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UglyLife82

UglyLife82

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Feb 25, 2025
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I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. I am too scared to live, everything causes me great fear and anxiety. I can barely stand to leave the house due to agoraphobia and OCD. I am scared to death of everything. I am constantly in fight or flight and have a sense of impending doom.

But on the flip side. I'm too scared to CTB. So I have to sit here and suffer until I die naturally. This feels like i'm being cosmically tortured. Anyone relate?
 
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Hystearical

Hystearical

I just want to die
Jul 23, 2022
4,999
Oh god yes
 
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GodzillasBiggestFan

GodzillasBiggestFan

Godzilla's Lonely Bestie
Jan 12, 2026
354
this is exactly how i feel too
 
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anxiousdweller

anxiousdweller

God Tier Anxious Fumblerrr
Apr 10, 2026
37
Yep you hit it right on the spot! but im gonna beat the SI someday
 
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caramelpudding

caramelpudding

unlucky me
May 20, 2026
73
Yes, I can relate
I wish that CTB would be painless and peaceful like eternal sleep so that I can end my suffering
 
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endboss

endboss

Student
Apr 8, 2026
176
I am also scared of how much more suffering I will have to deal with if I stay alive.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
2,468
Yep limbo sucks, been in it for years.
 
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