Help Time's running out my arms will be crippled soon!

[Catch-22]

I have my SN and Metro and Klonopin. I'm only going to have maybe one chance alone for about 2 hours and I'm going to have to do my best it's just nothing lines up because I have ulcers in my stomach pain medication whatever but this is probably going to be my last chance before I'm hauled off to some weird place when I'm slapped in a diaper.


All because my doctor didn't feel like getting around to referrals. Okay so my plan would be to transfer SN to maybe a ziplock a week before because that will get half of the anxiety out of the way I have a lot of anxiety over transferring it from the vacuum sealed plastic bag into Maybe some Ziplocs and just like triple bagging


. I almost put it in bottles but that would have left a lot of air. It's hard for me to communicate now this affects my central nervous system like I wasn't sick enough in 2019 when I joined because I was but I literally gave every chance and beyond to try to survive but I guess life was telling me I should have f****** left many years ago because all this happened to you is bad s*** one thing after another like a curse you can't shake


. Anyway any opinions about transferring it a week or two before to the Ziplock bags and maybe like triple bagging it to have it pre-done pre-measured then I can added to the water take a few benzos before drink and hopefully leave this s*** hole of a world. I mean at least that's my experience!


I wish I could have partaked more in this community but I've got like one brain cell left and only micro movements with my forearms. So maybe a few hours in the middle of July if my mom goes and gets her hair done that might be my last chance I don't want to live in a home for the rest of my days because I know I'll be abused. I'm so afraid though I'm not being forgiven or something and just having to pay on the other side because I'm so cursed here I'm just afraid it's going to transfer to the other side I am I wish that I had to believe for that just nothing existed or that somehow I would be taken care of because I'm not a bad person but I don't know anymore. Anyway any suggestions I would appreciate because of times approaching pretty quickly and I can't make a mistake I cannot afford to be put away one way or the other and if they end up sticking me in the hospital can somebody finds my SN then I'll be screwed

I hope I explained it well enough. I hope everyone is doing their best. Hugs PS sorry the punctuation is not perfect I really did the best I could

 

[CarbonBased]

It sucks that you have to go at such length and take on this risk just to be able to exercise freedom over your own life. Clearly you know much more than I do, so I have no advice for you, unfortunately. Still, I wish you all the best. You deserve not to suffer

 

[SASU-KE]

Your situation is extremely unfortunate. You've been suffering for seven years now.These are the worst situations that can happen to anyone. I'm so sorry that you've been cornered like this.

I wish you peace.

 

[DeadManLiving]

Suffering for seven years dammm

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

how old is ur SN?

if ur worried about there being something after Death there isn't anything and can't be

it's horrible so many people are suffering like u. and this evil world criminalized every painless way out of this nightmare like Nembutal , hiring someone to assist in suicide etc

can you say what caused all those horrible physical problems, like what disease ?

 

[turned_to_one]

mention your doctor in a note before you ctb. maybe he'll have to decency to retire and not put anyone else in the same position as you