I just believe death to be non-existence which is all I'll hope for, I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence I always saw as the most dreadful tragic mistake and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to permanently cease existing, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally forgotten about and I'd always prefer to forget about this existence no matter what, I'd just never wish for any of this. Non-existence is all that's desirable and positive for me and I'd be relieved to never suffer ever again, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age, to me existence really is an abomination, permanent non-existence where finally I can be at peace really is all I could wish for.