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[LetzteAusfahrt]

what your level of comfort is/if there is much pain.

I will certainly answer this question precisely

 

[esse_est_percipi]

I will certainly answer this question precisely

Thank you friend

 

[Sensei]

There is quite a bit of modern country that feels much more like old skool stuff. There also country rock and alt country as a counterpoint to the new country from the nineties. There's even some good country coming out of the UK these days.

British country? That's unthinkable. It sounds as unnatural to me as Japanese Morris dance. :P

 

[Brick In The Wall]

What do you get when you mix a Samurai and a Potato?

 

[Lorntroubles]

@LetzteAusfahrt how the gut feels, if any sensations.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Hey boys and girls

What information should I write you as the last thing before the SN knocks me out?

It will still take a while, but I am happy to receive requests or suggestions now

Don't be influenced by an old plan. Take every morning as it is, opportunities will come many more.

Take your time until it is the right one.

I think alot of the questions have been answered by now in my opinion. Not to take away from your offer but I'd prefer that you find comfort and solace instead of try to answer some Q&A.

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

I think alot of the questions have been answered by now in my opinion. Not to take away from your offer but I'd prefer that you find comfort and solace instead of try to answer some Q&A.

Thank you for the nice words. I've already found comfort and peace, I just have to pick him up.

@LetzteAusfahrt how the gut feels, if any sensations.

I will pay attention to what I feel

 

[Sensei]

What do you get when you mix a Samurai and a Potato?

An Irish soldier?

 

[Brick In The Wall]

An Irish soldier?

Hahaha, close enough!

 

[draw a circle]

I hate reading those comics made by artists right after they got over a bad mental health crisis and it starts out like "wow this seems familiar" but then it ends with a sappy happy ending like "wow i'm better now :) I can enjoy life again" like good for fucking you chief I'm glad you looked inside yourself and got your happy ending but not everyone is as lucky as you to just be able to pick yourself up and keep going.

Fuckin mood lol sometimes I will read a story/fanfic of someone struggling with mental health and when it reaches the part where they're recovering/recovered I can't bear to read it because I can't relate anymore

 

[Brick In The Wall]

So I've had a religious/philosophical debate with a roommate. Against my better judgment. I hate such points of contention, especially with people I live with.

 

[draw a circle]

My birthday is nearly over! I ate dinner with my extended family and it was generally fun. And yet I couldn't stop thinking about how I want to end this. I think I spaced out a bit every now and then during the party.

I invited my best friend whom I always hang out with on my birthday and theirs, regardless with our family or not, but this time they didn't seem like they want to come. When I said it's okay not to come they readily agreed to hang out another day. Well, it shouldn't matter, but it really crushes me. They didn't even tell me outright; I saw their instagram story about "cancelling every schedule today because I need time for myself ❤" and I instantly knew they won't be celebrating my birthday. Do you think they didn't tell me "no" right away because they feel guilty? We always did this together for years. Why do I keep getting left behind? I understand wanting to have me time after a busy day but... I can't help but wanting them to be here. It could easily be my last birthday. Am I too selfish? They keep prioritizing their online life as well. I feel like I'm going crazy just for wanting them to be at least there for me when I'm literally feeling suicidal. I don't even talk to them about my problems, I just want to have a friend.

I've had enough. Last year I postponed my plans because I still have them; this year I've got nothing to hold on to.

Edit: sorry for such a lengthy post lol I don't wanna make another thread but needs to let this out. Thanks

 

[Lorntroubles]

My birthday is nearly over! I ate dinner with my extended family and it was generally fun. And yet I couldn't stop thinking about how I want to end this. I think I spaced out a bit every now and then during the party.

