universe
Experienced
- Jul 15, 2022
- 241
I have had this feeling for a year that I'm no longer alive, that I'm no longer part of the world of the living. I feel it in my head, but also physically.
When I go outside, I walk slowly, as if my legs weigh a ton. I feel like I could fall, sink into the ground like cotton wool and lay on the ground staring at the sky for hours. I have a great weight in my chest, a great sadness. And I feel like I'm drawn to the sky : as if I was going to fly away at the slightest gust of wind if my legs weren't holding me back. I feel so fragile, dead.
The last time, I took public transport and I was leaning against a bar. And I didn't feel anything anymore. My vision was slowed down with very bright, almost unreal colors. I didn't even feel my breath anymore: it's as if I no longer needed to breathe. As if I was invisible, like a ghost, a spectator and the world was passing before my eyes.
When I go outside, I walk slowly, as if my legs weigh a ton. I feel like I could fall, sink into the ground like cotton wool and lay on the ground staring at the sky for hours. I have a great weight in my chest, a great sadness. And I feel like I'm drawn to the sky : as if I was going to fly away at the slightest gust of wind if my legs weren't holding me back. I feel so fragile, dead.
The last time, I took public transport and I was leaning against a bar. And I didn't feel anything anymore. My vision was slowed down with very bright, almost unreal colors. I didn't even feel my breath anymore: it's as if I no longer needed to breathe. As if I was invisible, like a ghost, a spectator and the world was passing before my eyes.
