What are your deepest, darkest desires?

[4am]

-why do people find this odd or outlandish if f***** e********** exists/is popular or is the same thing to people or is tagged as that in some pornography

dawg why are you censoring words like we're on tiktok tf are these words even supposed to mean

 

[Mirrory Me]

To "steal" anything I want from someone.

 

[persimmon]

Have dated some quite perverted women in my time so irl I have done threesomes, r*pe play, humiliation, golden showers and some other stuff which might come under dark. All fun and games.

 

[LXXCH]

Omg, how hot- I need a master like you asap

Though that means that I'll have to dedicate my other lifetimes to @LXXCH instead unless if I somehow reincarnate as your relative or something... hmm

go be with her, I want my partner to want me more than I do them not to call other masters hot lmfao

 

[sserafim]

go be with her, I want my partner to want me more than I do them not to call other masters hot lmfao

@ijustwishtodie yay you're all mine

 

[LXXCH]

I want to be someone's pet. I want to be controlled fully by them, and they can do whatever they want to me. But they're just nice enough to me that I don't mind being their property and not being able to leave.

sorry if this is way too personal but could I ask why you would want to be someone's pet? one of my darker desires is controlling someone, so really I'm on the opposite side of you but I never really understood why someone would willingly want to be treated like that

 

[winamp]

dawg why are you censoring words like we're on tiktok tf are these words even supposed to mean

I just can't bring myself to type it out / I am weird about those things / things relating to sexuality or sex in general due to a religious upbringing blah blah blah but also it depends on how I am feeling at the time

apologies / my bad !

 

[skybox]

This was an insane thread to read from page 1 till now lmfao. Anyway mine is along the lines of starting a cannibalistic cult that ends in mass suicide.

 

[trashprincess]

sorry if this is way too personal but could I ask why you would want to be someone's pet? one of my darker desires is controlling someone, so really I'm on the opposite side of you but I never really understood why someone would willingly want to be treated like that

It's what makes sense to me and it's what I'm comfortable with.

I'm only comfortable getting close to people when I'm in a subservient role and/or being mistreated. A lot due to self esteem issues and some mental health problems. Any kind of relationship that is 'normal' freaks me out and is just too stressful for me to handle.

I also just like having direction. I'm always anxious and never know what to do but when I'm bossed around I know exactly what to do. And I kind of need other people to have all the motivation I need. Also I like making people happy.

I need someone close to me, and right now this feels like the only way my mind would accept that.

 

[derpyderpins]

mine is wanting someone ik I have complete control over and knowing I can literally do anything I want, no matter how bad/twisted it is that person would ctb without me sorta thing.

If you were to find me irl, I'd be that person, perhaps not by choice but rather because I'm too weak to fight back or to tell anybody. I'm also easily controllable. I'd be your submissive person and do whatever you say until I ctb.

Lol I'd have certainly done it by choice before falling in love. Didn't realize all the dominant people were on ss all along. Being in a healthy relationship without my deep fantasies ever being met is a good trade-off though.

A lot due to self esteem issues and some mental health problems.

Absolutely. I know all my submissive fantasies are unhealthy because they're founded on my self-hatred; doesn't make them less hot lol.

To me, there's something about being turned on by something you absolutely shouldn't be turned on by that makes it way more taboo and therefore hotter.

 

[Yarani]

https://www.amazon.com.be/-/en/Raven-Kaldera/dp/0990544117

felt like sharing this.

 

[LXXCH]

Lol I'd have certainly done it by choice before falling in love. Didn't realize all the dominant people were on ss all along. Being in a healthy relationship without my deep fantasies ever being met is a good trade-off though

I also didn't realize how many sadistic doms there is on here, but I agree I rather be in a healthy relationship if possible

 

[sserafim]

I also didn't realize how many sadistic doms there is on here, but I agree I rather be in a healthy relationship if possible

I think I'm actually a switch. I'd love to dom but also be dominated as well. @ijustwishtodie hit me up when you're looking for some fun

 

[derpyderpins]

I also didn't realize how many sadistic doms there is on here, but I agree I rather be in a healthy relationship if possible

Yeah. It sucks having to find other ways to indulge myself, but I know it's better for me. AI is shaping up to be a great outlet through RP lol.

I think I'm actually a switch. I'd love to dom but also be dominated as well.

I was never able to find a girl who would actually be a dom when it came down to it. Just my experience, and not like I've been with a ton of women, but the ones who told me they liked to be a dom would always turn out to sub when push came to shove. Part of the thrill is in the role-reversal for me, but I think women who would be attracted to me like that I am traditionally masculine outside the bedroom (or at least that's the persona I wear), and seeing me sub would be too far from their view of me. I hope you're able to explore both, but don't be surprised if you want dom-ing to remain a fantasy.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Not that long ago I used to want to be raped. I think it stemmed from my own self-hatred and me wanting to feel desired. It's not something I'm proud of and I'm still learning to let go of those feelings. Those feelings were also why I put myself in so many uncomfortable online situations with men. They are also why I felt oddly happy when I got catcalled for first time a few months ago. In a way, I'm kind of thankful for it since if it weren't for my own self-destructive behaviours I would have never have met the man I fell in love with.

 

[sserafim]

Not that long ago I used to want to be raped. I think it stemmed from my own self-hatred and me wanting to feel desired. It's not something I'm proud of and I'm still learning to let go of those feelings. Those feelings were also why I put myself in so many uncomfortable online situations with men. In a way, I'm kind of thankful for it since if it weren't for my own self-destructive behaviours I would have never have met the man I fell in love with.

I want to be raped not out of self-hatred, but to lose control and have someone else to take total control over me. I try to be in control (of myself) a lot due to perfectionism. I think I secretly also want to feel desired. It's good that you're learning to let go of those feelings and that you fell in love

 

[noname223]

Does someone have the phone number of the FBI? Maybe I could earn some money by giving them some hints on certain people. Lol. (irony)

 

[Malaria]

Man, I come back to this thread and everyone is still wildin' out. Of all places, on a suicide forum...

I guess it makes sense, you gotta rub one out before you decide to go out.

 

[NullSz00]

I'm not sure if it's dark or if it's even my deepest desire, but I have fantasized with being a torturer that tortures people (duh) and gets paid for it.

Kinda like a hitman.

 

[MrOptions]

Lots of females here with daddy issues that want to be sex slaves. Very common now a days.

 

[ruru_241]

mine is probably wanting to be kidnapped by someone n locked away at their place.
they can do whatever to me, i just don't want to be here anymore ,,

 

[LetMeBeSad]

I have a few wires crossed but, I love violence. I like being the one to dole it out but, I really love to receive. I have yet to meet someone that could reach any limits I might have.

I have been beat with all sorts of weapons, stabbed a few times, electrocuted a bunch of times (this one is my go to for self harm), I have been cold whipped and had salt water poured over the open wounds, I have been waterboarded, I have been held at gun point and knife point many times throughout my life.

My ultimate desire is to be immobilized and tortured. I get a lot pleasure out of pain. I have been tortured in the bdsm fun way and the real way too. I liked both.

I don't have much experience with psychological torture and I am kind of curious about it. Being kept in a cage for a long time without food, water or bathroom use for example.