Cow

Cow

Willing to die on any given hill
Sep 23, 2020
19
Just gonna say since you all talked about memory issues. I too have had extreme memory problems for long time, I don't have any childhood memories, I know certain things happened but it's like I read them in a book not like I lived through them.

Luckily I remember how to do stuff once I learn how, but I don't really remember events unless they were very significant.

I've heard it's a symptom of depression/anxiety so it checks out that a lot of us here would have issues with it.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
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Just gonna say since you all talked about memory issues. I too have had extreme memory problems for long time, I don't have any childhood memories, I know certain things happened but it's like I read them in a book not like I lived through them.

Luckily I remember how to do stuff once I learn how, but I don't really remember events unless they were very significant.

I've heard it's a symptom of depression/anxiety so it checks out that a lot of us here would have issues with it.
I noticed it more last year, though it could've been here all my life
 
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Soulless Angel

Soulless Angel

Did someone say Rum?
Jul 6, 2020
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my short term memory is crap, it's only been this bad in the past 18 months, I didn't know if it was the alcohol or part of a undiagnosed thing, (ie BPD etc, which they wanted to look into) but its horrid, I also struggle to speak when my mind goes like that, I end up stuttering and struggling to get words out
 
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RM5998

RM5998

Sack of Meat
Sep 3, 2018
2,202
I have it on good authority that my memory is filled with huge gaps instead of supposedly important moments. Considering that my brain is pretty bad at functioning properly even at a low load, I'd say that's how it copes.

Also, Zen 3 launch in a few hours. Hopefully it turns out decent and I can dream of building a PC with my next few paychecks.
 
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nerve

fat cringey shut-in
Jun 19, 2019
1,013
I'm gonna miss my name being yellow ;;... it made me feel like a sparkly princess :,)
 
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FU(KOFFEE
Apr 16, 2020
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wtf is up with the site? it looks horrific and smells like a hospice..
love u wankas
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
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my short term memory is crap, it's only been this bad in the past 18 months, I didn't know if it was the alcohol or part of a undiagnosed thing, (ie BPD etc, which they wanted to look into) but its horrid, I also struggle to speak when my mind goes like that, I end up stuttering and struggling to get words out
My articulation issues are also bad. I have to repeat in my head a million times what I want to say or I'll forget it and I struggle to get the words out.
 
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Deleted member 1465

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and smells like a hospice..
It always smelled like that :blarg: Turn it back to the old scheme if you want, button at the lower left.
My articulation issues are also bad. I have to repeat in my head a million times what I want to say or I'll forget it and I struggle to get the words out.
I'm okay talking (I'm good at that, ironically, I was very socially awkward when younger, not now though), but if someone tells me something to remember, I can't unless i write it down. It's odd: after all those months without sleep, I now feel I can join things up better than i could before, but then i can't understand details or remember stuff as well. I feel both cleverer and more stupid.
Now, where am I and why does it smell like a hospice? :pfff:
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
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It always smelled like that :blarg: Turn it back to the old scheme if you want, button at the lower left.

I'm okay talking (I'm good at that, ironically, I was very socially awkward when younger, not now though), but if someone tells me something to remember, I can't unless i write it down. It's odd: after all those months without sleep, I now feel I can join things up better than i could before, but then i can't understand details or remember stuff as well. I feel both cleverer and more stupid.
Now, where am I and why does it smell like a hospice? :pfff:
I gotta start writing stuff down. But I was a little discouraged when I was at my residential therapy program because when I had stuff written down to tell the nurse practitioner there, she said not to write stuff down as it just upsets me
 
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K-O

K-O

FU(KOFFEE
Apr 16, 2020
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morning y'all :heart:
soo nice to wake up whenever the fuck i want and drink as much coffee as i want!! yesterday i drank 10 cups at least!! no punishments no restrictions no shaming and no bs!! free again!!
hmm whats that smell?.. :heh:
 
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K-O

FU(KOFFEE
Apr 16, 2020
1,462
Does it upset you? If you take notes to aid memory?

I forgot to put my special pants on. Sue me. :blarg: "Cleaner to aisle 3!"
funny cause the last thing i actually said to all them wankers at rehab before storming out was "wipe your fucking asses cause y'all stink to high heaven!"
sue me too :happy:
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
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Does it upset you? If you take notes to aid memory?

I forgot to put my special pants on. Sue me. :blarg: "Cleaner to aisle 3!"
Not all the time
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
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So my intensive outpatient program has a food truck today and I order a philly cheesesteak with cheese fries and a mt dew. It better be good for $13
 
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So my intensive outpatient program has a food truck today and I order a philly cheesesteak with cheese fries and a mt dew. It better be good for $13

Enjoy it Squiddy hope it's good, you've made me hungry now
 
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Viro_Major

Viro_Major

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Just noticed how this thread could have been a pirate landmark. Nah instead, we've got a leaky roaster of



posers ! Whatagathering :blarg: 'Tis the headquarters of SS, where the bosses of the gang discuss (not so) serious business

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On a retrouvé l'anus !
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

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Mar 23, 2018
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wtf is up with the site? it looks horrific and smells like a hospice..
love u wankas
Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeessssssssssssssssssssooooooooooooooooooooooooooommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
to have you back. :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart:
 
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Sensei

剣道家
Nov 4, 2019
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Zup? Quiet evening over here in Scandinavia, this mood sort of:

 
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RedFoxSwims

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Oct 8, 2020
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I listened to the vice presidential debate twice and each night it's knocked me right out. Those things are so boring. I'm doing it again tonight.
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

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Mar 23, 2018
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I listened to the vice presidential debate twice and each night it's knocked me right out. Those things are so boring. I'm doing it again tonight.

Are you a Sucker For Pain ???? :pfff::heart::pfff::heart:


 
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Marchioness

Marchioness

Eternal sleep
Feb 17, 2020
296
I listened to the vice presidential debate twice and each night it's knocked me right out. Those things are so boring. I'm doing it again tonight.
But, the fly! I was wrecked after running to twitter for jokes after seeing the fly on the screen.
 
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Squiddy

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But, the fly! I was wrecked after running to twitter for jokes after seeing the fly on the screen.
I posted it to one of my social media accounts asking if anyone else saw it lol
 
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RedFoxSwims

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But, the fly! I was wrecked after running to twitter for jokes after seeing the fly on the screen.
I never noticed I probably didn't make it that far in.
 
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Viro_Major

Viro_Major

Rad maker
Jul 30, 2020
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Listening to music and also trying to decide whether I want to apply for the mod position

Wouldn't hurt. The mods, for what's left, are mostly MIA when called out. Angel was pulling the greatest efforts - strongly missed.

NB: Visual Basic code is a mess to debug :hmph:
 
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VIBRITANNIA

VIBRITANNIA

lelouch. any pronouns. pfp is by pixiv id 3217872.
Aug 10, 2020
1,156
i'm wondering whether or not it'd be a dickhead move to ask my friend who her dealer was after not talking to her for like a month. but at the same time, i'm going to die in a little over two months, so who cares?
 
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