Help Unsure if I should kill myself

[nuisancehere]

I'm not really sure if I should ctb already, I know how I'm going to do it, and I have a plan. I've been procrastinating on writing notes to the people who I think are really important to me but I already have an idea of what I'm going to write. I also plan on giving them things important to me that I think would befit them the most.
My life is constant pain and I really want it to end, I don't think I have much of a future as I'm already failing all my classes, I constantly have to deal w/ family issues at home, I enjoy my friends company and the extracurriculars I do but in the end I really want to die, I feel like such a burden to everyone, and no one seems to notice or even care that I'm suffering. I'm just unsure, because I know there's a lot of things I'd miss out on, I'm about to get my first professional camera, which will be a step up from the old camcorders I've been using, there's a lot of things I wish to record, and a lot of things I wish to take pictures of but I also don't want to deal with this immense agony, I'm unsure of what to do

 

[Kanoh]

If you're unsure it means you shouldn't.

 

[Jadeith]

If you're unsure it means you shouldn't.

My thoughts exactly.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Personally, I tend to think- if there is any hope or interest left in life- it does seem worth pursuing that. The choice to die is usually something we can return to later- if things feel more bleak. I'm sorry you are suffering so badly that it is a consideration for you though.