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Venting I love suffering

3spiral

3spiral

the zigzagooner
Apr 22, 2026
104
I love finding new ways to make myself miserable. I don't enjoy the feeling itself but I love the fact that I'm in it. I love doing things that I know will result in me getting more isolated, depressed, hopeless, and the more I suffer the more I feel like I must find worse ways to do so. like, right now I really wish I could exhaust myself to the point of fainting

dunno why am I this way. I've been questioning myself for quite some time. felt a lot of guilt for it too. anyone else this way? :p
 
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yume_

Coffee addict
Dec 8, 2025
75
Hmmmmm I think I relate to you a bit. For me these self-destructive habits are a result of intense self-hatred. I don't enjoy what I do and that's the point of it.

Tho idk any advice bro as I'm in the same situation XD
 
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3spiral

the zigzagooner
Apr 22, 2026
104
yume_ said:
Hmmmmm I think I relate to you a bit. For me these self-destructive habits are a result of intense self-hatred. I don't enjoy what I do and that's the point of it.

Tho idk any advice bro as I'm in the same situation XD
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eh it's okay I just wanted to know if I'm not alone :3
 
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