Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
1,771
I don't get the munchies. I started resisting that urge a long time ago because it sobers me up faster and felt like a waste.

I just haven't felt like sleeping either. Too much on my mind.

I admire your strength. Every time I smoke weed I practically teleport to the fridge!
 
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kohaku

kohaku

Nonbinary Hysteric
Mar 27, 2019
188
Howdy.

Not taking my Ritalin on the weekend to avoid tolerance. I'm so damn tired.

Vibing and watching Soul Eater. I'm on episode 9 right now. Kinda frustrated when a villainous character comes back under a different identity on the good side and no one notices. Like, wouldn't you recognize their face?! SHE EVEN HAS THE SAME HAIR!!!
 
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MindFrog

MindFrog

:Professional Hypocrite:
Nov 19, 2020
723
I got quite drunk today. We had a family gathering earlier so i took a few sips of wine. It's funny how alcohol makes you feel odd but in a good way. Tensions broke down, me and my relatives had a good time. I wish it's always like this. It's just sad the buzz is over.
 
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Deleted member 23374

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Nov 1, 2020
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Hi, anyone good with Latin here ? Google translate isn't helpful.
 
ecmnesia

ecmnesia

the only thing humans are equal in is death
Aug 30, 2020
767
literally just feeling like ctb sooner than planned in order to avoid new semester college classes.

why cant I just quit this shit?
 
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Burned out

Member
Sep 22, 2018
83
Saw a song titled "Help I'm alive" and honestly interpreted it as intending to convey being alive as a problem. I thought this for a long time but just now realized it's probably the "help so I stay alive" kind of request. And here I thought it was implying life is a conundrum.
 
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sadworld

sadworld

existence is a nightmare
Aug 25, 2020
3,870
Good morning everyone. :)
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
I'm doing just fine, what about you :)
Not too bad I suppose. I had 3 days off but they went way too fast. Hopefully work isn't a shitshow today.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
All this drama on SS lately. Luckily it feels like we're past the peak of it for now.
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
9,372
All this drama on SS lately. Luckily it feels like we're past the peak of it for now.

I wasn't here for it. I haven't been on as much lately. Other than the music thread and a few others. This is the first I've posted in here for a while.
I haven't had as much time I guess. It's also been harder seeing people go. I know it doesn't make sense cuz it's what I want also.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
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I wasn't here for it. I haven't been on as much lately. Other than the music thread and a few others. This is the first I've posted in here for a while.
I haven't had as much time I guess. It's also been harder seeing people go. I know it doesn't make sense cuz it's what I want also.
I've kinda taken a back seat for the past week a bit. Alot of loss and toxic drama like I mentioned.

It does make sense tho because even tho we all want to go, It's still hard to lose someone close.
 
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ecmnesia

ecmnesia

the only thing humans are equal in is death
Aug 30, 2020
767
realized yesterday that i probably still have dreams, it's just that i don't want to live or work to achieve them.

don't know what to think about it. feel like a weirdo.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
Had to say goodbye to someone who means alot to me today. There wasn't any reciprocation in our relationship anymore. I can't and won't carry the whole thing on my own.

Its been one of those kinda days for sure.
 
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sadworld

sadworld

existence is a nightmare
Aug 25, 2020
3,870
Had to say goodbye to someone who means alot to me today. There wasn't any reciprocation in our relationship anymore. I can't and won't carry the whole thing on my own.

Its been one of those kinda days for sure.
Hugs to you Brick!! :hug: :hug: :heart:
 
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ovaltinee99

Student
Nov 9, 2020
109
Sometimes I wish there were recreational drugs I could do a couple times a week. I'm now more and more at peace with the idea of ctb, but it's not something I feel the urgency to do, so I will probably stick around for a couple more years. But now that I don't care about the long term, I'm thinking of ways I could make the remainder of my life a little pleasurable.

I've tried some drugs in my life, but never abused anything. Coke and benzos barely make me feel happy. Psychedelics, I can only do a couple times a month at most and they aren't really chill. Weed, I hate the feeling of being stoned. Pills, I really love but can't do because of SSRIs. I really wish I could do opioids, but I still dream of going by Fentanyl and don't want to develop any tolerance at all. I really wish there was some sort of pills (MDMA) I could take a couple of times a week that would make me feel mildly high and chill, just so I could have something pleasurable to look forward to in my life.
 
