Venting Too stupid to live

[ManAboutTown]

I don't even know how to explain myself. I've been plagued with this for months. Everybody talks to me and treats me like I'm stupid, and I want to say it isn't true or I'm making things up, but it is. I cannot keep up with anybody. Everybody understands things intrinsically that I do not. I can't stop fucking stuttering when I speak to people, and it makes me sound like a sperg which makes them treat me like one. I desperately wish I wasn't autistic, or at the very least just a little smarter. I've been doing fine in college because I know the day I drop out is the day I choose to kill myself. Everything I do is stupid and I can't grasp anything and nobody cares.

 

[whyyyyyyyy]

I wish this were better somehow