Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[Life sucks]

I'm really tired. Why life is cruel to us.
I don't want to suffer or see others suffer.
Why can't we live in a peaceful place at least. Live and die in peace and not in this mess. Life is a piece of shit, if it hurts me and hurt the ones I care about then why should I experience it. I don't want to exist at all and I had enough. Endings and losing are terrible experiences and I had enough of them. Terrible anxiety, Terrible physical and mental pain. I can't even count the other problems. Fuck life

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish that I was not alive, as usual. I think in general, I have a problem with life. I simply cannot stand living. It is unbearable to me. So much meaningless suffering. I view life as being completely pointless and I wish that I never had to experience it in the first place. There is always something bothering me and I can find problems with everything. I look forward to it all being over, I want eternal nothingness.

 

[S like suicide]

Here it is late at night, it is pouring rain outside and I am shivering under the covers with fear.
I feel fear...I feel a lot of fear,a deep painful fear.
I am petrified with terror ... I beg you...someone please make stop all this fear that torments me in the night.
I can't stop crying and shaking...i feel so much fear,so much fear

 

[misakideath]

A little bit tired and sleepy
It feels bad.

 

[Sherri]

Despair, just asked my doctor for a refill. Constantly looking at my mobile phone.

 

[lili]

Pain. Anticipating how horrible my life will be in the next few weeks and not wanting to endure that pain. I know I inflicted those problems onto myself, it's mostly because I am emotionally driven and don't think through my actions well.

Overwhelmed by all the sadness and suffering people go through. Angered by how individualistic life can be for many, that they keep living knowing there is so much suffering around them. And when encountered with a tormented person who has had enough, all they want to do is control and enforce a philosophy of life that is really hard to digest knowing how painful life is for oneself and so many others.

 

[Kristicide]

In excruciating physical pain. Have had a migraine daily since Feb 6. I was diagnosed with chronic migraine 20 years ago and have taken so many medications I could stock a pharmacy. Only a handful have been somewhat helpful. Even having some of the best neurologists who specialize in migraine brings limited gains as they're puzzled by this complex disease which is different from person to person. I get into these cycles where it lasts over a month without let up. I'm on my 2nd round of steroids this month since the 1st didn't work. Besides dealing with depression and anxiety I'm just exhausted from crippling pain. Life isn't life if I need to sit in the dark cause sunlight or lamps hurt, having ice packs on my burning scalp, heating pads for tight neck muscles, feeling too nauseous to move, and reliant on many medications that barely work. Death gives me hope of being relieved of this.

 

[Squalo]

I want to rot in a coffin.

 

[MewtwoIsAlive]

Empty, hopeless

 

[BurnBurnBurn]

Honestly? Empty and numb

 

[Sherri]

I want to rot in a coffin.

Don't you even dare!!!!!! We are getting married!!!

 

[Squalo]

Don't you even dare!!!!!! We are getting married!!!

oh I was just kidding, my love ):
I want to be alive, fresh and clean for my beautiful wife

 

[Sherri]

oh I was just kidding, my love ):
I want to be alive, fresh and clean for my beautiful wife

You only allowed to die if you give me a death insurance policy of 45 million euros. ;p

 

[Squalo]

You only allowed to die if you give me a death insurance policy of 45 million euros. ;p

I would gladly do it my love but unfortunately the death insurance does not apply to suicide, I should make it look like an accident ):

 

[Sherri]

I would gladly do it my love but unfortunately the death insurance does not apply to suicide, I should make it look like an accident ):

Ok on the honeymoon I'll break your neck! :) haha my god we have a great imagination.

 

[Huntfish34]

I'm feeling numb and sedated.

 

[Sherri]

I'm feeling numb and sedated.

A big hug to you

 

[Squalo]

anyway I'm better, I had a bad day but luckily Sherri made me smile a lot, lol.

 

[Sherri]

anyway I'm better, I had a bad day but luckily Sherri made me smile a lot, lol.

You to bambolino, you always make me laugh a lot since the first time we chatted. You are great fun!!!!!

You to bambolino, you always make me laugh a lot since the first time we chatted. You are great fun!!!!!

@Squalo im logging off now but before I go I wanna make you laugh one more time

 

[Fragile]

My body is aching everywhere, my mind feels foggy, it feels terrible. 10 different pills a day are no longer enough, they never were and there's no cure.
I can't keep up with my declining condition and the side effects of the treatments, no matter what I try and how much effort I put into living healthy life, there are some things that were not meant to be.

 

[S like suicide]

My brain is so full of scary and awful shit right now.
I wish I could take it with my hands and trample it violently with my feet.
I'm so tired

 

[Ringo]

I keep trying and I keep failing, even to die I suck

 

[Huntfish34]

Thank you Sherri, most appreciated!

 

[waitingforrest]

Ahhhhhh please make it stop. I don't want to do this anymore.

 

[Sherri]

Okish, got my second script from another doctor for normal release Xanax, the long release one XR does nothing for me. My therapist shrink will go ballistic when I have my next appointment with him. He can see it all on the health national database.

 

[Mixo]

Today was the first time in a long time I played around with a rope to see if it would be strong enough for the likes of me.

My SI is just getting lower and lower.

 

[ShadowsFall]

I should be asleep right now. I have to catch the bus to work in less than 6 hours. Cannot afford to take as much time off as I have. Unfortunately, my mind is in overclock mode atm.

 

[AnestheticVoid]

Stop being a pathetic coward! Nothing is going to change for you. What's worse 30 seconds of terror and pain or decades of emptiness and despair. You're going to die eventually anyways just take control of your life. Fuck reality.

Talking to myself.

 

[odradek]

It seemed so easy to kill myself. How naive I was... I'm tired.

 

[GrumpyFrog]

Can I just, like, go to bed right now, watch a couple of cartoons, fall asleep and never wake up again? Why is this not an option?