Well, it is time for me to stop hurting.

[GinaIsReady]

He had that xanax effect on me too. Miss you, Ark.

 

[Seagirl]

I am here. Having to keep myself on the path. Kids were staying up to spend some extra time with me. I am going to be self banning more and going to have my drink and laying down. I love you all and hope you all find your way to peace no matter how. They are going to purposely leave me alone for 24 hours just to be safe. But if I have been wrong about 6gm all this time I guess I will know soon enough. But I don't think so. A lot of you here made me feel better than I can describe, and I am going to miss you. But I am happy. Thank you all. And yes, your posts made me more emotional than I thought, but that odd a good thing. I am smiling. And will leave smiling. Please read my first post many times. With all the love I have to give.

Ark

I have just seen this. Oh kind & gentle Ark. So solid for all of
us, so understanding. I am happy now you are at Peace. Warm & safe & free.

 

[Soraa]

I have a lot to say but will do my best to condense it.

First, thank you to all who created and keep this forum running. I have created and ran forums in the past and know first hand the challenges involved. And especially in this context I am sure there are many more challenges than normal. Thank you to all of you.

I have gotten to know a lot of people my time here, and many of those people helped me greatly. Some of them are gone now and I miss them. I don't think I can name people as if I miss someone then I would not want that person to think I ignored mentioning them for some reason. But, if I talked to you, I care about you. And I appreciate you all more than I can express. I got to know some better than others of course and you know who you are. Thank you to all of you.

It is just the nature of things that this post will be buried and forgotten in time. But, if anyone reads this please heed my advice. Life itself is amazing and precious. If you are here you are hurting and I am sorry for your pain. But, never act hastily, most times there is a way for your situation to get better. Especially if you are young. You owe it to yourself to consider every single possibility to try to make your situation better and continue to experience the wonders that life has to offer. Also know though that if you do all in your power to try to find any possible way to make your life livable, but find there truly is no way, you would have my support for what it is worth.

I will be CTBing tonight about 1 am EST. My method is N. I will be using a stat dose of Meto one hour before. I have prepared my loved ones as best I can. I put my after life wishes into effect as best I could also.

I am feeling relieved that my pain will finally be ended. So far anyway, I am not afraid. I know in my heart I tried with all I am to find a way to live without pain. My only regret is that someone that meant everything to me always promised to be here holding my hand when I passed. And she won't be.

I will self ban before I take my drink. I will then reset my phone to factory.

Thank you all for everything and I hope my words will help some people in their journeys no matter where it leads them.

I will be around here until I go tonight. But I needed to get this written now.

Hello Ark, I have never talked to you for you have already left before I joined this forum but I have read many of your posts and I really appreciate the work you put into for this community. Your parting words have touched my heart. I hope you are at a better place now. Thank you Ark.