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purebliss

purebliss

"Just be happy" =)
Mar 3, 2026
459
Not so great news.
I passed out too quickly.
The ketamine especially was extremely intense

I was so disoriented when I woke up but pretty well rested.
My manic episode is currently silent, which is nice but I feel so miserable that I didn't manage to break through.

I apparently managed to crush the tablets and all but not to put it in the drink and drink it -_-
The ket really did blow my brain away to a wonderful degree but apparently too much to handle :')
So yeah... May or may not try again today
 
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herecomesthepain

herecomesthepain

Member
Apr 11, 2025
26
Not a viable option, as most of us don't have access to these drugs.
 
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purebliss

purebliss

"Just be happy" =)
Mar 3, 2026
459
Not a viable option, as most of us don't have access to these drugs.
Very viable as they are incredibly easy to acquire in almost any country ^^

Especially EU and US

Please read the comment thread.
 
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gardenhouse

Specialist
Mar 26, 2026
391
I will cbt this way too, just a matter of time, thanks for the info though
 
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gardenhouse

Specialist
Mar 26, 2026
391
Not so great news.
I passed out too quickly.
The ketamine especially was extremely intense

I was so disoriented when I woke up but pretty well rested.
My manic episode is currently silent, which is nice but I feel so miserable that I didn't manage to break through.

I apparently managed to crush the tablets and all but not to put it in the drink and drink it -_-
The ket really did blow my brain away to a wonderful degree but apparently too much to handle :')
So yeah... May or may not try again today

If you are still around, where do you plan to do this? At home?

If not all best wishes for you
 
NeilJosten

NeilJosten

Member
Apr 21, 2026
5
It is absolutely incredibly easy

as said. Go to tor.taxi and go to DrugHub there.
Every market on tor.taxi is valid
is it good quality though? I heard everything is stuffed with fentanyl and laundry detergents. I wanted to try it recreational you know
 
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gardenhouse

Specialist
Mar 26, 2026
391
is it good quality though? I heard everything is stuffed with fentanyl and laundry detergents. I wanted to try it recreational you know
If everything is laced fentanyl is even better for those who really want to cbt
 
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Ultimatefighter

Member
Jun 6, 2026
9
Can i order from this dh place if im living in the netherlands and not need to worry about getting police checks?
 
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gardenhouse

Specialist
Mar 26, 2026
391
Can i order from this dh place if im living in the netherlands and not need to worry about getting police checks?
I thought Netherlands was the heaven for drugs, i wish i lived in Netherlands than in this tiny island New zealand.

There are a lot of drugs on the required list available on dh
 
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Ultimatefighter

Member
Jun 6, 2026
9
I thought Netherlands was the heaven for drugs, i wish i lived in Netherlands than in this tiny island New zealand.

There are a lot of drugs on the required list available on dh
Yes it supposed to be but i'm new to all this, and ordering any medics in netherlands on normal websites you need prescribtion from doctors. Im willing to learn and i will try tomorrow download this tor webbrowser and look on there. I was just wondering if DH was restricted for germany or another country and i can get it here safely since im very likely to want to try "the heat ledger" methods since it sounds like the most painless one
 
WhyMe123

WhyMe123

Over it
May 22, 2026
84
You tried the SN method too? What happened?

Also thanks for sharing this new method & all the effort you put into researching, organizing & posting it…
 
jazpers

jazpers

Isopod
May 21, 2026
6
Doesnt Doxylamine cauae delirium at higher doses? wouldnt this cocktail potentiate that
 
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gardenhouse

Specialist
Mar 26, 2026
391
Holy hell.
How did I miss this


This is absolutely impressive.

Grapefruit juice increased the mean area under the oxycodone concentration-time curve (AUC(0-∞) ) by 1.7-fold (p<0.001), the peak plasma concentration by 1.5-fold (p<0.001) and the half-life of oxycodone by 1.2-fold (p<0.001) as compared to the water[...]

Jesus christ. Up to 1.7 fold the increase.
Will definitely put in the method!
Thank you for your input!:heart:
People like you reduce needless suffering <3
I actually wonder, if grape fruit juice increase the level of opioid in your bloodstream, why not crush all the pills and dilute with grape fruit juice? Isn't it better?
 
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deathisapanacea

Experienced
Mar 10, 2025
202
Not so great news.
I passed out too quickly.
The ketamine especially was extremely intense

I was so disoriented when I woke up but pretty well rested.
My manic episode is currently silent, which is nice but I feel so miserable that I didn't manage to break through.

I apparently managed to crush the tablets and all but not to put it in the drink and drink it -_-
The ket really did blow my brain away to a wonderful degree but apparently too much to handle :')
So yeah... May or may not try again today
A big blow to people who were warming up to this method. But the silver lining is that you are still around to help us perfect this method. Better luck next time. Hope you dont fail. 🤞
A big blow to people who were warming up to this method. But the silver lining is that you are still around to help us perfect this method. Better luck next time. Hope you dont fail. 🤞
On a completely different note, how do people like you who have so much drive in life, are still suicidal. Ever since depression and suicidal thoughts hit me, Ive been less alive than a log of wood.
 
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