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really annoyed! pesky preventing people stole the bag of yew leaves I just picked. good thing is, the plant itself won't run off. I'll go back there to collect some more, measure the weight, and nom nom
Dread...it is almost 2am where I am and I am going to go to sleep in an hour or so and I just have the worst feeling of dread thinking about waking up in the morning. I will have to repeat the same day again, getting out of bed, getting ready, going to school, coming back home, doing homework, and sleeping. And then I'll have to wake up the day after that and repeat it. And do it again and again and again. I can't keep doing this anymore. I am so lonely that my chest feels like someone is twisting a knife inside of it. I don't want to do tomorrow alone and then the day after alone and keep being alone. God please just kill me in my sleep I can't do this anymore. I can't keep falling asleep and experiencing some form of peace and then waking up again to my reality as being someone who is completely alone and unloved. I dread tomorrow and I want to die in my sleep so badly. Please please please just let me die in my sleep. Please. I don't want to wake up. Just let me die.
how can a few responsibilities fuck me up this bad... idk why ive felt even more dead ever since i got my one lucky break. i felt no relief and instead enormous exhaustion, inertia sets in against my will. its like i must make myself suffer through inaction
I feel like my head is splitting open. I just joined the site today as I could no longer keep my thoughts to myself. I had been frequenting as a guest for around 3 or so years but I never had the urge to create an account if I was only browsing discussion boards for personal reasons and answers to questions.
Because of that I think today marks the day where I've given up completely due to the fact that I will walk around my house and see my belongings, my dog, and my family photos and begin to cry because it feels like my life is already over, and these things will cease to be in my world soon.
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Namelesa, not-2-b-the-answer and CTB Dream
Today was a rough day. I felt the sting of isolation deeply. I felt as though I am truly alone in an uncaring and cruel universe. Everything I do turns to shit. And yet I get arrogant about my abilities which are not particularly good in the first place. There are so many more people so much better than me.
I just want to sleep. I'm so tired of this that and everything else. It needs to be soon. But I still want to live. That's what makes it so much harder. I don't want to die. I just know the future will be utter Hell for me, and that my best option is taking control of my future myself. It is so hard to ctb even when you want to, even when you try. Much less when you don't want to at all. This sucks. It's not fair. But no one said life was fair. I should have been dead 15 years ago, 100 times over. Somehow I always survive. I always survive. Life will kill me in the end anyway but not before torturing me for a few more decades. The truth is power prevails no matter what. And the peons always suffer the most. What a farce.
I need to be free of this tragedy. Free of this existence. Just let me leave. I can't take much more.
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