TODAY I'm going to use SN

[WFJ74]

What happens if you don't vomit but still drink the second glass? I just want to make sure.

I just didn't ate, I will not take other meds other than SN.

Indeed it is. I have to do it today. Plus, it's a must.

I wouldn't drink the second SN dose unless you vomit up the first.

 

[xrafinha]

I believe that being so afraid of waking up is just your S.I playing with your mind. For what I understand 25g of SN should be more then enough... they actually recomend 20g for a normal sized person.

Anyway this is very hard so take your time and if you feel you aren't ready, breath, perhaps pick another time, there is no rush after all.

 

[LifeQuitter2018]

Yes. Do you think I'm going to wake up? Survive on my own?

If you read the reports, there're cases the person wake up on their own, because of:
- They vomit too much and don't use back-up drink.
- They use SN that isn't high grade enough or nitrite has been converted to nitrate.
- They drink water after the attempt.

 

[whitefeather]

This SN link will help > https://www.jem-journal.com/article/S0736-4679(20)31065-9/fulltext

 

[Lady black]

I wish you good luck, a peaceful death and a nice afterlife if there is an afterlife

 

[FuneralCry]

If this is what you want then I wish you peace. I think it's normal to have fears, I would be the same.

 

[orlandom]

If you change your mind. This is normal. Just be confident in your decisions. Hug you.

 

[Freakazette]

I didn't change my mind . But I don't know if I have the time now... I fell asleep. Am thirsty. ( didn't ate anything all day )

Will anyone be here in 2-3 hours?

I need to drink my last water now, that's why in 2-3 hours.

But may not have the same time that may be required to die...

Update: it's already past 10pm, and it's too quiet here. Like all neighbours are asleep, geez. I can hear a cough, what about me If I drink the SN? That's why I didn't want past 10pm

What if I'm found after 6-8-12 hours now? Not less. I don't believe less.

Dunno why but I cannot delete or edit a previous post.

 

[orlandom]

Hug you. We cannot advise you. But know I'm near. If you change your mind, I'll be there.

Love here

...

How do you feel?

 

[Freakazette]

Hug you. We cannot advise you. But know I'm near. If you change your mind, I'll be there.

Love here

...

How do you feel?

I'm thinking if I'm not going to have the time and not die anyway... Then I will worry 3-4 people. I don't want to survive but what if I do...

Yes, I wanted also to be found but not before I die.

I'm feeling tired ( already have health issues ), I just want to die. So... If I don't drink the SN in 2-3 hours, I will still drink it later during the day.

 

[Lady black]

I'll be here if you like, maybe it's not your time as you are so much afraid. Are you really 100% sure? I don't want to talk you out of it but if you are so nervous it's more likely that a mistake could happen

 

[Freakazette]

I'll be here if you like, maybe it's not your time as you are so much afraid. Are you really 100% sure? I don't want to talk you out of it but if you are so nervous it's more likely that a mistake could happen

It's not about being nervous, I'm already not feeling well, it's like I'm too tired to even drink SN and be out of here.

I haven't eaten from this morning, 1 coffee with sugar, only water... However, from 1 hour I stopped drinking water.

I do need to smoke in all this process, from time to time, is it ok?

Have I done anything wrong? Fasted, checked.

In case I do prolong this till tomorrow, I'm still not eating/fasting.

Update: If SN is going to make my head hurt like when you're drinking alcohol, I'm going to "fall asleep" from the very start...

 

[Lady black]

Maybe you are tired cause your body needs food and water?

 

[Freakazette]

Maybe you are tired cause your body needs food and water?

Nah, health issues...

But even if I'm tired, SN still should work, right?

 

[Lady black]

You can also die when you are tired, people also die in sleep

 

[Freakazette]

You can also die when you are tired, people also die in sleep

Perfect.

 

[Lady black]

I would not worry too much, you should just ask yourself if it's really your time now

 

[Freakazette]

I would not worry too much, you should just ask yourself if it's really your time now

It should have been long time ago. I'm already not feeling well, barely breathing, I don't wait for the day of tomorrow. There's no point in postponing this. It's just that besides courage, I need also a colosal effort.

 

[Lady black]

I totally understand you I also should have done it years ago
If you like you can tell me what brought you to this situation

 

[antinatalist]

It should have been long time ago. I'm already not feeling well, barely breathing, I don't wait for the day of tomorrow. There's no point in postponing this. It's just that besides courage, I need also a colosal effort.

I'm sorry if this seems like I'm trying to talk you out of CTB, but I feel like if you're still in doubt or unsure, wait another day or so. This can never be undone.
Sending you lots of love and hope you find peace in whatever you choose

 

[Tesha]

I'm not sure anyone can really answer your question about surviving. My understanding is Stans guide is a tried and tested method, and it sounds like you're using the right SN amount. As others have said, are you ready for this? There's no rush. your thoughts may just be your SI kicking in (understandable and norma), or it may be that deep within yourself you're not sure. Whatever route you take I wish your journey continues peacefully.

 

[Freakazette]

I'm sorry! I fell asleep, I slept a lot.

Today, also, I haven't ate anything at all. No coffee this time.

I think my body/organism is odd. There's a big chance that SN will make me really sick. Today I'm thinking about puking as well.

Still, tired.

I just want to die, that's all, and SN seems like a fairy tale.

This time, there's a big chance to have enough time. But I'm already feeling so unwell, dunno how SN will affect me. I mean, I only want it to affect death on me... To lead to that. Not just more sickness...

 

[Snow Queen]

I'm sorry! I fell asleep, I slept a lot.

Today, also, I haven't ate anything at all. No coffee this time.

I think my body/organism is odd. There's a big chance that SN will make me really sick. Today I'm thinking about puking as well.

Still, tired.

I just want to die, that's all, and SN seems like a fairy tale.

This time, there's a big chance to have enough time. But I'm already feeling so unwell, dunno how SN will affect me. I mean, I only want it to affect death on me... To lead to that. Not just more sickness...

Take it easy darling. I'm doing my attempt tomorrow if everything went as planned and was left alone, maybe this will give you the power you need to go with it. As for now don't pressure yourself any further, the whole goal of this method is that it's supposed to be peaceful, if your feeling sick please have something to eat and rest your body. Sending you all the love ^^

 

[Freakazette]

Take it easy darling. I'm doing my attempt tomorrow if everything went as planned and was left alone, maybe this will give you the power you need to go with it. As for now don't pressure yourself any further, the whole goal of this method is that it's supposed to be peaceful, if your feeling sick please have something to eat and rest your body. Sending you all the love ^^

Well, you shouldn't sat before SN, right?

 

[Snow Queen]

Well, you shouldn't sat before SN, right?

i didn't quite understand what you mean ^^

 

[ClairyFairy]

Eat?

 

[Snow Queen]

Eat?

Ooh i meant she should take it easy meaning to delay the attempt to another day as she's clearly not feeling good ^^

 

[LCS8555]

where are you from ?

 

[ErzsebetBATHORY]

Oi my sweet. I wish you well. I never got to know you in life but I am a paranormal investigator. I will try to talk with you thru my devices. I pray you find peace darlin

 

[Freakazette]

Well, you shouldn't sat before SN, right?

Eat *, sorry