Venting I don’t feel it anymore

[stepanch1k]

I've been insulted/made fun of both directly and indirectly so many times that I just don't feel it anymore, I just notice it and go about my day, yes it still hurts but the pain disappears in a couple of seconds and I go back to feeling numb. I guess I've just subconsciously accepted that that's how it's going be forever so there no need to get sad about it. Same with watching ropefuel content on the internet, it just does bother me as much as it used to. Of course some times it does get under my skin and when it does I feel stronger emotions than last time. But it is what it is, there's nothing I can really do about it, except isolate myself from society which will cause me even more harm long term.

 

[tonicer]

It took me until i was 30 something to become stoic enough that no snicker or crude remark registers with me anymore. Now at 43 i am pretty resilient towards the weird looks my ugly face gets me no matter where i go. I loved the covid time with the facemasks.