Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[GrumpyFrog]

I really, really need to feel your touch...

 

[Going Home]

"She just wants to control things."
It's my fucking life.

 

[killedbypsychiatry]

Anger. Anger at the injustice and abuse that happened to me and destroyed my life. And grief about all I lost because of the abuse.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Same shit different day, tfw no gf and all that.

 

[signifying nothing]

Worse. Fucking worse. Dead piece of falling apart shit.

 

[angelfeather]

Anxious. So I have to go out. Anxiety has stopped me for the last hour. So if I would have gone then, I would have been back by now. But no, I'm still sat here waiting.....

 

[Sherri]

Angry, stupid and betrayed!

 

[Hirokami]

Holy fuck I'm tired. Goddamn this place is messy, holy shit. Why am I such a lazy fuck?

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Best day I've had this year. What's funny is that this is my exact facial expression when writing this:
A good day for me is a day lacking bad stuff.

 

[grungeCat]

Lonely, just so fucking lonely. I see photos of my peers being happy, going to parties, getting gf/bf and I'm here, drinking alone and reading fetish stories.

 

[DamagedSoul]

Feeling lazy. I really don't feel like working today. I'm technically ahead in daily goals and finances due to to an unexpected bonus yesterday, so I could take the day off. I would prefer however, to stay ahead, since I just got back on track after being a week behind in bills.

 

[Chemicalcastration20]

Completely numb and empty.. Buried alive.. Thanks to SSRIs! No sadness, no happiness, no anger, no guilt, no lust, no creativity, no passion, no love.. Just an empty hollow shell.

 

[Imaginos]

Anhedonia, for close to 7 years now, has been the bane of my entire existence. It routinely, sometimes night after night, denies me the seemingly simple ability to just unwind and distract myself with something halfway enjoyable. And here I am once again, for what is probably well over the 1000th time, paralyzed into submission by my old nemesis anhedonia. Life, for all its many troubles, honestly wouldn't have been half as bad as it is to cope with, if it hadn't been for this fucking demon called anhedonia coming along to permanently screw everything up. With nothing to distract myself with, I'm given over to the annoying buzzing of my random thoughts, and the crushing emptiness/boredom of each passing moment.

You know, if I weren't so ugly/broken on the inside, I really could've had a nice life. Physically speaking, there's nothing wrong with me at all. In that area of things, I have nearly every advantage one could hope for. And yet, despite it all, it means nothing. If anything, it mocks me every time I look at myself in the mirror. "What the hell is the matter with me?", I ask myself. "Why can't I just get out there and do something!". Why, indeed. I feel like I'll be asking myself that question for the rest of my life, despite already being well aware of the answer. Instead of a life worth living, there will simply be nothing. Nothing, but countless more nights like this one. Empty and alone. For whatever time remains in my useless life. What a fucking pitiful waste I turned out to be. In the end, I'll die the way I lived. A worthless coward. But hey, at least I had nice teeth and a handsome face. For all the fucking good it did me as an agoraphobic, socially retarded hermit with nowhere in the world to go, and nothing in the universe to do.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Sore muscles from gym yesterday. If the world wasn't a complete joke my permanent gf / wife would massage my sore muscles and her hair would tickle the back of my neck. The diet and exercise makes me able to imagine these things without taking psychological damage, which is kind of weird.

 

[enjoy]

i wish you would talk to me. its been days. i know youre hurting too but you have no idea how i feel right now... i literally want to die because of this silent treatment youre giving me. i miss you

 

[Sherri]

Angry that people you invested so much time don't give a F about you.

 

[UseItOrLoseIt]

Every day is a celebration, if you worship a groundhog.

 

[narval]

empty and tired

 

[Ath]

Anger, resentment towards the people who I helped but then stabbed me in the back. Now there there is nobody there for me when im losing everything. The anguish is unbearable.

 

[Hirokami]

COVID-19 can go fuck itself. I want to go to the gym again and not feel like a worthless piece of shit who just stays home doing nothing. I miss when I was getting fit. Exercising was the only thing that stopped me from wanting to ctb; I was literally running away from my problems by constantly jogging for at least an hour per day. I got to lift weights and feel like a somewhat normal person. Now, I've gained a little weight and lost the bulk of my muscle mass. I can't jog outside due to all the fucking snow and the only way I can exercise at the uni's gym is if I wear a piece of shit mask that'll constrict my breathing. I hate this shit so much. I'm tired of looking at fucking screens all day.

 

[articledon]

I live alone, the last of my family passed within two months of each other. I have to set up my sister's funeral this week. I'm totally worn out and broken.

 

[Imaginos]

I'm a fundamentally shitty human being beyond any hope of salvation. I hate myself for the fact that everything I am was designed to leave me alone forever and, what's even worse, to have me suffering through every moment of every day, in a test of pure endurance on how awful everything is, from now and until the day I finally fucking die. Why am I the way I am? Why am I such a defective and crappy fucking person? It drives me fucking crazy constantly thinking about this. God damn it.

 

[Life sucks]

Tired and full of pain

 

[sufferingalways]

Tired and having to kick council landlord to do things to help us when it's their job and they just act like bratty kids having to tidy their room. Landlord .. nope! Hateful pricks prefer to blame the victim who's not had enough sleep for years. Bastards.

 

[angelfeather]

Thinking how other peoples actions and words can have a detrimental affect on your life whilst they can go about their life normally. It's so unfair.

 

[Jeannine]

on the bus and I feel like I really need to pee

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

Wondering how people can be so stupid

 

[UseItOrLoseIt]

Off to work now. Putting a mask over my mask.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

My diet and exercise improvements have made me stop reacting emotionally to the few trigger-points that managed to survive. Great for lethality. Will most definitely maintain this.

 

[UseItOrLoseIt]

I miss my computer. This phone bussines is tedious af.