I genuinely can’t stand being here anymore

[bl33ding_heart]

I genuinely can't stand another second in this house. I despise my mother so much just hearing her voice is enough to make me split. I don't think I can physically handle being around her for much longer, I am seriously at my breaking point.

She will intentionally repeatedly make me split and then act like I'm the one that's crazy and out of proportion. She has been physical with me before and then called the cops on me and made up some bullshit about how I'm being violent.

She is one of the main reasons I have this mental cancer known as borderline personality disorder. I have to be around her for the next 4 months, and possible even longer if I'm not lucky enough to get into a good university.

I am just so drained of any of the tiny amount of will to better my life I once had. I don't have the energy to even try anymore. I just wanna jump off a building and have all of my problems finally disappear.

 

[mars2027]

I'm sorry you're going through that. I really hope these are your last four months of misery. Some mothers don't deserve to be called mothers.

 

[Knives_14]

I think that the fact you know that there's a chance to get out and maybe get into uni is a worthy reason to endure and try to hang in there.. Of course i'm not downplaying your pain AT ALL, it must be fucking awful and i have no idea how long you've been suffering like this.

It's just that i think uni is a great moment in life, especially when you experience your first time being on your own, and i think there's a chance you would like it too and who knows, maybe have a good time as well =]

Pardon my english, it's not my first language and i'm smoking a big ass joint rn ahah!
bottom line is, i hope you're ok OP and i wish you peace and happiness however you might achieve them

 

[SASU-KE]

I thought you meant SASU for a second. I know you wouldn't say something so mean


Plenty of people fail at being decent parents. Will you be able to stay at a hostel in college?
That will help you escape.

Keep trying your best. One day you will be independent and your parents can't interfere with you anymore.

 

[rainydaysnail]

i'm so sorry that you're having to experience this if there's a chance you can move away from home in four months time then i think it's worth sticking around a little while longer. you may find that you like it or at least are in a better position to start to create a life that you enjoy. if not then you always have the option to ctb then. i'm really wishing you the best

 

[redmourningdove]

It's terrible you have to deal with this and I'm glad hope is on the horizon. Uni truly is a great opportunity to develop independence for yourself and realize what makes life worth living. Keep in there, soon the pain will not be as bad

 

[bl33ding_heart]

I thought you meant SASU for a second. I know you wouldn't say something so mean


Plenty of people fail at being decent parents. Will you be able to stay at a hostel in college?
That will help you escape.

Keep trying your best. One day you will be independent and your parents can't interfere with you anymore.

The first sentence made me laugh if I'm being honest.