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[Deleted member 1465]

Okay, it's slow on here and i'm bored so I'm trolling fuckers on FB. Why not, huh? Such a vacuous waste of pointless self indulgent tripe. I think I might see how far i can push it before I get banned. I'm only saying what I actually feel anyway. I need to get this bitterness out somehow:/

 

[Squiddy]

Check out the food I ate on my latest food thread

 

[Viro_Major]

I spent my first 1000+ messages on the Suicide sub-forum, where I was shrinking and was kept the head under water by an army of invisible forces, then switched almost entirely on the Recovery/Off-topic subs. Nowadays, I feel astonished by the amount of love I'm filled with by the many friends.
I wish more people would lose their way between the 2 worlds cause it can be a transcendental move. Thank you all

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I spent my first 1000+ messages on the Suicide sub-forum, where I was shrinking and was kept the head under water by an army of invisible forces, then switched almost entirely on the Recovery/Off-topic subs. Nowadays, I feel astonished by the amount of love I'm filled with by the many friends.
I wish more people would lose their way between the 2 worlds cause it can be a transcendental move. Thank you all

I stick mostly to the recovery and off topic subs myself. I'll post occasionally in the suicide main forum but if I spend too much time there it starts wearing on me

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I stick mostly to the recovery and off topic subs myself. I'll post occasionally in the suicide main forum but if I spend too much time there it starts wearing on me

I guess I'm the opposite. Life outside of SS is what wears me down, so I'm almost always in the suicide discussion forum. It's kind of nice to visit the other ones and feel happy for other people when good things happen for them, so I post occasionally, but then it's back to suicide for me.

 

[Squiddy]

I guess I'm the opposite. Life outside of SS is what wears me down, so I'm almost always in the suicide discussion forum. It's kind of nice to visit the other ones and feel happy for other people when good things happen for them, so I post occasionally, but then it's back to suicide for me.

I spend time equally in all the forums

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I guess I'm the opposite. Life outside of SS is what wears me down, so I'm almost always in the suicide discussion forum. It's kind of nice to visit the other ones and feel happy for other people when good things happen for them, so I post occasionally, but then it's back to suicide for me.

I was like that too. But I think the amount of time I've been here is becoming a factor as well.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

This is my idea of fun, I'm sorry but, I can't help myself!



But eventually the fun wears off...

 

[Viro_Major]

Cheer up buddy ! Dust off your shine

this song just made me cry big time (rare these days). need to share it here and not elsewhere

 

[Squiddy]

Morning everyone

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I've never had anesthesia before so this'll be my first time. Do you know what kind they use for upper endoscopy?

I don't really know what kind they use for this procedure specifically. I haven't had an endoscopy before, so I don't know much about it, but I am assuming that it will be the same that is used for surgeries, so you should be asleep for it.

 

[Squiddy]

I don't really know what kind they use for this procedure specifically. I haven't had an endoscopy before, so I don't know much about it, but I am assuming that it will be the same that is used for surgeries, so you should be asleep for it.

I just hope they get to the bottom of what is making me throw up on and off

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I spent my first 1000+ messages on the Suicide sub-forum, where I was shrinking and was kept the head under water by an army of invisible forces, then switched almost entirely on the Recovery/Off-topic subs. Nowadays, I feel astonished by the amount of love I'm filled with by the many friends.
I wish more people would lose their way between the 2 worlds cause it can be a transcendental move. Thank you all

What Brick said. I stick to off topic and recovery now too. The main forum is too much for me.

I don't really know what kind they use for this procedure specifically. I haven't had an endoscopy before, so I don't know much about it, but I am assuming that it will be the same that is used for surgeries, so you should be asleep for it.

I wasn't offered anaesthesia, just sedation. Small amounts of Midazolam and Fentnyl. Was fun.

Edit: just popping in to say hello. Not feeling it recently.

 

[nerve]

The suicide forum is almost always peoples' first stop here to ask questions while they're in a really panicked and upset state, so it gets repetitive. They're obviously not there to entertain me or whatever, but I got bored responding to the same SN questions and misconceptions and wandered into off-topic without really noticing.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

So there was a gas explosion that took out a few buildings in my little city yesterday. One of my coworkers is convinced that it was a terrorist attack.

Now I love a good conspiracy theory, but that one is absolutely ridiculous. It didn't take long for the jokes to start making their way around the office

 

[Midnight-rain]

I've never had anesthesia before so this'll be my first time. Do you know what kind they use for upper endoscopy?

