for me no . because something else extremely horrible could trap me , a stroke, homelessness, cancer, some constant pain like itching or tinutus , burn in fire but remain alive with no skin , car accident and brain damage or paralysis, kidnapping torture, unjust prison, tapeworm other parasites, disabling painful diseases, trapped in a mental hospital or nursing home, many more nightmares. then old age would torture me anyway. but imo these and other hells could happen to any a human or other animal with a brain.
but i know nothing is going to change or get fixed for me anyway. and i'm still going to get old as all will. the only thing that will fix my horrible problem threat , and other problems and any potential hells is my suicide asap.
i don't get how many others want to live with the very many horrible things that can happen and the fact that pain is a billion times worse than one can imagine or remember.
Eternal Non-Existence is the only guarantee of never suffering pain and a hell that is a trillion times worse than one can imagine. yes I would also like to solve all my problems at once and forever and be safe from the worst pain the most extreme torture forever. i know after my brain dies i will cease to exist and never exist again. why not do what is best for me asap? why risk extreme torture? why go into extreme torture?
Permanent Non-Existence means no suffering, no pain , no problems no bad memories ever. how else to get rid of all bad memories?
and i say Permanent and Eternal Non-Existence because there wont be a period of Non-Existence then you are brought to life again . no that only happened once and only my brain creates a self model but one that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain.
174,000 humans die every day. i'm not special.
30 to 100 qaudrillion animals with a brain die each day and most of those dyings are painful and horrible. this has gone on for 520 millon years every day. i don't see a difference between me and other animals as we are made up of the same cells eukaryotic cells. so i'd have to believe 50 quadrillion animals are suffering then their souls are going somewhere after Death? plus the even simpler like the single celled have really the same cells as do bacteria etc. do all have souls or only apes and humans how why . what's this mechanism for an afterlife. that's just a few reasons i know there is no afterlife no evidence no logic and not even any details etc.
i would never want to consciously do anything nor want anything in this evil life and evil prison world
it's the pleasure addictions which have caused me the greatest catastrophes by distracting me , keeping me from reality and stealing all my time and more reasons. why would i want to partake in the evil that caused me the worst things ever? never.
on top of all this why would i want to continue to be a slave to my body brain DNA and this society etc? why?
the worst pain and the most horrible things outweigh the pleasure addictions by a billion times anyway
nothing is worth even 1 second of the worst pain to me . much less 3 seconds of 10 seconds or 60 seconds.
why would i want to risk falling into a hell a trillion times worse than anyone can imagine why because it's easy to "enjoy" some crap food or to "enjoy" watching a clickbait video.
for these and a book more of reasons to me Non-Existence Forever is the only perfection the ultimate bliss
I visualize Eternal Non-Existence as the best most beautiful thing by a septillion times .
