Deathiswelcomed
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- May 21, 2026
- 3
I've been bed rotting and just not getting out much if at all since the year started amd a few months before the start of the school year. I havent been feeling the best ive been losing weight I weighed 92 pounds before gaining 4 pounds just recently that im now losing again. My legs havent been doing well since I cant stand for long without feeling like my legs will give out like they did before. I cant sleep without waking up shaking almost aggressively if not and out of it I feel light headed and dizzy especially since my sister constantly punches me in the head or my body which leaves me in pain for hours if not sore for a few days.. I constantly feel the urge to ctb but not sure if I want to just cut my wrist or if I want to try hanging.. ive tried to od over 10 times and havent succeeded only woke up the next day extremely out of it and feeling really unwell I really hate this and I hate myself my mom didn't want me my daddy even od. I just cant take all of the stuff that constantly happens anymore.. the world is so cruel I just want to end it but I am scared that I will fail again and get sent off to a mental hospital..
