What Are Your Reoccurring Dreams? Do You Dream About Suicide/Death?

[NitrogenAfternoon]

I was never the type to even retain my dreams, but lately, my dreams remain steadily about ctb, my plans, my urges. It's been on my mind so much, that I can't even escape it in my sleep. Is anyone the same way? Or is there any other reoccurring dreams that you have been experiencing lately?

 

[piercedwounds]

No I don't have dreams about ctb but I wish I did honestly that would be peaceful to me. My dreams are normally about one of my family members hating me sadly

 

[Nervous young man]

Most of my dreams about ctb end right before the good part.

 

[before20]

Not reoccurring (yet), but I did have a dream about CTB recently. Usually whatever's on my mind a lot, shows up in my dreams sooner or later.

I do have a reoccurring dream involving my friend who CTB eight years ago. He's there, but always just out of reach, taunting me. Similar to death I guess.

 

[Michi_Violeta]

Does it feel haunting, like a bad dream, or does it feel like you're going over a plan to make sure it'll go well? Just like you, I've never really retain my dreams: I honestly don't know what was the last thing I dreamed about or when. If I may ask, what urges related to ctb are in your dreams?

 

[Jisatsu]

I've had suicide dreams but not very often

 

[Ghuleh]

I've had two dreams about drowning, I know it would be painful if you're awake but in the dreams I was slowly sinking to the bottom of a pool watching everything get blurry and dim out peacefully

 

[Forever Sleep]

Not suicide all that often but all of my dreams for months have had an air of anxiety to them, because I'm anxious at the moment- unsurprisingly. It's shitty when you don't even fully rest during sleep.

As for recurring dreams, I often used to dream that I was in a childhood home and, people were trying to break in. Again, horrible!

 

[TrueSleepCell]

Few repeating dreams shoot to mind, I'm at what looks like the food court of a shopping mall and it's empty except for my table. Few of my closer friends. One sticks out, I know it's him because he wore the same hat. His face isn't right anymore, I think I've forgotten it.
As for true sleep the only dreams of it are fully lucid and I kinda just gmod for a little.

 

[3FailedAttemptss]

My reoccurring dreams on the matter involve me bawling my eyes out and inching closer and closer to attempting to CTB. I've had these dreams for long but they closely mirror my actual attempts - at least the crying uncontrollably part.

 

[butimstillsoblue]

I have nightmares a lot. Wake up screaming, shaking etc. I relive past trauma a lot of nights. Wake up alone with nobody to tell me its okay. Yet another reason why I want out.

 

[beseechgod]

I dream of school almost every night. Even though I graduated 4 years ago.

 

[youknowyoureright]

I dream of school almost every night. Even though I graduated 4 years ago.

Honestly same it's been almost 6 years now and I still dream about school for some reason.

 

[JesiBel]

I have violent dreams, but I only see people I don't know, there are no suicides but there are traumatic deaths, torture, people crying and suffering... Maybe they are also influenced by today's news, the world is getting worse as time goes on.

I also dream about my deceased relatives, on my "darkest days".

The last few days I have been dreaming about my mother, she is in the terminal phase of her illness. But I dream that she is well and healthy, as if we were in another universe where we are both happy.

 

[J&L383]

Honestly same it's been almost 6 years now and I still dream about school for some reason.

Not common, but occasionally I still dream I'm in school, prepping for an exam, and that was 40 years ago

 

[BlueButterfly111]

That's very interesting. I've been dreaming a lot about my deceased boyfriend recently. I think of him a lot as my plans to ctb come closer. In the dreams it's usually like a story of us being together in some way, if that makes any sense. I think I have had a few dreams where I attempted to ctb in the past few months as well!

 

[Arin]

I dream of 'dying' fairly often, but it's weird - usually I experience death but I remain in my body in the dream, and can still move around and do stuff, only my body is dead. It's very strange. I full-on get impaled on the spikes of a massive metal gate after falling from a hot air balloon, and then I just get up with a gaping, bloody hole in my torso, holding my guts in, and walk off to buy a sandwich.

When it comes to reoccurring dreams, I quite frequently have a nightmare of being exposed for being trans to stranger or, more often, to my family. Usually that one ends in screaming matches, violence, or death.

 

[billie]

i had a nightmare that someone jumped in front of the train in front of me

 

[RiverOfLife]

I had a dream about meeting the incarnation of Death (as played by Aubrey Plaza in Agatha All Along). So I kissed her, because that is a canonical way to ctb.
It didn't work. Even in the dream.
And then she laughed at me.

