oct 12, 2021
550
That it's boring and interesting and gives me no joy
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: darksouls and Carrot
cowboypants

cowboypants

From milkyway
May 7, 2024
576
You mostly have to be on your own, no one is coming to like help you. Despite boasting to be an advanced species everyone has to compete and toil until the end. You definitely want to be active in life but for people with issues it is a heavy weight to pull
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: Misery99, ApparentlyNot, darksouls and 3 others
pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,383
A lot of things i hate about life. But these are not isolated they sit on top of each other summing up the badness of life.

How unimaginably bad pain or suffering can get that it can be unending constant and unbearable pain the worst pain and you can't move away from it but must suffer the worst pain every second for years.

there's also diseases, unbearable pain, disabilities , brainwashing , lies , bad habits , injustice , scams, oppression, cancer, stroke , meaningless addictions obessesions habits, they made every gauranteed suicide method into crimes like hiring someone to help you suicide making us prisoners and slaves, that i 'm a slave in this hell, old age, ilnesses, accidents, grief, unfulfilled needs, dealing with people , work a job , chores , everrything breaks, problems bad memories , you have to fucking clean and wash every damn thing , taking out the trash, having to feed yourself all day , groceries, taking out trash, washing clothes, chores like these every day, i don't want to do any damn thing..... having to work all day a job chores only to exist under threat of extreme torture... there is no meaning only suffering and avoiding suffering ... more things... and i just touched on general things about life

non-existence forever is the negation of all these horrors of life and this evil world. eternal non-existence is the ultimate perfection
 
Last edited:
  • Like
  • Hugs
  • Love
Reactions: darksouls, StardustWeAre, Spite and 1 other person
cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Paragon
Mar 15, 2025
971
The thing I hate the most: being me.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: Ioneliness, jakethesnake, Misery99 and 2 others
unsaiddes

unsaiddes

I'll do it eventually
Apr 25, 2023
84
The thing I dislike the most about life is that I have to be me. I can't magically wake up as somebody else with good looks, smarts, success, friends, things like that. Some people have that and I never will. There are a lot of horrible things going on in the world and issues that get in the way of just surviving, but it would maybe be easier if I wasn't myself.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: Ioneliness, Misery99, darksouls and 1 other person
C

coincidentpoint

New Member
Aug 4, 2025
4
Being in my physical body. Being physically unattractive. Being mentally unattractive (BPD, anxiety, lack of self-confidence, PTSD).
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: Ioneliness, darksouls, Carrot and 1 other person
PI3.14

PI3.14

what is chaos to the fly is normal to the spider
Oct 4, 2024
554
Unfairness. Life is a one shot thing, if u got unlucky in it then there is no other chance. You need to be lucky in so many departments to be able to live a happy fulfilling life.
Unfairness. Life is a one shot thing, if u got unlucky in it then there is no other chance. You need to be lucky in so many departments to be able to live a happy fulfilling life.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
  • Love
Reactions: Fish_astronaut, Misery99, darksouls and 4 others
idk3

idk3

Student
Sep 10, 2023
173
inequality and suffering
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: thebelljarrr, Misery99, darksouls and 2 others
F

Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,556
Having to pay for it mainly. I suppose all the expectations placed on us.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: thebelljarrr, darksouls, Carrot and 1 other person
W

wanttosleep

Member
Aug 8, 2023
51
I hate humanity and the society we made. The greed and selfish of humanity has made existing in our current society unbearable. I constantly watch as the ultra wealthy continue to hoard more and more wealth and assets from the middle and working class. The exploitation of children in developing countries for their luxury. I watch as the insatiable greed with more money than can truly comprehend continue influence and bribe so they hoard more money to hoard more money. They influence the weak mind and convince people to vote against their self interest. They lie and give them scapegoats for idiots to believe are the problem while the rich laugh at them. Their greed to consume and ravage the earth accelerate climate change and millions are dying and many more are going to die because of it. They sell them shiny toys to fuel consumerism while we increasing live insqaulor and starve. We can't buy homes, we can't buy food, we can't exist without money. The powerful wage war and commit genocide by sending our children our loved ones while they stay safe in the castle and reap the rewards while we suffer the pain, death, suffering and trauma.The selfishness and greed is part of our DNA refined and honed by evolution. It who we are at a base level and I don't see a future were we overcome this flaw. I don't believe humanity has made anything of worth or value to exist that is worth the cost to the world, the extinction of species and the pain and suffering we inflict on each other.
 
  • Love
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: Daphne, thebelljarrr, darksouls and 8 others
W

whywere

Angelic
Jun 26, 2020
4,046
I hate humanity and the society we made. The greed and selfish of humanity has made existing in our current society unbearable. I constantly watch as the ultra wealthy continue to hoard more and more wealth and assets from the middle and working class. The exploitation of children in developing countries for their luxury. I watch as the insatiable greed with more money than can truly comprehend continue influence and bribe so they hoard more money to hoard more money. They influence the weak mind and convince people to vote against their self interest. They lie and give them scapegoats for idiots to believe are the problem while the rich laugh at them. Their greed to consume and ravage the earth accelerate climate change and millions are dying and many more are going to die because of it. They sell them shiny toys to fuel consumerism while we increasing live insqaulor and starve. We can't buy homes, we can't buy food, we can't exist without money. The powerful wage war and commit genocide by sending our children our loved ones while they stay safe in the castle and reap the rewards while we suffer the pain, death, suffering and trauma.The selfishness and greed is part of our DNA refined and honed by evolution. It who we are at a base level and I don't see a future were we overcome this flaw. I don't believe humanity has made anything of worth or value to exist that is worth the cost to the world, the extinction of species and the pain and suffering we inflict on each other.
You took the words right out of my mouth.

You are so insightful, caring and just an overall wonderfully loving soul.

Walter
 
  • Hugs
  • Love
Reactions: thebelljarrr, Misery99, darksouls and 1 other person
Sprite_Geist

Sprite_Geist

NULL
May 27, 2020
1,699
That there is no way to reverse time, and correct mistakes.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
  • Love
Reactions: Fish_astronaut, Misery99, darksouls and 2 others
shediedatsea

shediedatsea

drowsy . . .
Jul 4, 2025
62
that it's your responsibility to deal with the trauma other people have caused you
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
  • Love
Reactions: Fish_astronaut, Daphne, jakethesnake and 3 others
S

Scythe

Lost in a delusion
Sep 5, 2022
791
Captialism, and how inescapable it is. There's about two ways to get away, suicide or running off into the woods.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: darksouls and kagebunshin
NeverReallyHere

NeverReallyHere

Student
Mar 15, 2021
112
Its cruelty.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: Fish_astronaut, darksouls and Carrot

Similar threads

nothingbutyou
Replies
15
Views
435
Suicide Discussion
Macedonian1987
Macedonian1987
iblamethemfr
Replies
13
Views
426
Suicide Discussion
E4syW3y0u7
E4syW3y0u7
starsshinebright
Replies
0
Views
200
Suicide Discussion
starsshinebright
starsshinebright
eggsausagerice
Replies
6
Views
651
Suicide Discussion
Leonard_Bangley39
Leonard_Bangley39