Story was told to off myself in response about venting about a failed test

[jenny6391bubbles]

I told a group chat of some sorts that I was feeling bad because the year had started and I just found out I failed a test. I mean, it wasn't super bad at first because I was like "hey, it's just one quiz." But then, this kid jokingly told me to jump off a building and man, that really made me relapse. I know she's just projecting onto me what she would do, but it felt so awful. I also said, maybe I should just aim for B's and C's instead of A's (since here, no one really gives a shit about your grades when you get a job) and she said that we should just let our subjects aim at us so we can die. I didn't really get it either, but yeah. I've failed almost half of the tests in that subject but there are still other things to make up for it, but it just feels like I won't pass anymore. All because that kid made me relapse and my hard work in trying to heal myself is now back to 0. Fuck this shit. I wish someone just fucking shot me dead in these streets. I kind of want to pay someone to kill me at this point. There's no hope for this country anyway, and I wanted to be a therapist, but it seems like most people would rather talk to an AI, so what's the fucking point??

 

[Sluggish_Slump]

for some reason higher education makes everyone suicidal, where I studied a lot of students were making suicide jokes too to express feelings of defeat

 

[jenny6391bubbles]

for some reason higher education makes everyone suicidal, where I studied a lot of students were making suicide jokes too to express feelings of defeat

yeah, been noticing that since high school. it's kind of sad it never goes away after that