Interloper

Interloper

Jul 23, 2021
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Tbf why would you extend you stay more than the bare minimum necessary. It makes sense that people leave, or leave here. If you get into the habit of checking out the forum daily like me it just means you're stuck in a personal hell that's not painful enough to push you to suicide but neither to stop thinking about It altogether.
I also don't think it's unlikely that there have been people who "left" but came back under a different account. Maybe that's just me omega-coping though. But I'd put money on it having happened at least once.
 
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Chinaski

Chinaski

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Sep 1, 2018
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I also don't think it's unlikely that there have been people who "left" but came back under a different account. Maybe that's just me omega-coping though. But I'd put money on it having happened at least once.
Yeah, happens all the time, a fair few people have supposedly ctb then logged back in under another account to partake in the ensuing grieving.
Some of those people may have decided to end their life already, but I believe that you are correct.


For example, one may not want to buy N or SN, but it's beneficial to know how to tie a proper hanging rope, in case life takes a turn for the worse. You could call it "suicide prepping".
I suspect people do use this place for that but in reality there's nothing to be learned about the traditional methods here, the "how to hang yourself" thread etc is fundamentally worthless.
 
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Julgran

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Yeah, happens all the time, a fair few people have supposedly ctb then logged back in under another account to partake in the ensuing grieving.

I suspect people do use this place for that but in reality there's nothing to be learned about the traditional methods here, the "how to hang yourself" thread etc is fundamentally worthless.

You are correct about hanging in one sense, but do take into account that not everyone is aware what hanging actually entails. If you were like me, you would think that hanging entails actual suffocation, which is not the case, since it's all about just blocking the carotid arteries - so suicide is like any field of expertise, for those of us who are new to it.

What you said is probably true about jumping and such, though, since there's nothing special to be learned about it.
 
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Chinaski

Chinaski

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Yeah but none of that information is exclusive to this website, and asking for info on those methods here just leads to certain people appointing themselves as experts despite knowing no more than the next person.
 
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9BBN

9BBN

Heaven, send Hell away
Mar 29, 2021
377
Yeah, happens all the time, a fair few people have supposedly ctb then logged back in under another account to partake in the ensuing grieving.
Interesting... why do you suppose they do that?
 
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Julgran

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Dec 15, 2021
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Yeah but none of that information is exclusive to this website, and asking for info on those methods here just leads to certain people appointing themselves as experts despite knowing no more than the next person.

You are probably correct, but someone who's suicidal may be content with the first resource that they find. In my own case, I was researching the Helium method three years ago, and ended up here.

Do you mean that there are members here who seem to deem themselves to be experts at suicide..? I'm guessing that they are simply trying to find a space for themselves in which they can feel useful - or maybe even superior to others. I would disagree with them in so far as this is not the place to be superior in any way, but I also believe that it's useful for people to share their knowledge, since it's probably unlikely that a new member is searching for ancient knowledge from when the community was built, but, rather, somewhat new information that someone has used lately and seemed to have succeeded in their attempt at ending their life.

I would say, though, just let those Mr.-know-it-alls to pretend that they are at the top of the world with all the suicide knowledge - no one here seems to care about that kind of attitude anynow, since all that matters is that one finds correct and up-to-date information about a possible method, and not who is the king of the world.
 
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Interloper

Interloper

Jul 23, 2021
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Interesting... why do you suppose they do that?
The amount of attention they'd get from a goodbye thread is probably really intoxicating. Seeing who and how many people reach out to say they care about them would be one of my guesses also.
 
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rationaltake

rationaltake

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The amount of attention they'd get from a goodbye thread is probably really intoxicating. Seeing who and how many people reach out to say they care about them would be one of my guesses also.
Wonder what happens if they don't get any responses?
 
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waitingforrest

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Dec 27, 2021
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Is something wrong on my side or is @9BBN crossed out?
 
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Life_and_Death

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Do what's best for you 🕯️ Sometimes I'm stressed
Jul 1, 2020
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Is something wrong on my side or is @9BBN crossed out?
Their last comments seemed to be an argument and them saying "please ban me" in an 'i give up' way
 
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Chinaski

Chinaski

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@9BBN is a generally good sort and l hope they're doing okay.
 
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PrisonBreak

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Oct 29, 2021
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I miss @LastLoveLetter . I hope they are okay. My thoughts are with them. ❤️
 
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Suicidebydeath

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Nov 25, 2021
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I miss @LastLoveLetter too. I hope @Foresight is ok too.
 
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Chinaski

Chinaski

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Anyone know how @WhiteRabbit is getting on?
 
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actual_fox

actual_fox

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Sep 15, 2022
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Hello. Is @Manaaja Still alive???
I will be leaving this forum. If this account gets deleted, it is not because I ctb.
I am happy for now and not planning to suicide any time soon.

