Top Reason why people want to CTB

[hercules0501]

Hi,

I wanted to know the top reason why people CTB. I keep reading vague responses from people that life is bad etc. Could someone who has been here or engaged with CTB type people on a normal basis give me the core reason why people CTB.

I'll start first:-

1. Nihilism I believe everything that we do is pointless. Existence and fighting the rat race is pointless in itself and I would like to opt out from this game world

2. APATHY. MANY people keep telling me to be happy. I'm happy and things are good. But I can't keep living and doing stuff everyday pretneding that I love being happy. I don't give a fuck about being happy or sad I just want to be gone from here. Period.

I don't see the world as negative or positive I see it as irrelevant.

Could others share their specific reasons why they would like to end it? Thanks

 

[thelostautistic]

I have a few reasons but my main one is I don't want to be autistic. It impacts me a lot more than people realise and growing up undiagnosed was very traumatising for me. I worry about my safety in the future after my parents die. I worry about being fully independent and I'm scared I'll become homeless. Part of me wants to live but not like this. I'm going to have to deal with being misunderstood, overstimulated and potentially bullied for the rest of my life. This world just feels too much for me and I can't handle it. I am trying to carry on but I think eventually I will end my life.