was your life destroyed by antipsychotics or ssris?

[ForeverLonely82]

When I was the age of 12 I was put on Zoloft and it kind of worked for a little while but then stopped. And that was the start of my lab rat phase where they constantly put me on a lot of pills to help with my depression and none of them worked. I was on antidepressants from that age until my early 30s and I gave them up because they made me feel worse and gave me even severe panic attacks when they were supposed to fight against that. I'm not going to say that you can't find the perfect fit of an SSRI but I will say that this man will never take one again I rather do natural copes then put my trust in the man made concoction that messes with my head chemicals I'd rather be in a more natural state then put on a big dose of "ignoreitall"

 

[mellow]

do you know how many months you waited for akathisia to go away and how many months you should give the side effects to resolve

I think the restlessness went away after a couple of months, and I think it depends on the person. I told myself I would give it 2 years and then ctb if I wasn't better. Now it's been 5.5 years, obviously I can say it's permanent after so much time.

I will be honest with you, I felt something happen in my brain a few days after I got the second injection, and the first thought that flashed through my mind was: "I should kill myself". It was like my higher consciousness/soul/whatever knew what had just happened, and knew it was permanent. I even said those words out loud. I went into denial after going online and reading stories of people who recovered from the injections, but I think when you have brain damage, you know it deep down. I can feel the damage physically, like my brain shrank and it caused some sort of suction or vacuum in my head. I think that's another sign that it's permanent, when you can feel the brain damage

Feel free to DM me if you want. I'm sorry you're going through this