WanderingGypsy
Member
- Jan 14, 2025
- 27
I am so unhappy and hopeless and getting closer and closer to the time I plan to ctb. I am finding it harder and harder to find things that bring me any joy in life, and I feel like all I have is pain. My birthday is tomorrow and I don't have any plans, friends haven't really offered and those who have I have declined. I have never felt special and birthdays are just another reminder of that. On top of all the "regular" awfulness, I've applied for a job that I am more than qualified for-in fact I use to have this job several years ago-but doubt I'm going to get it because I don't have the proper license. The organization has changed it policies and now requires a stupid license so they can charge people. I hate the system that it has become and despite my 20+ years of experience in the field, I may not get the job because I don't have the right letters behind my name. I'm so tired of society placing too much on money and making money. I'm done playing the games of what makes you a good person and worthy of society's help and attention. I'm so over all this! I want to be done!
I know so many people understand this and many have it even worse, but I'm done and just needed to vent. I'm sure others understand. But I want to be done.
I know so many people understand this and many have it even worse, but I'm done and just needed to vent. I'm sure others understand. But I want to be done.