I invited my best friend whom I always hang out with on my birthday and theirs, regardless with our family or not, but this time they didn't seem like they want to come. When I said it's okay not to come they readily agreed to hang out another day. Well, it shouldn't matter, but it really crushes me. They didn't even tell me outright; I saw their instagram story about "cancelling every schedule today because I need time for myself ❤" and I instantly knew they won't be celebrating my birthday. Do you think they didn't tell me "no" right away because they feel guilty? We always did this together for years. Why do I keep getting left behind? I understand wanting to have me time after a busy day but... I can't help but wanting them to be here. It could easily be my last birthday. Am I too selfish? They keep prioritizing their online life as well. I feel like I'm going crazy just for wanting them to be at least there for me when I'm literally feeling suicidal. I don't even talk to them about my problems, I just want to have a friend.

I've had enough. Last year I postponed my plans because I still have them; this year I've got nothing to hold on to.

Edit: sorry for such a lengthy post lol I don't wanna make another thread but needs to let this out. Thanks

It's not selfish, who wouldn't want to be treated like they exist? It DOES sting.

 

[Squiddy]

Hey everyone

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Hey everyone

Hey Squiddy ... How are you ?

 

[Squiddy]

Hey Squiddy ... How are you ?

Almost bought SN today, but felt guilty after my mom told my grandma how "well" I was doing :(

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Almost bought SN today, but felt guilty after my mom told my grandma how "well" I was doing :(

I always lie and say how "well" I'm doing ... Unless I'm in here. Sorry you had to lie to your mom.

 

[Squiddy]

I always lie and say how "well" I'm doing ... Unless I'm in here. Sorry you had to lie to your mom.

Technically I didn't lie to her. She's just taking a guess on how I'm doing

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Hey everyone

Heya Squiddy!

I always lie and say how "well" I'm doing ... Unless I'm in here. Sorry you had to lie to your mom.

I can definitely relate to that first bit.

 

[Lorntroubles]

Hey everyone

'Ello!!

 

[Squiddy]

Heya Squiddy!


I can definitely relate to that first bit.

How's it going? :)

'Ello!!

Hey :) how's it going?

 

[Lorntroubles]

How's it going? :)


Hey :) how's it going?

I'm so-so, thinking about the final bits of my life. I'm for the most part, peaceful. Even with all the fucked up shit that happened to me, imo, I think my character is good and strong.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

How's it going? :)


Hey :) how's it going?

Doing alright, I've got one more hour left of work then I'll be much better hehe.

I'm so-so, thinking about the final bits of my life. I'm for the most part, peaceful. Even with all the fucked up shit that happened to me, imo, I think my character is good and strong.

You definitely have a good and strong character. It's hard not to dwell on shit sometimes.

 

[Lorntroubles]

@Brick In The Wall oh, you know it! There's some things from childhood that still ache, even if I can handle pain better as an adult. Also, *pulls off socks and fans feet in front of you* CHEERS!!!!

 

[Squiddy]

Good to hear from you guys. I think I'm gonna head to bed as I've got therapy in the morning :)

 

[Lorntroubles]

Even though my singing is shit and I'm not in good physical shape, I'm going out singing and dancing. Fuck dat shit, imma try to get some joy!!!

 

[FailingAtLife]

Nah. Tbh after six months with less than one hour a night asleep I have noticed some memory problems and mixing up of words. Don't tell anyone but I've been relying on predictive text and autocorrect a bit too much and getting lazy and not checking. Oddly, I feel cleverer, but I do recognize that I may have some long lasting effects from sleep deprivation.

I've been having this issue for some years. Until last night, I hadn't been to bed since sometime last week. It's become my norm to not go to bed; my brain is entirely/permanently f?!ked as a result, and I've the usual feelings of not wanting to do anything to change the sitch and wishing I'd the strength to end it all, but knowing I'll be here forever & that this will never end.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Even though my singing is shit and I'm not in good physical shape, I'm going out singing and dancing. Fuck dat shit, imma try to get some joy!!!

Get a few drinks in you and you'll think you're the greatest fukn singer and dancer of all time!

 

[faraway_beach]

I bought a calendar for next year, as if I'll still be here by then!

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I bought a calendar for next year, as if I'll still be here by then!

That's kinda funny and sad at the same time. Hits you right in the feels.