Those who have hung themselves (full/partial) but didnt succeed, what was it like?

[heyismeman]

Obv i understand that if it didn't succeed it wasn't the full experience, but how was the pain/discomfort like? What made it fail etc. Thank you in advance
in theory if someone got to the point where they passed out but then something like the rope broke etc would serve as very good reference.

 

[GuppyBoyo]

Obv i understand that if it didn't succeed it wasn't the full experience, but how was the pain/discomfort like? What made it fail etc. Thank you in advance

well with full hanging it hurts so much that i just ended up climbing back up on the rope, i have the shoulder mobility and strength to do it
i don't have the space to do drop hanging (and i don't wanna experience a broken neck tbh)
with partial hanging my unconscious body has managed to stand up again, loosening the noose enough to get me conscious again.
my neck hurt for weeks afterwards, and i still have the same headache i got afterwards to this day, 3 years after

don't recommend 2/10

 

[heyismeman]

well with full hanging it hurts so much that i just ended up climbing back up on the rope, i have the shoulder mobility and strength to do it
i don't have the space to do drop hanging (and i don't wanna experience a broken neck tbh)
with partial hanging my unconscious body has managed to stand up again, loosening the noose enough to get me conscious again.
my neck hurt for weeks afterwards, and i still have the same headache i got afterwards to this day, 3 years after

don't recommend 2/10

How painful exactly for full? And I was under the impression once you go full it's pretty much impossible to get out?

 

[UninformedLover]

A very long time ago when I was a teenager I attempted full hanging and it was the most painful thing I've ever experienced. My eyes felt like they were going to burst out of my head and my head felt as if it was going to explode. And my throat hurt so bad.

My SI overcame me pretty quickly and I managed to untie the rope. It was just so scary.

 

[AreWeWinning]

well with full hanging it hurts so much that i just ended up climbing back up on the rope, i have the shoulder mobility and strength to do it
i don't have the space to do drop hanging (and i don't wanna experience a broken neck tbh)

If you use a rope that is, lets's say, somewhere between 10-20 mm in diameter, and a noose that is self-tightening and closes tight immediately, and you fully commit by kicking your support away, then how is that even possible?

 

[Chr0nicAnhedonic]

Partial. I used a steel rod in my bathroom as an anchor point; made sure the rope was around my neck constricting my carotid arteries, got on my knees and leaned forward. Turns out, that's not really the best way to do it. As soon as I felt my consciousness fading, my body jolted back out of the position I needed to be in. I tried leaning forward again a couple more times, same thing. Gave up afterwards.

I don't think I experienced any pain, but then again I don't think I was there long enough to where I would have.

 

[Lo$t95]

If you use a rope that is, lets's say, somewhere between 10-20 mm in diameter, and a noose that is self-tightening and closes tight immediately, and you fully commit by kicking your support away, then how is that even possible?

Even if it hurts it's like 10-20 seconds until you lose consciousness with full suspension. Of course there will be pain but if life is longer then fuck it…. Like so what if suicide isn't a pleasant experience - you are killing yourself. It is what it is. This it hurts so I backed out etc isn't it. Tiring.

 

[heyismeman]

Even if it hurts it's like 10-20 seconds until you lose consciousness with full suspension. Of course there will be pain but if life is longer then fuck it…. Like so what if suicide isn't a pleasant experience - you are killing yourself. It is what it is. This it hurts so I backed out etc isn't it. Tiring.

Yea pain hurts tho bro, if it's truly like everyone says I'm sure every second feels like hours

 

[Lo$t95]

Yea pain hurts tho bro, if it's truly like everyone says I'm sure every second feels like hours

Learn to enjoy it. I know that's hard for people who don't cut themselves but it is what it is. I am more concerned about guilt than pain tbh. Everyone got their own problems ig.

 

[heyismeman]

Learn to enjoy it. I know that's hard for people who don't cut themselves but it is what it is. I am more concerned about guilt than pain tbh. Everyone got their own problems ig.

Oh trust me man, guilt dwarfs my fear of pain 100 times over

 

[Lo$t95]

Oh trust me man, guilt dwarfs my fear of pain 100 times over

What makes you feel guilt can I ask?

 

[heyismeman]

What makes you feel guilt can I ask?

What will happen to my family after, I have a very very loving family that I think if I kms it would probably destroy them

 

[Lo$t95]

What will happen to my family after, I have a very very loving family that I think if I kms it would probably destroy them

Yeah fair enough. Thanks

 

[heyismeman]

Yeah fair enough. Thanks

What about you? What's the guilt about

 

[needwaytohell]

I honestly cried a lot it was 17 when I tried it. It genuinely felt like what am I even doing at life. It stopped me to take extreme steps like jumping from a building and made me plan more often in life. After 5 years after the incident I'm here.

 

[Lo$t95]

What about you? What's the guilt about

Fair that you ask me I will tell you honestly because fuck it I will be dead soon enough.

Being adopted broke me. Never recovered. Found out when I was 12 from social media / unexpected. I always suspected but still somewhat surprised it hit like a brick wall. The person who brought me into this world looked at me as a baby and decided to give me away. ~ fuck this world and everything in it.

Since then a life full of degeneracy / hedonism / hate. I got lucky with Bitcoin and it never hit me as feeling lucky or successful. I just hate this world so much it's fucking unreal.

There's a certain reality to the world we live in that you are either aware of or not… maybe it benefits you in the short-term or not. Either way for me ~ I hate it.

Leaving 95% of my net worth to animal charities and I am hanging myself. Sick of trying to overwrite the fact I am asexual - doesn't work. Sick of pretending to be as brainwashed as everyone else. Sick of living.