Be well people
Holy Shit dude! Nice!
(I am dying lmao)
 
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Feb 12, 2019
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LastLoveLetter

LastLoveLetter

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Mar 28, 2021
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Oh no, I'm sorry if I worried anyone. I just wanted to write a quick message to say I'm still alive. I very rarely use the forum or check my notifications. Started a new medication a couple of months ago that seems to be helping (it's not a cure, but it's progress) so I want to see how I get on and commit to giving this a chance before deciding whether to stay or go, and I chose to distance myself from this site for the time being.

If anyone wants to keep in touch, I do have Discord and Protonmail so feel free to drop me a line if you'd like to touch base here and there. Sending you all lots of love. :heart:
 
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Interloper

Interloper

Jul 23, 2021
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... @Auto Immunity After crossed out? Was someone in contact with them?
 
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whatevs

whatevs

Mining for copium in the weirdest places.
Jan 15, 2022
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Their last comments seemed to be an argument and them saying "please ban me" in an 'i give up' way
Yeah but not the suicidal giving up, just the giving up on continuing to beat a dead horse with Rain. Probably doing well.
 
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Кто знает, что случилось с участником Pan Tofel? Я вижу, что его удалили. он был так добр ко мне... Может быть, его избавили от страданий. кто знает. но как-то грустно.
 
rationaltake

rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
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Any news of @Symbiote?
 
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rationaltake

rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
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They ctb.
Thank you. I did wonder. I hope they had an easy passing.

Actually I'm feeling very sombre about this. I was reading their thread about their experience with SN and they were very helpful with their responses to questions.

May they be free from suffering.
 
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RainAndSadness

RainAndSadness

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Jun 12, 2018
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Thank you. I did wonder. I hope they had an easy passing.

Actually I'm feeling very sombre about this. I was reading their thread about their experience with SN and they were very helpful with their responses to questions.

May they be free from suffering.

They contributed a lot to the forum and they were a highly appreciated colleague in my team. It's sad that they're gone but I hope they found peace.
 
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Dead Meat

Dead Meat

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Oct 10, 2018
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Has anybody heard from @Amumu at all ?
 
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Hollowillow

Hollowillow

I want throat hugs & anime! Can't use chat pm me
Aug 7, 2022
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The 1rst person who replied was banned... Sad...

Was Summers self banned or banned? He didn't say goodbye to me... But if he could... It means he didn't care... We shared discord... But ... Yeah... Nope...
They contributed a lot to the forum and they were a highly appreciated colleague in my team. It's sad that they're gone but I hope they found peace.
I woondered where the admin was. There you are. Thank you for not banning my shit yet *hugs* it means a lot to be tolerated here
 
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Lullaby

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The 1rst person who replied was banned... Sad...

Was Summers self banned or banned? He didn't say goodbye to me... But if he could... It means he didn't care... We shared discord... But ... Yeah... Nope...
Summers self-banned sometime yesterday, I'm sorry.
 
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Hollowillow

Hollowillow

I want throat hugs & anime! Can't use chat pm me
Aug 7, 2022
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Summers self-banned sometime yesterday, I'm sorry.
We can self ban? So he hated us? He hated... Me...

Thanks...

I wish I understood why. Maybe talking with my lost cause self made him realize that his life isn't so bad after all...
Can a self ban be undone? Did he deactivated or deleted? But he stopped talking to me before that... So I guess he didn't have any affection for me after all. He said he'd do anything but didn't hug me when I asked... I'm stupid...

This I why I didn't let myself love for 20 years... They say they care but don't discuss stuff and trash you... Or become maniac stalkers... I wish he stalked me...
More grief more mindfuck... Why can't the universe give me a break... Break my neck
Damnit I just wanted to love! Who want to be my new favorite and get cursed? Happens all the time...
 
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Cathy Ames

Cathy Ames

Cautionary Tale
Mar 11, 2022
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They ctb. They contributed a lot to the forum and they were a highly appreciated colleague in my team. It's sad that they're gone but I hope they found peace.
Oh my goodness. This is another one of those that just "hit" me, to read about. @Symbiote was very helpful to me, and had a very "distinct" personality on the forum. I am very sorry for your loss, Rain.

We can self ban? So he hated us? He hated... Me...

Thanks...

I wish I understood why.
Unfortunately, this is the nature of this place. People leave.
Maybe talking with my lost cause self made him realize that his life isn't so bad after all...
Can a self ban be undone? Did he deactivated or deleted? But he stopped talking to me before that... So I guess he didn't have any affection for me after all. He said he'd do anything but didn't hug me when I asked... I'm stupid...

This I why I didn't let myself love for 20 years... They say they care but don't discuss stuff and trash you... Or become maniac stalkers... I wish he stalked me...
More grief more mindfuck... Why can't the universe give me a break... Break my neck
Damnit I just wanted to love! Who want to be my new favorite and get cursed? Happens all the time...
Of all the places in the world, this is one where you can safely assume that people leaving is not about "you" (generic you). And circumstances do not always allow for good-byes. I am very sorry you are hurting, and I hope you will feel better soon, but it is certainly completely unmerited for you to be doing a thing that looks like you're blaming yourself or something like that.
 
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