Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[artificial_ineptness]

Bored, stuck and anhedonic

 

[Gray Wounds]

I feel fucking irrelevant.

 

[Niko66]

Angry, sad, betrayed. The only person I thought I could talk to doesn't understand me anymore.

 

[WrongPlaceWrongTime]

Fairly easy to remind myself to not trust humans.

 

[batcountry]

Hopeless, terrified, exhausted, just so disgusted that the world is like this

 

[callme]

What's wrong with this world

 

[S like suicide]

I'm in excruciating pain right now,i'm tormented no stop by hurtful,cruel,negative and mean thoughts and they are torturing me...i wish someone or something could help me and makes them stop!!!i would scream with all the air i have in my lungs...i'm desperate

 

[UnravelingWinter]

I'm feeling sick.

 

[Al Cappella]

Have a bit of a headache atm, but feel the need to connect with someone. It's bloody annoying, frankly, as I'm useless at it…

 

[Ready2GoNow2022]

Feel like I am not moving forward. I feel ill because I just gorged and then forced myself to throw up. Ashamed. Hopeless, Alone.

 

[.............]

I want to sink into the ground, be forgotten, and get brought into another life where I'm not the person I am. I want to relive the innocence and happiness of being a child again, I'm so tired of my life. I am hyperaware of all my flaws and it makes me want to die.

 

[FogFilledLife]

Antsy from an energy drink.

 

[Manaaja]

I'm feeling really tired, sick, and antisocial. I spent 12 hours on bed and I just want to go back to sleep. I probably won't be able to answer messages, sorry.

I think I'll take ginger, turmeric, honey, zinc and c.

...I still remember that one time someone on the internet had a father or grandfather with a covid. And they were dying and nothing helped them but then the doctor told the dying man to try ivermectin, the man was cured completely, and the "internet person" was furious that a doctor would give anyone ivermectin. There are literally people who would rather see their loved ones die than for doctors to recommend ivermectin that ends up curing them. That's disgusting and disappointing.

Calling ivermectin "only a horsedewormer" is like saying you should only use tomatoes in a salad and never in soups, pizza, etc. It's amazing how everyone is all "You should always listen to doctors and trust what they say" and then go all "Doctor gave you ivermectin that ended up saving your life? What a bad doctor! Clearly they don't know anything about ivermectin! As an inventor of ivermectin, veterinary, doctor, and scientist, I can safely say that ivermectin's only use ever has only been for deworming horses and for nothing else."

Forgot to say, no I don't have covid. I'm 99% sure.

 

[nerve]

It bothers me sometimes how often people think I hate them when the truth is that I just have very poor social skills. I'd rather be left alone most of the time anyway so maybe it's not a bad thing for so many people to assume I dislike them. It's not likely that I can carry on a conversation with them anyway.

When I'm feeling really awful, I've started to tell myself that this life is punishment for all the bad decisions I've made. I won't get to die until I've served my sentence.

 

[Manaaja]

I like seeing dreams about money but I think money shouldn't probably exist. Kinda like you might see a sexual dream but not want to act upon it. The same way, I don't want to see anyone suffer because of money. Suffering because of money should only happen inside quick temporary dreams. Also, can I win the lottery, please? Thanks in advance!

 

[Gosuipo]

sad, lonely, want to sleep forever

 

[VKVK]

In panic since I can't bring myself to do any task properly.
Exhausted because my life was one giant mess.
Tired because I slept like shit and I'm depressed.
Alone and abandoned since no family members give or gave much of a fuck about me and now I'm screwed and on my own.

Wish I never had been born.

 

[S like suicide]

I feel fear.
I wish someone could reassure me and comfort me.
I feel so alone and afraid.

 

[Manaaja]

I woke up with a huge panic attack and highly suicidal thanks to my psychopathic narcissistic relatives torturing me, trying to get me killed, treating me like I'm a trash puppet who has no say in anything, no rights to anything, never respecting my boundaries, feelings or anything. I almost fainted from being unable to breath. And I could hardly think. I wanted to call the emergency number but what could they do? Would they throw my relatives to jail and let me be free? Nah.

I tried asking for help by writing a thread and asking someone to talk to me, but then something urgent came up and I have to go now and don't have time to talk.

I feel physically, mentally, and emotionally so violated. As if I was a doll to be dragged out of a box, used, and then thrown back into the box. In their minds, I don't have a single human right, or even animal right. I hope karma and justice bites them in the arse.

I want to ask if someone could chat with me maybe 5 hours from now when I'm back here, but I don't know if I need talking help with someone anymore by then. But in case someone is willing to offer help, I'd really appreciate it.

 

[stellabelle]

Defeat, depression, neglect, self resentment, anger, frustration, grief, remorse, helplessness, frustration.

 

[slushy]

Excited to finally leave this world, for my thoughts to stop racing, to not have to worry for anything. To not have to work and toil and struggle pointlessly. But nervous about dying too. If it will hurt, and the finality of it.

 

[allesistgut]

i feel like i'm betraying my friends by seriously considering/wanting to ctb with a partner.

 

[Circles]

I feel like I'm going to fail with recovery no matter what I do. Shit is fucking hard. I feel like I have no future and any future I have isn't worth living. If I could wish for one thing then atleast I wish for some small glimmer of hope and want to actually feel alive for once without being suicidal.

 

[Anónimo]

Embarrassment.

 

[failinglife36]

Should I cut myself now or later even though it's pointless.

 

[nerve]

Things go better for everyone when I just keep my mouth shut.

 

[Ringo]

Tomorrow I have to go to the office for my paperwork, I hope everything goes well, I always get paranoid in these situations.

 

[Cathy Ames]

Nausea.

 

[DontplayGod]

Life makes it so hard to die, there are important things that I am needed for which I quite enjoy. I would absolutely love to do these things, but I would rather not existent than do anything, but I am caught up in life where I want to do these things and I would miss them if I'm dead. The problem is I'm not accepting death, I look at death with a living perspective so it's hard to think about the things I'll miss but won't care at all since I'll be non existent. The place I'm in now is to do the things I enjoy because death takes effort and I'd rather die during a time where life takes a huge toll on me.

 

[knowheretorun]

unmotivated, pressured and a bit afraid of CTB