was your life destroyed by antipsychotics or ssris?

[k1m]

I had a generally good life before being misdiagnosed with mania and being injected with invega sustenna which is a chemical lobotomy. It's been over a year since that injection and my life has never been the same. My sense of taste and small are altered nothing is as strong as before, I have a dull pain in my throat that doesn't go away, random twitching from time to time, anhedonia, problems with sleep (I never get a deep sleep anymore), cognitive dulling nowhere as smart as I used life is like a solid 1/10 anyone else have anything like this happen to them?

I'm sorry you're going through this. Have you seen a doctor about this (ik not all doctors are good)? Invega sustenna is supposed to be hydrolyzed a lot faster than this, maybe this is a legit metabolic issue? Or maybe it's psychological/trauma related? At the very least you should try to measure the effects, see if you still have elevated levels in your blood, etc.

 

[soulie]

Sorry to hear that

I'm also damaged by SSRI (Lexapro) which created Post-Acute Withdrawal Syndrome. Akathisia with severe SI, my brains are fried, Anhedonia, constant physical pain (neuropathy) and many more physical, neurological and cognitive symptoms. I had over 100+ symptoms. Most symptoms are bearable at the moment due reinstating but I'm stuck on the poison again. So it's a matter of time something goes wrong again like building up tolerance, prescription or delivery problems etc. Completely housebound and dependent on others.

Same here. Akathisia and countless unbearable symptoms. I'm also completely housebound/ bed bound. Zero quality of life. Just survival all day long. How long have you been like this for?

 

[MissAbyss]

Same here. Akathisia and countless unbearable symptoms. I'm also completely housebound/ bed bound. Zero quality of life. Just survival all day long. How long have you been like this for?

I'm so sorry to hear that

For almost 11 months now. Compared to some others who have or had this for years. I can't even imagine. What about you?

 

[noname223]

Do you still feel positive emotions? Or do you have emotional blunting?

I still have positive emotions. Overall my Regulation of emotions increased a lot since I am taking them. I cried so fucking much because of the inner mental pain without it. It was unbearable.

 

[ifihadnever]

Psycharity and their pills ruined me. I'm nothing now. I'm sorry to hear of your pain.

 

[soulie]

I'm so sorry to hear that

For almost 11 months now. Compared to some others who have or had this for years. I can't even imagine. What about you?

I'm so sorry! Its horrific. I've been sick for 8 years now. 5 years with akathisia.

 

[MissAbyss]

I'm so sorry! Its horrific. I've been sick for 8 years now. 5 years with akathisia.

Oh, thats horrible! I'm so sorry. Eight years, that's unbelievable. Or you on or off meds that caused it? If you like to talk or vent, you can just message me anytime.

 

[Kurwenal]

I had long blamed psychiatry and its overindulgence of prescribing random pills until something 'sticks' as the cause of my problems. I reasoned to myself, that if, two decades ago, as a teen, I hadn't been forced to take meds, I would have grown out of it. I kept telling myself that the meds were the problem, that was why I am like this.

I can't bring myself to do that anymore. Certainly I have certain side effects that, despite no longer taking the associated meds, reduce my quality of life significantly. But I think that if I had never been started on meds, a similar trajectory would have set itself before me. The problem has always been me, not the horrible treatments I was subjected to. Sure, they didn't help. But they aren't the reason I am a failed human.

My family likes to blame my current state on me having weaned off all meds this year. Oddly, each of my past suicide attempts have been undertaken while on some form of cocktail of psychiatric meds. I haven't had a crack this year, or for a few years now, actually. Just got.to work towards it.

 

[RadiantNumber]

I feel them don't causing harm but not helping either

 

[shampoo sniffer]

I don't know. At this point in my life, I've spent more time on them than off them. Been on SSRIs continously since I was 16. I'm 34 now.

I feel like my doctors didn't know how to deal with my case so they just put me on pills and called it a day. If a brand seemed like it stopped working, they would switch me onto another. I'm on duloxetine now, was on citalopram before that, prozac before that, so on and on.....no break in between.

 

[divinemistress36]

God I hate how they put people with treatment resistant depression on antipsychotics . That shit made more suicidal

I don't know. At this point in my life, I've spent more time on them than off them. Been on SSRIs continously since I was 16. I'm 34 now.

I feel like my doctors didn't know how to deal with my case so they just put me on pills and called it a day. If a brand seemed like it stopped working, they would switch me onto another. I'm on duloxetine now, was on citalopram before that, prozac before that, so on and on.....no break in between.