 

[chocolocothechocobo]

I have a reoccuring dream about being too lazy/depressed to continue to breathe. funnily enough I wake up and notice that I stopped breathing in real life too. It always feels nice and peaceful both while dreaming and a couple of seconds after I wake up

 

[Misanthrope0000]

I was never the type to even retain my dreams, but lately, my dreams remain steadily about ctb, my plans, my urges. It's been on my mind so much, that I can't even escape it in my sleep. Is anyone the same way? Or is there any other reoccurring dreams that you have been experiencing lately?

My recurring dream is meaningless, just me trying to survive an alien invasion.

I had a dream about suicide where a dark figure told me to kill myself

 

[outrider567]

I recently had a horrible dream about my late brother(who died of lung cancer), in the dream I watched him drive off a highway, plunging down a cliff, i ran down the mountain to see him in the car, dead, with his eyes open, woke up right away

My recurring dream is meaningless, just me trying to survive an alien invasion.

I had a dream about suicide where a dark figure told me to kill myself

i've had the alien invasion dreams myself, red and blue explosions, running thru forests to get away
i've had many recurring dreams, I've had about 500 dreams about tornadoes, I've had dozens of dreams of my car getting stolen all the time from parking lots, many years ago used to dream a lot about my teeth falling out

 

[cantThinkOfName]

I'm back in high school. It flips between first and third person. I go into my science class at the high school I went to. I walk into class, sit down at the back on a weird semi-hexagonal desk that connects to one big bench extending across the room (this is just how the desks were in this class). The teacher begins giving a presentation, and suddenly I start going through puberty, and my clothes change into boys' clothes. I feel uncomfortable and scared, and I'm not paying attention to the class. Then the teacher asks me a question. I reply, "I don't know," after stuttering and being silent for a bit. Everyone laughs at me, but then they stop, and everyone just stares at me. My body feels gross and disgusting again. My dyaphoria is really bad and I'm panicking and shaking but after a while I wake up.

 

[Quietist]

Seems to be a constant flood of dreams referring to a spiritual attack against me.

Most recent one I was apparently rigorously jerking off the demon creature from Jeepers Creepers.

 

[cme-dme]

A very common reoccurring dream for me are just dreams that involve exploring cities or large buildings. Not exactly the most insightful thing to dream about but it's better than nightmares I suppose. Often I am with friends or family in the dreams which makes it worse when I wake up alone.

 

[J&L383]

A very common reoccurring dream for me are just dreams that involve exploring cities or large buildings. Not exactly the most insightful thing to dream about but it's better than nightmares I suppose. Often I am with friends or family in the dreams which makes it worse when I wake up alone.

I have those same dreams! Towns, houses, cities. I actually rather enjoy them, and when I wake up I feel like, damn, I wish I could go back and live there! I've had so many of them that I could probably write down 20 of them from memory. (There's probably a dream book somewhere that has some interpretation for us.)

 

[cme-dme]

I have those same dreams! Towns, houses, cities. I actually rather enjoy them, and when I wake up I feel like, damn, I wish I could go back and live there! I've had so many of them that I could probably write down 20 of them from memory. (There's probably a dream book somewhere that has some interpretation for us.)

Unfortunately, I forget a majority of the dream when I wake up usually and can only jot down a couple sentences at most. The places my dreams usually take place in seem like they would be very nice to explore and live in.
I think my dreams are more reflections of what I wish I had. In this case it's an idealistic society; spending time with friends or family in populated settings free of pain or suffering. It's a sharp contrast to my current existence; Alone, isolated, living in the woods with nowhere to go.

 

[soonnotkoei]

i get ctb dreams often but only one of them had been so vivid i actually woke up in a cold sweat and my heart rate high. in the dream, i shot myself in the head from my right temple with a revolver, which is interesting because i personally would never use a gun for ctb. i felt my head kinda become liquid for a sec and then i jumped awake. not the most realistic dream but eh, its a dream what do you expect.

 

[NitrogenAfternoon]

I honestly can't stop dreaming about ctb and my plans.. My thoughts have been consuming me entirely that I cannot even proceed doing simple tasks. Or I will just wake up and immediately come to terms that "yes...this needs to be done, and I have to do this." There is no escape, in my sleep or while I am awake. Or I will wake up and be confuse as to why I am alive, even when I am just going to bed without any sort of attempt to ctb. It is like my body is telling me to do this, and it feels right. It feels time. I can't keep fighting anymore.

 

[bananaolympus]

I don't remember ever dreamed of dying or ctb, i often dream still being in highschool despite that being over 10 years ago and nothing significant good or bad happened during my time at school