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heavysoul

don’t want to die, don’t want to live
Feb 5, 2025
50
Ok, I've had a rollercoaster today, and for the past while. I've known I wanted to ctb but I didn't know if everything would come together or when. But it looks like tonight is the night? I'm doing SN, I've been fasting for about 6 hours now, so very soon it's go time.

I guess I want to say thank you to this forum. I was ambivalent on my feelings about this forum's effects at first but I think it's essentially harm reduction for those who are suicidal. So yeah, thank you to everyone who's compiled resource threads, shared their experiences, showed compassion, and generally left a positive impact on here.

I may leave updates in the replies, maybe not. But damn, let's hope this shit works and see yall on the other side.
 
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jordan6243

Member
Sep 9, 2023
12
Good luck in your choice heavy soul. As your name implies it's a tough time you're going through. I understand how you're feeling and hope you find relief.
 
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Halfhourdays

Halfhourdays

"Everything was beautiful and nothing hurt."
Mar 14, 2025
621
This feels hasty.
 
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BeijaFlor

Dreamer
Oct 17, 2024
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i'll meet you at the curtain call...
 
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LonelyMe

Member
Mar 8, 2025
38
I wish you the best :heart: We will be here for you if you change your mind.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,962
I hope you find peace, I wish you the best.
 
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deleteduser853695

I swear I tried my best
Feb 26, 2024
119
I hope your exit is painless and quick. May you find peace and an end to your suffering. I wish you all the best. Goodbye.
 
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