I feel guilt because I had potential and if I was not adopted I could have taken care of my family and made them rich and happy one way or another. But honestly that guilt is mixed with hatred because I suffered a lot growing up.

Hope that makes sense.

 

[heyismeman]

Fair that you ask me I will tell you honestly because fuck it I will be dead soon enough.

Being adopted broke me. Never recovered. Found out when I was 12 from social media / unexpected. I always suspected but still somewhat surprised it hit like a brick wall. The person who brought me into this world looked at me as a baby and decided to give me away. ~ fuck this world and everything in it.

Since then a life full of degeneracy / hedonism / hate. I got lucky with Bitcoin and it never hit me as feeling lucky or successful. I just hate this world so much it's fucking unreal.

There's a certain reality to the world we live in that you are either aware of or not… maybe it benefits you in the short-term or not. Either way for me ~ I hate it.

Leaving 95% of my net worth to animal charities and I am hanging myself. Sick of trying to overwrite the fact I am asexual - doesn't work. Sick of pretending to be as brainwashed as everyone else. Sick of living.

I feel guilt because I had potential and if I was not adopted I could have taken care of my family and made them rich and happy one way or another. But honestly that guilt is mixed with hatred because I suffered a lot growing up.

Hope that makes sense.

Yea I understand all that, for me it's debt and shame, I suppose it is what it is, in time we won't be here. Reality sucks.

 

[Lo$t95]

Yea I understand all that, for me it's debt and shame, I suppose it is what it is, in time we won't be here. Reality sucks.

Reality does suck. So why does hanging yourself suck more than living? For me it doesn't - compared to living as a tax slave NPC rodent for people who want to genocide you anyways ~ fuck it. I want to be able to look my ancestors in the eyes and say I tried but it is what it is.

 

[CentreMid]

Obv i understand that if it didn't succeed it wasn't the full experience, but how was the pain/discomfort like? What made it fail etc. Thank you in advance
in theory if someone got to the point where they passed out but then something like the rope broke etc would serve as very good reference.

Partial. Leather belt. Felt like I was falling asleep during the attempt, was very nice, actually. Hearing started to go, but I didn't care. Felt everything starting to go numb.

Felt very, very disoriented and dizzy upon failure. Had to sit on the floor for a while after just to reorient myself. Hearing came back pretty quickly. Brain was super foggy the following day.

Sorry for for the shortened/clipped sentences. Not in a headspace where I can think too clearly right now.

 

[Forveleth]

Partial... made sure the rope was around my neck constricting my carotid arteries, got on my knees and leaned forward... As soon as I felt my consciousness fading, my body jolted back out of the position I needed to be in. I tried leaning forward again a couple more times, same thing. Gave up afterwards.

This is what happened to me. It was like nodding off (falling asleep) and you do that thing where you jerk and wake yourself up. I also gave up after a few tries as I was getting annoyed (can you rage quit a suicide attempt? )

I did not have any pain at all, just tingling all over and dizziness before everything went black. I am thinking of trying again but doing this on a stool so that when I pass out I will fall off and be fulling hanging (but already unconscious).

 

[JesiBel]

It's just common sense; you're supposed to feel pain in the few seconds you're conscious. It's your neck supporting your full weight as the rope tightens to its maximum.

It's not a problem of the method but of each person's ability to endure the discomfort long enough until you become unconscious. Then it's just a matter of time (without anyone interrupting you or the rope/anchor point breaking) to achieve it.

There are videos of young girls on WPD who have made it. So.. if you're determined.. there's no turning back.

 

[Worndown]

A good rope will help with comfort. Something smooth and about 1/2 inch diameter will apply sufficuent pressure but will not be as taxing on your skin. Use what you can get, but a little planning can get you good equipment.

 

[xXSufferingXx]

A very long time ago when I was a teenager I attempted full hanging and it was the most painful thing I've ever experienced. My eyes felt like they were going to burst out of my head and my head felt as if it was going to explode. And my throat hurt so bad.

My SI overcame me pretty quickly and I managed to untie the rope. It was just so scary.

this is exactly my biggest fear regarding hanging- the eye popping out thing, or at least that it feels like it.
i've heard that before

 

[GuppyBoyo]

How painful exactly for full? And I was under the impression once you go full it's pretty much impossible to get out?

it really hurts, if feels like your head is gonna explode
and some of us have the shoulder mobility and strength to pull ourselves up the noose

If you use a rope that is, lets's say, somewhere between 10-20 mm in diameter, and a noose that is self-tightening and closes tight immediately, and you fully commit by kicking your support away, then how is that even possible?

because you can still pull yourself up when it starts hurting too much, i know i can

 

[AreWeWinning]

because you can still pull yourself up when it starts hurting too much, i know i can

Maybe you can. I have my doubts, but it's not impossible. But how many people can do that in general? One in a hundred? One in a thousand? It's like elite athlete performance. If you tell an average person to pull themselves up on a piece of rope just by the sheer strength of their arms and hands, without using their legs or any other support, it's a pretty impossible task. It's not typical at all. You don't see examples of this happening, almost ever. In fact, you're the only person I have seen so far who claims they managed to do this. It's usually either the anchor point braking, or there is something people manage to stand back on.

If you really want to be helpful, and make this a learning opportunity for others, you could also include some other details about your setup as you weren't too specific. You haven't mentioned what kind of rope and what knots you were using. Also, was it really full suspension? Was there nothing beneath you and was your foot not touching the ground? Was there nothing else around that you grabbed? Did you not grab the noose and put your hands between your neck and the noose when you stepped off?

Nothing is 100%. People even survive gunshots to the head if the bullet goes through the right way, or high falls in rare instances. But these are still very-very rare. And full suspension hanging's lethality rate is still among the highest. In the top 3 or so. Regarding pain, experiences vary too.