Today's the day, guys

[invisiblycrippled]

Calling him friend when you hardly know him

We are connected by suffering. So why the hell not?

 

[RottingFlowerBrains]

Peace be with you Dani

 

[Miss clefable]

We are connected by suffering. So why the hell not?

Whatever

 

[s_girl]

Well...time to decide whether or not I want my last meal. I'd like to have a sausage and cheese sandwich.

https://g.co/kgs/YuWwn4

This is the end
Beautiful friend
This is the end
My only friend, the end

Perfect time for a last meal. Your post reminds me of a similar one with CO - I'm sure you know who I'm referring to. You are not alone. Peace be with you soon Dani. I hope you find what you're looking for...

 

[Dani Paradox]

This is it guys. I'm going in the tent and I'm gonna pass out. I'm really tired, and there's a shitload of charcoal in there.

 

[Miss clefable]

This is it guys. I'm going in the tent and I'm gonna pass out. I'm really tired, and there's a shitload of charcoal in there.

Hugs good luck <3

 

[Dani Paradox]

Hugs <3 i know we have our differences but I still love you and I wish you a safe journey to everlasting peace

Our differences?? I feel like we're exactly the same. I love you.

 

[s_girl]

Calling him friend when you hardly know him

Why would it matter to you? Please refrain from random criticisms. This really doesn't seem like the time or place for it. Can't we all just try to get along?

 

[Miss clefable]

Our differences?? I feel like we're exactly the same. I love you.

I guess your right

 

[s_girl]

I wish you all the best Dani. I hope sleep comes quickly.

 

[MachineGunDani]

Thinking of u

 

[Lra888]

Peace to you Dani.

 

[s_girl]

Is it really hot Dani? Can you feel the CO? I'm thinking of you! I hope you can't reply because you're already sleeping. Peace, friend.

 

[Anon1337]

Good luck.

 

[polyswarm]

Best wishes!

 

[Dani Paradox]

I fucked up. I'm worried about being "saved." I'm tired as fuck. I can't even keep my eyes open. This would have worked perfectly. Except my original plan was to be in the tent by 3 am. And it's 6:46 am. My father will be up soon...…..and what if he DOES go in that shed??? If I get "saved" I will end up a vegetable. Brain damage. Vegetable. Zanexx did this out in the woods. She wasn't even found for about 2 days. I'm doing it in my back yard. It's not the same thing. I'm worried about being caught. It has to be done properly. I have to go to Plan B. I have just a bit of alcohol left and just enough charcoal. I'll have to take a nap and wait until he leaves for work. The charcoal that's already in the tent should even still be burning by then. I can't keep my eyes open right now though. I'll talk to you guys later.

 

[s_girl]

Thanks for letting us know. You're making the right decision. Timing is important and you shouldn't be rushed. Rescheduling is best so you can be peaceful and successful. I wonder what it was like I there...

 

[Dani Paradox]

I got lucky. My dad just left for work and he gave me a bit of money. I pulled it off. Because I'm such a chronic alcoholic that I actually go into withdrawals like a junkie. Like seriously. It's really bad. Really bad. And I need tobacco. So he gave me a little cash....and I'll be able to get another bottle AND another bag of charcoal.

This was Plan B. There is no Plan C.

My time is TOTALLY UP. If I don't do this today, then tomorrow he's taking me to the hospital. Alcohol detox. All the doctors and all that shit. Probably be there for a week. That ain't happening. I will not go. AND even if I did....once I get out...…...no money. Back to square one. AND I'll have to tear down that gas chamber tent that I spent an entire day making.

So....Plan B? And there was a thread on here about this. "Would you rather ctb during the day or night?" I'd rather ctb at night. That was the plan. But I have limited time. IF HE DOES happen to check the shed...it will be in the morning at around 9:30. Unless it's his day off, then it will be later. Well....Plan B....I'm gonna ctb during the day. Once I'm in that shed, in that tent, pitch black.....it might as well be night. I don't think it really makes a difference either way. My body won't be found for around 16 hours. At least. So I'm gonna go get my supplies :) <3

 

[Miss clefable]

I got lucky. My dad just left for work and he gave me a bit of money. I pulled it off. Because I'm such a chronic alcoholic that I actually go into withdrawals like a junkie. Like seriously. It's really bad. Really bad. And I need tobacco. So he gave me a little cash....and I'll be able to get another bottle AND another bag of charcoal.

This was Plan B. There is no Plan C.

My time is TOTALLY UP. If I don't do this today, then tomorrow he's taking me to the hospital. Alcohol detox. All the doctors and all that shit. Probably be there for a week. That ain't happening. I will not go. AND even if I did....once I get out...…...no money. Back to square one. AND I'll have to tear down that gas chamber tent that I spent and entire day making.

So....Plan B? And there was a thread on here about this. "Would you rather ctb during the day or night?" I'd rather ctb at night. That was the plan. But I have limited time. IF HE DOES happen to check the shed...it will be in the morning at around 9:30. Unless it's his day off, then it will be later. Well....Plan B....I'm gonna ctb during the day. Once I'm in that shed, in that tent, pitch black.....it might as well be night. I don't think it really makes a difference either way. So I'm off in a bit. Gotta get my supplies. My body won't be found for around 16 hours. At least. So I'm gonna go get my supplies :) <3

Dani if we could be together I would die with you

 

[Dani Paradox]

Dani if we could be together I would die with you

I love you Miss Clef <3 I wish you the best.

 

[invisiblycrippled]

I hope all goes well this time. You deserve your peace.

 

[your pathologist]

You can do it dani, good luck!! You deserve peace

 

[Dani Paradox]

The clock is really ticking now. I've got my second batch of charcoal burning. First batch is already in the tent, and I'm starting to drink now. It won't be much longer.

 

[Duqu]

Wishing you the best, Dani.

 

[sadsoul]

Good luck, I hope you finally find peace after so much trouble.

 

[Lena]

The clock is really ticking now. I've got my second batch of charcoal burning. First batch is already in the tent, and I'm starting to drink now. It won't be much longer.

Hey man. It seems like you have a lot of fears. You could make it through alcohol detox. And so what if you don't have enough money? You can always make more. It seems your dad lets you live with him.

 

[Lena]

All I'm saying is, don't pretend like you don't have options because you do. Be real with yourself. You could try to live but it's freaking hard.

Make the choice that is right for you by not lying to yourself. I'm not trying to tilt you either way with which choice is right.

 

[Lena]

Also I don't blame you for being done and overwhelmed with life. It happens to the best of us.

I believe that this is all part of a much longer exsistance. When we die, we go somewhere. I think wherever we are no matter what if we give up we'll look back and wish we hadn't. But fuck do I understand being unable to do that. Right now I'm just suffering through the bullshit, partially because I'm to cowardly to kill my self, partially because I don't want to look back and regret not taking on these challenges I face right now.

 

[Lena]

Have a good long talk with yourself before you do this... you don't want to leave the earth feelin shit about yourself. This might be the right choice for you. But you gotta make damn sure it is. All your putting it off shows that you're not sure. Gotta be sure man.

 

[skitliv]

Good luck, hope it goes as you desire