Story the second bottle

[mothman._.]

My first ever ctb attempt was with oxycodon. my mother was given a prescription for a surgery and she no longer needed the pills. during a spur of the moment lapse of judgment i decided i needed to ctb immediately with no prior plan. i ran downstairs for pills and looked for some stuff that i wouldn't be taking from people that needed it. i found both the oxycodon and some other random meds i was taken off of a while ago. i only ended up taking the oxy because i was worried the second bottle wouldn't let me sleep while i died. obviously the attempt was a failure and i was hospitalized in the end but i will always be hung up over that second bottle i chose not to take. my family has since filled the house with lock boxes to store potentially dangerous objects. i am a literal adult and i'm being treated like a child. i want this to end, i wish i had taken that second bottle so badly. literally my biggest regret.

 

[missingpeace]

Damn, that really sucked that it happened. I'm sure you'll find another way though if that's what you ultimately want.

 

[a_new_man]

Im sorry that happened i hope it goes well if you find a way to try again, failed attempts are the worst i dread trying again just to fail another time

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you would feel so regretful, the thought of failing ctb terrifies me and it sounds so horrible ending up back in this world after trying to leave.