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Dizzylady80

Dizzylady80

Experienced
Nov 5, 2020
227
Sometimes I wish there were recreational drugs I could do a couple times a week. I'm now more and more at peace with the idea of ctb, but it's not something I feel the urgency to do, so I will probably stick around for a couple more years. But now that I don't care about the long term, I'm thinking of ways I could make the remainder of my life a little pleasurable.

I've tried some drugs in my life, but never abused anything. Coke and benzos barely make me feel happy. Psychedelics, I can only do a couple times a month at most and they aren't really chill. Weed, I hate the feeling of being stoned. Pills, I really love but can't do because of SSRIs. I really wish I could do opioids, but I still dream of going by Fentanyl and don't want to develop any tolerance at all. I really wish there was some sort of pills (MDMA) I could take a couple of times a week that would make me feel mildly high and chill, just so I could have something pleasurable to look forward to in my life.
Most pills don't interact with ssris, just MDMA. Have you tried microdosing psychedelics instead of tripping on them? I've heard good things about that. And if you wanna do opiates you could try something less intense than fent, like vicodin or codeine. I'd definitely recommend trying microdosing psychs over opiates though because it's not likely you'll get addicted to those
 
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hoping to lose hope

hoping to lose hope

<3 Message me to trade music <3
Nov 14, 2020
849
Does anyone else know like literally 2 seconds into a song that they will like it???
Search for hours listening to songs in total as you know you may love it or find a hidden gem and then omg you just hear 2 seconds and know you found your tune.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
Happy Thanksgiving SS! I'm most thankful for this community.
 
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sadworld

sadworld

existence is a nightmare
Aug 25, 2020
3,870
Good morning lounge! It's friday, the end of the week! I hope everyone has a great day! :heart: :hug:
 
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hoping to lose hope

hoping to lose hope

<3 Message me to trade music <3
Nov 14, 2020
849
Looked in the mirror glad I had slender figure and now I am laying in bed eating some nuts feeling fat.
What are you guys and gurls up ta?
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
Good morning lounge! It's friday, the end of the week! I hope everyone has a great day! :heart: :hug:
Thank you for the well wishes Sadworld! I hope you had a good day as well.

Looked in the mirror glad I had slender figure and now I am laying in bed eating some nuts feeling fat.
What are you guys and gurls up ta?
Nothing as exciting as that. Just sitting at work and scrolling through SS.
 
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sadworld

sadworld

existence is a nightmare
Aug 25, 2020
3,870
Thank you for the well wishes Sadworld! I hope you had a good day as well.
Thank you, my day was decent.
Nothing as exciting as that. Just sitting at work and scrolling through SS.
I used to do that too. The last time I was at work was like a month ago, my anxiety is really strong and I almost hurt myself because I was about to pass out...
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
Thank you, my day was decent.

I used to do that too. The last time I was at work was like a month ago, my anxiety is really strong and I almost hurt myself because I was about to pass out...
Did you get laid off because of Covid or something? I used to have social anxiety really bad growing up but I've gotten over it. Life has forced me to confront it.
 
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sadworld

sadworld

existence is a nightmare
Aug 25, 2020
3,870
Did you get laid off because of Covid or something? I used to have social anxiety really bad growing up but I've gotten over it. Life has forced me to confront it.
No not because of covid but because of my insane anxiety and depression... I mean, i could try to go again but I know that I wouldn't last for long or I'll ctb.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
No not because of covid but because of my insane anxiety and depression... I mean, i could try to go again but I know that I wouldn't last for long or I'll ctb.
Well you definitely shouldn't kill yourself over a job. Have you considered a less stressful form of employment? Or are you just taking a break to regroup a bit?
 
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sadworld

sadworld

existence is a nightmare
Aug 25, 2020
3,870
Well you definitely shouldn't kill yourself over a job. Have you considered a less stressful form of employment? Or are you just taking a break to regroup a bit?
Nah, I wouldn't just ctb because of my job, there are way more things that led me to the point I am right now. I just need a rest or I won't be able to go on for much longer.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
Nah, I wouldn't just ctb because of my job, there are way more things that led me to the point I am right now. I just need a rest or I won't be able to go on for much longer.
I didn't think you would over something as petty. But you wouldn't want it to be the final straw type thing either. Definitely take some rest and time to think things over some. You're smart enough to find a solution.
 
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