
deadinsideforever
Member
- Mar 31, 2021
- 30
I just feel like I can't go on, I had a few days where ctb wasn't the first thought of the day. I've had olanzapine teva added to my other meds, was starting to think I could wait to ctb until my son graduates uni next year but the urge to do it sooner is really strong. I feel like it could just be something I do on the spur of the moment. I just feel so hopeless.