Same . After you been on them your whole life , they are impossible to get off of. So you just take them to not have withdrawls

 

[mellow]

I had a generally good life before being misdiagnosed with mania and being injected with invega sustenna which is a chemical lobotomy. It's been over a year since that injection and my life has never been the same. My sense of taste and small are altered nothing is as strong as before, I have a dull pain in my throat that doesn't go away, random twitching from time to time, anhedonia, problems with sleep (I never get a deep sleep anymore), cognitive dulling nowhere as smart as I used life is like a solid 1/10 anyone else have anything like this happen to them?

The same happened to me, also Invega Sustenna. This drug needs to be banned. I'm sorry you are in this position too

 

[traingirl]

I had a generally good life before being misdiagnosed with mania and being injected with invega sustenna which is a chemical lobotomy. It's been over a year since that injection and my life has never been the same. My sense of taste and small are altered nothing is as strong as before, I have a dull pain in my throat that doesn't go away, random twitching from time to time, anhedonia, problems with sleep (I never get a deep sleep anymore), cognitive dulling nowhere as smart as I used life is like a solid 1/10 anyone else have anything like this happen to them?

Ruined by Trintellix, Buspar, Trazodone, and Seroquel.

 

[Fadenself00]

Or maybe it's psychological/trauma related?

I'm sure you're just not aware, but NO!

This is THE biggest lie/gaslighting in the entire field!

You can absolutely tell (drug-induced) brain damage apart from psychological distress(!!)

 

[Vorty30]

Emotional centers in my brain are gone and completely numb because of Abilify mentena shots I used to get hit with monthly in the past for a long period of time.
In a sense, part of me is destroyed because of such chemical... Poison made to scam us with from the pharma companies.

 

[madameviolette]

yep, that is my description as well. Complete damage, destroyed circadian rythm, digestive failure, hormonal failure, tinnitus, blurry vision, metabolic disease all caused by psych meds and other meds

My life has been damaged by benzos. This is why I need to CTB.

All I can say to anyone is please don't take them. I made the mistake of trusting my doctor. I didn't know you shouldn't take them longer than 7 days. It turned into 12 years and now I am suffering. Every day is the most miserable existence. I want nothing more than to leave this world.

can I ask you what sustainable damage you got from benzos ?

 

[Light_]

I abused benzos for many years and now I'm also taking Lexapro, but to be honest, I don't blame the meds because even though they're crap, they've alleviated the major depression that makes my life hell. I believe meds ruin your life if your life is already ruined for other reasons.

No. meds and neurotoxicity definitely ruin and destroy people's lives.

 

[penguinl0v3s]

Antipsychotics make you dumb--like you think slowly. I'm not saying that they aren't an effective treatment for psychosis, but the side effects are SO bad.

Science really needs to come up with better options instead of having doctors gaslight people about the side effects.

My doctor tried to get me to take antipsychotics by lying to me about the weight gain--which I knew was significant. He didn't give a fuck that I didn't like them.

 

[Light_]

If you don't mind I would suggest you to try magic mushrooms . Some people have had very good results using them.

Inherently the mushrooms aren't harmful themselves, but when you have profound chemical and neurological injuries from toxicity, things that can be helpful and people with largely normal physiology, can often go completely sideways and catastrophic, and make people a thousand times worse. People who have neurotoxicity and brain damage from a variety of synthetic chemicals from pharmaceutical drugs, are in a whole different category then something like hiawasca or mushrooms can really touch. I know not everyone will understand this, but I know a lot of us do.

 

[penguinl0v3s]

In a way, yes. They put me on clozapine and aripriprazole so I gained weight and currently weigh in around 200lbs. I also cannot for the love of me get up in the morning whenever I take them (usually around 11pm) on a day off and I end up sleeping until noon. Also it makes me sweat like crazy. Then again a part of me is glad that I'm unattractive because I at least don't have to deal with unwanted attention (I've been there in the past and it's not fun). I do however intend to improve my appereance before I ctb.

My doctor tried to lie to me and tell me that weight gain from aririprazole is insignificant. Professional gaslighters. I'm sorry that happened to you. I heard people lose some of the weight when they get off, hopefully some of that will happen to you.

 

[Light_]

I'm so sorry! Its horrific. I've been sick for 8 years now. 5 years with akathisia.

It took me over 5 years to recover, but I was in a different category of damage from neurotoxic antibiotics. Are you currently taking any prescription drugs? 8 years is a long time but sadly still well within normal limits for this kind of profound damage.