What am I supposed to do?

[Menschenmühle]

two months ago, I tried to commit suicide. Unfortunately I was found out and failed. I was sent to a mental ward, but I was able to lie my way out of that hellhole.
The problem that remains is that my family members found out about my attempt. They managed to guilt trip me by telling me that they won't be able to cope with my death. Now I don't know what to do, I don't want to hurt anyone but I really need to die. What should I do?

 

[Darkover]

do whats right for you, don't keep yourself alive for the sake of hurting your family they should taken better care of you in the first place

 

[actual_fox]

Damn that is horrible.

Would you forgive yourself? This is what I would ask. I will ask myself this question too?
Will I be able to accept the loss of family and the "harm" done. Would i accept the life I would live If I did not ctb?

 

[Menschenmühle]

do whats right for you, don't keep yourself alive for the sake of hurting your family they should taken better care of you in the first place

But they're not responsible for my life's outcome, I really don't want to hurt them.

 

[Sittichmutter]

Liebe Menschenmühle
I am sorry about your attempt and your pain.
It is been just 2 months. Why the hurry? Let your family know about your pain. Let them help you before talking such a a heavy decision.
I hope you get better.
Mit Liebe,
S

 

[FuneralCry]

Only you know what is best for yourself but I believe that nobody should feel as though they are forced to stay here against their wishes only for the sake of others, and to me it's wrong to guilt trip people into enduring a life that they never even asked for in the first place. When to leave this world is a personal decision and that fact should be respected.

The reality is that grief and loss are simply an inevitable part of life and are a consequence of bringing life here into this world. Eventually we will all die and lose everything anyway, so continuing to exist is only delaying the inevitable. But it sounds really horrible what you have been through, I hate the fact how people feel as though they have the right to interfere in suicide attempts to try and force people to continue suffering. Some people simply don't want to be here and we all deserve the choice of whether we want to stay or not.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

When someone actually reaches the real point of when they're ready to ctb, they don't actually care if anyone else will be hurt. Someone elses hurt becomes secondary to them in stopping their own hurt. I'm not saying that you don't want to ctb. All I'm saying is that, evidently, you still have an amount of caring going on inside of you, directed towards others, which is influencing your ability to ctb. CTB is only about you. It has to be that way.

 

[makethepainstop]

two months ago, I tried to commit suicide. Unfortunately I was found out and failed. I was sent to a mental ward, but I was able to lie my way out of that hellhole.
The problem that remains is that my family members found out about my attempt. They managed to guilt trip me by telling me that they won't be able to cope with my death. Now I don't know what to do, I don't want to hurt anyone but I really need to die. What should I do?

What is the greater suffering for you? Staying alive and suffering to prevent them from suffering? Or ending your pain? You alone know the answer! Much love to you.

 

[flyingtopluto]

My situation is really similar to yours. I was discharged from a mental facility about 1-2 months ago as well. I'm in the same dilemma but the main thing that's holding me back from making a successful attempt is my SI.

I agree with @makethepainstop, the choice is really up to you.