M19R
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- Aug 12, 2024
- 57
Since my last post things have gotten even worse. I didn't go through with it after my birthday because im a stupid fucking coward and now things are only getting worse.
Now my best friends girlfriend is coming between us, she clearly hates me for being close to her. Has a problem with me being around too much while they're hanging out even though i live here too. She doesn't live here and doesn't acknowledge how much in try to do to make her comfortable when she's over. I dont know if she doesn't see it or doesn't care.
My ex is still over a lot and things are still difficult there. We all love her andbi would never take away the people i know are some of the first real friends she's ever had. She doesn't deserve that. But it fucking hurts, it hurts so bad, especially because woth the kind of relationship everyone had i know her and the girls are having sex. I dont hold that against her either, itb was a thing that happened and i was included in even during the relationship (everyone knew about this and talked through boundaries and everything, no cheating involved), she shouldn't have to change her relationship with other people because shes not with me anymore.
Today though, hit me especially badly. The roommate that is also my manager warned us that shes looking into finding a place with one of her partners. This would include both her moving out and potentially leaving her job entirely or the store i work at. Of course there isn't a timeframe on this either. Two of my other roommates have been laid off (effective for one in a week and the other november 8th). Right now if things go to shit im the last one with a job. If that roommate leaves the store any other general manager will probably fire me for my disability. We've discussed how thats likely to happen.
How do i keep going when things keep getting worse? Whats the best way to end things if i cant? I have a couple pretty severe allergies, could anaphylaxis work or is it too easily treated?
Now my best friends girlfriend is coming between us, she clearly hates me for being close to her. Has a problem with me being around too much while they're hanging out even though i live here too. She doesn't live here and doesn't acknowledge how much in try to do to make her comfortable when she's over. I dont know if she doesn't see it or doesn't care.
My ex is still over a lot and things are still difficult there. We all love her andbi would never take away the people i know are some of the first real friends she's ever had. She doesn't deserve that. But it fucking hurts, it hurts so bad, especially because woth the kind of relationship everyone had i know her and the girls are having sex. I dont hold that against her either, itb was a thing that happened and i was included in even during the relationship (everyone knew about this and talked through boundaries and everything, no cheating involved), she shouldn't have to change her relationship with other people because shes not with me anymore.
Today though, hit me especially badly. The roommate that is also my manager warned us that shes looking into finding a place with one of her partners. This would include both her moving out and potentially leaving her job entirely or the store i work at. Of course there isn't a timeframe on this either. Two of my other roommates have been laid off (effective for one in a week and the other november 8th). Right now if things go to shit im the last one with a job. If that roommate leaves the store any other general manager will probably fire me for my disability. We've discussed how thats likely to happen.
How do i keep going when things keep getting worse? Whats the best way to end things if i cant? I have a couple pretty severe allergies, could anaphylaxis work or is it too easily treated?
