The thoughts were always there.

[SiriusMan]

I started having suicidal thoughts around the time I started taking painkillers. I noticed the correlation and stopped taking the pills not only because they didn't work but to get rid of the thoughts.
But after realizing that the thoughts still lingered after I stopped, I realised that they were real.
The thoughts started because I had time to think about my life, what I endured, and what I have left, which is nothing.
A man left alone with his thoughts is the most dangerous man alive.
I wake up to notifications about the weather, and... is that all there is to life?
What have I done in life to get this much bad karma? I've never thought that life would turn out this way, seems like every week I get deeper and deeper into the abyss.

 

[crystalcastles]

I can relate to this. After I took a break from life activities, I figured out I was always broken. I just used life activities as a "shield" to protect me from those thoughts.

 

[tonicer]

I was suicidal before i was even born. I had the umbilical cord wrapped around my neck multiple times. When i had a job i wasn't thinking about many things except my work and before that the studies but now out of work and with lots of time i think about why i even live and i come to no conclusion as to why. So i am going to end it after my parents die. Unless a miracle happens and i get hired again or a lady falls in love with me.

 

[SiriusMan]

I was suicidal before i was even born. I had the umbilical cord wrapped around my neck multiple times. When i had a job i wasn't thinking about many things except my work and before that the studies but now out of work and with lots of time i think about why i even live and i come to no conclusion as to why. So i am going to end it after my parents die. Unless a miracle happens and i get hired again or a lady falls in love with me.

Destiny written is stone