NSFW Uncensored AMA: 19yo Kamimachi runaway, body for a bed

[Mio_Kamimachi]

Hey... It's nothing, really
If anything, I'm glad you were expresing yourself freely in your own language. But I do apologise, it was not my intention to pretend I knew... I just know that sometimes words fit better when they're told to us in the language of our heart. So I tried to use the words that'd accurately convey my thoughts...

But that aside, I'm so sorry these last few days were... such a struggle.
It's good to know you've made it through so far...

Believe it or not, your own existence is also improving other people's lives, even from far away.
Welcome back

Please do not worry. I appreciate your kind words.

... to be honest I'm surprised you're still alive..

Am i?
Everyone has their hardship. My hardship may be different than others. Others hardship may be different that mine. We should all be proud of ourselves and each other to have it made this far.

My question to you is, what's your life story? I'm curious as to what sort of life you've lead up to now and how you ended up where you are today.

My life has been filled with abuse from the first day. My self worth was never allowed to develop and at one point i stopped trying to even consider i was worth having one. Then life got too much and i finally tried to escape. But instead it just ended in me craving any validation of my own self hatred. Life without abuse felt wrong. So i slid into a lifestyle that helps me hate myself to fill that void in my chest. I am where i am supposed to be.

Based on the way you text, you're English is almost suspiciously good but I'll give you the benefit of the doubt since I don't really lose anything either ways.

Grammarly/Autocorrect help me a lot.

 

[Yuja]

My life has been filled with abuse from the first day. My self worth was never allowed to develop and at one point i stopped trying to even consider i was worth having one. Then life got too much and i finally tried to escape. But instead it just ended in me craving any validation of my own self hatred. Life without abuse felt wrong. So i slid into a lifestyle that helps me hate myself to fill that void in my chest. I am where i am supposed to be.

I don't know if I have any right to say this because I also feel like I deserve everything that has happened to me throughout my life but, like you said, you were never allowed to develop your own self-worth. It was never any fault of your own that you lived in the conditions that you were raised in. I really hope that you find a place where you are allowed to explore yourself more intimately and nurture / value yourself more :)