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dying_kwik2000

dying_kwik2000

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Nov 1, 2025
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Please bare with me because I drank so I'm a little out of it.

Literally minutes ago I tried to ctb with pills. I drank so wine and then a little vodka and I took some pills from the cabinet.

Desperate and crying, I shove a few into my mouth straight from the bottle. Except, as soon as two pills touch my tongue, I begin to gag.

I run to the bathroom, ready to vomit the little wine that was left undigested.

I try again. I'm committed.

Only to find myself on the verge of vomiting as I near the medicine pantry. The literal thought of stuffing myself up with pills causes me to gag.

Pretty funny. Or at least, I'm surprised. I've forgotten that I've overdosed on pills quite a few times to the point my body knows when I'm doing something dangerous to it.

I even tried to let a paracetamol sit on my tongue only for me to gag.

Maybe this is normal.
 
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JassieDusk

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You're living the dream of the 16 year old bulimic me in 2022
 

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