Unfortunately I don't know either, however I have had an upper endoscopy before and I knocked out immediately after they told me, "Okay, so we're going to put you to sleep..."
When I woke up I started laughing because I was amazed at how damn effective the anesthesia was. I hope your procedure goes as smoothly as mine did.

 

[Marchioness]

How do people manage the emptiness and loneliness, especially in the company of others?

I ask others about themselves so I don't have to talk about how lonely I am.

 

[no 4mat]

anyon3 else is so shy when in public? I mean I can fake being normal but seriously, hate being so shy...

it's actually one of the reason im dropping out university soon (major that requires social skills )

but you know what guys it is OK. I'm trying to relax and not pump my cortisol any further.. you should too relax always, we all know life's shit, why bother playing the rules.

 

[Squiddy]

Unfortunately I don't know either, however I have had an upper endoscopy before and I knocked out immediately after they told me, "Okay, so we're going to put you to sleep..."
When I woke up I started laughing because I was amazed at how damn effective the anesthesia was. I hope your procedure goes as smoothly as mine did.

Thanks. Hopefully I don't wake up during it

 

[Marchioness]

anyon3 else is so shy when in public? I mean I can fake being normal but seriously, hate being so shy...

it's actually one of the reason im dropping out university soon (major that requires social skills )

but you know what guys it is OK. I'm trying to relax and not pump my cortisol any further.. you should too relax always, we all know life's shit, why bother playing the rules.

I used to be because my parents were over protective. What helped me is to realize everyone has issues and nobody is above or below you.

 

[Deleted member 19654]

anyon3 else is so shy when in public? I mean I can fake being normal but seriously, hate being so shy...

it's actually one of the reason im dropping out university soon (major that requires social skills )

but you know what guys it is OK. I'm trying to relax and not pump my cortisol any further.. you should too relax always, we all know life's shit, why bother playing the rules.

I'm naturally shy too. It doesn't help that I have social anxiety too. I wish I knew how to fake being confident.

 

[Good4Nothing]

Am I invisible?

 

[MichaelNomad123]

I'm naturally shy too. It doesn't help that I have social anxiety too. I wish I knew how to fake being confident.

The best idea I ever had to work on this was to convince myself that it's okay to be embarrassed and that it's okay to look stupid. It's an ongoing process though. I'll be putting this new philosophy into action on Wednesday with a new job that I faked my way into with a false C.V. and references. I'm sure it will be a beautiful disaster.

Am I invisible?

If you are could you steal me some cigarettes? They're damn expensive

 

[Deleted member 19654]

The best idea I ever had to work on this was to convince myself that it's okay to be embarrassed and that it's okay to look stupid. It's an ongoing process though. I'll be putting this new philosophy into action on Wednesday with a new job that I faked my way into with a false C.V. and references. I'm sure it will be a beautiful disaster.


If you are could you steal me some cigarettes? They're damn expensive

You managed to get away with fake references?

 

[MichaelNomad123]

You managed to get away with fake references?

Aye. I just gave them an unreachable phone number from another country and a functioning email address that I made. I've found that most places don't care about references for minimum wage work (in the UK), they just have to fill out a form for which they need a few contact details. They emailed my false references and I invented personalities for them. If this didn't work out, I was going to get some free SIMs and practice my best fake voice but thankfully I didn't have to start my acting career just yet

 

[XYZ]

Am I invisible?

I see you.

 

[K-O]

Am I invisible?

whats up love?

 

[Good4Nothing]

whats up love?

Just feeling very isolated and lonely.
I think I got ghosted again.
I don't know why I even try being optimistic anymore. I know I can be a better person if someone gave me a chance, but everyone turns their back on me and I'm growing more bitter by the day.
That turned into a rant. Sorry.

 

[K-O]

Just feeling very isolated and lonely.
I think I got ghosted again.
I don't know why I even try being optimistic anymore. I know I can be a better person if someone gave me a chance, but everyone turns their back on me and I'm growing more bitter by the day.
That turned into a rant. Sorry.

my baby i understand ive been isolating my self for a long long time and im terribly lonely and terrified of everything and everyone..
im not sure im even capable of being close to someone any more, im a contradiction with no strength.. were in need for love but theres something that pushes it away.. i want to change that.

 

[Squiddy]

About to get high in the next hour. Peace at last